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Tweak says, "It's all about TEH LOVE."

Jeremy Gilbert (lost_boy_jere) wrote in colligo_threads,
@ 2011-04-16 03:09:00

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WHO: Jeremy and Anna
WHEN: After this
WHERE: Apartment 501C
WHAT: Jeremy wants to talk to Anna face to face
RATING: TBD
STATUS: In progress

Jeremy should have just stayed at home. He knew that. He should have stayed in his apartment, or, better still, gone to see his girlfriend. The fact that he was climbing the stairs to Anna's floor, going to see the one girl who rivaled in his affections, the one girl he had no will power around, was insanity, at best. But he wanted to see her, and not just because it was stupid to have an argument about feelings over text. He had things he needed to sort out with Vicki, but everything Anna had said had affected him deeply. He hadn't meant to hurt her. Hell, he hadn't even been expecting her to turn up. Perhaps if he'd known she was coming, he wouldn't have jumped into things with Vicki. But Vicki had been there for him when he'd been turned into a vampire. True, she'd made it harder for him, testing his self restraint to the limit. And, true, she'd wanted to drink his blood to get high, but on some level they loved and understood each other. Before, that had meant everything to Jeremy. Now, he wasn't sure it was enough. He had changed so much since he'd been that messed up kid who liked to hang around in cemeteries getting high and screw his sister's boyfriend's older sister. That wasn't who he was any more. He hated to think it, but he was better than that. And that was all Vicki was ever going to be. She had said it once, but he hadn't realised how true it was until recently. This place had brought to light all the differences between them and what they wanted. Jeremy knew he would always love Vicki. But it wasn't enough. At least, it didn't feel like it right now.

Jeremy mounted the top of the stairs and found the door to the first apartment - Anna's. He licked his lips, wondering if he should just leave now, without even knocking. That would have been stupid for two reasons though, he decided. 1) He'd text Anna to tell her he was coming. 2) She'd have been able to hear him coming up the stairs. If he left now, he'd look even more of a dick than he already did. So he knocked on the door and waited for a reply.

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lost_boy_jere
2011-04-18 06:43 pm UTC (link)

Jeremy knew this was quickly spiralling out of control. He was kissing her again, hard and deep, his lips urgent on hers. This was Anna; this was right. But he knew it wasn't. This was cheating on Vicki, and that really wasn't good. He was an awful person and a terrible boyfriend, but he just couldn't help himself.

He pulled Anna easily onto his lap. She was so small and it was so easy to forget how strong she really was when she looked so vulnerable. He loved that about her. He loved everything about her. She was perfect and kissing her felt perfect. He let his hands run slowly up her back, the motion almost a subconscious reaction to how close she was. He needed to stop this now, while he still could, but the fact remained that he just didn't want to! One of his hands reached her hair and tangled in the long, dark waves. It was only when he needed to come up for breath that he broke the kiss. He pulled his head back a little, looking down at her, his eyes wide and worried.

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notstalkingyou
2011-04-19 05:45 pm UTC (link)

There was a comfort to this. As desperate and lustful as her kiss was, there was reassurance there as well. Jeremy was here, he cared about her. Her death had not wiped that away as she had worried it would. Considering his lingering feelings for Vicki she had no idea why she had worried but it was not as if Anna had loved many people in her long life. She had seen what happened when people supposedly loved you with Jeremy's ancestor. But her Gilbert was different, she knew that.

Anna fit into his lap so perfectly. Everything was as it was supposed to be. But when the kiss broke she saw that worry in his eyes. This wasn't right, they both knew it. Even if she did not know this Vicki girl that did not mean that Anna wanted to be cruel.

Kissing his lips lightly just one more time, she pulled away, crawling out of his lap. "Jeremy, I think you should go." she said quietly, miserable.

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lost_boy_jere
2011-04-19 06:06 pm UTC (link)

Jeremy let his eyes flutter shut as she brushed her lips against his one more time. He felt her move away from him but he didn't open his eyes again. He didn't want to face this. This wasn't what he'd wanted. He could hear the misery in Anna's voice. He took a deep breath before slowly standing up, finally opening his eyes. He looked down at her. "I need to talk to Vicki..." he said after a moment, frowning. What, exactly, he was going to say to his girlfriend, he really didn't know. But he could just leave things like they were. "I'll call you?" he offered quietly, not moving towards the door. He didn't want to leave, although he knew he had to.

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notstalkingyou
2011-04-19 11:46 pm UTC (link)

Anna could not help the weak, pathetic little laugh that came out of her when he said he needed to talk to Vicki. Right, cause that was going to end so well for the both of them. Not that Vicki was much of a threat to her, but it was going to upset Jeremy. She rubbed the palms of her hands against her forehead as he said he would call her. Everything would be so simple if she just dragged him into her bedroom but sadly that was not in the plan.

"Right... hope it goes well." Anna sighed, not looking up at him.

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lost_boy_jere
2011-04-19 11:52 pm UTC (link)

Jeremy chanced a glance down at her. She wasn't looking at him. He sighed. He had to put this right, somehow. Slowly, he nodded before turning and crossing to the door to her apartment. "Anna," he said, looking back at her. He didn't know what to say. That he had really enjoyed kissing her again? That he loved her? That he was sorry? It would all sound pathetic right now. The situation was in his hands and only he could make it right. He bit his lip before turning back to the door and letting himself out.

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