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Tweak says, "Watch out for falling coconuts"

Jeremy Gilbert (lost_boy_jere) wrote in colligo_threads,
@ 2011-03-25 17:35:00

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alaric saltzman, jeremy gilbert

WHO: Jeremy and Ric
WHEN: Friday lunchtime
WHERE: Ric's appartment
WHAT: Jeremy needs some company to stop him going insane
RATING: TBD
STATUS: Incomplete

Jeremy had been going absolutely stir crazy. He'd mainly stayed in his room since discovering what he'd become. It had been very hard to make himself stay put, especially when Stefan had come to see Elena. He'd been able to smell the blood, even though the walls and door that separated them. He'd wanted to rip into Stefan's flesh and completely drain him. It terrified him. He actually liked Stefan. He didn't want to think he was capable of hurting someone he liked. The experience had bought everything concerning Vicki into a very stark light. He could remember, actually remember, what had happened the night she'd died. He could remember her trying to bite him, and the way she had attacked Elena. Still, instead of being angry at her for it, he completely understood where she was coming from. He felt so sorry for her, having to go through all this alone. She was fragile, far more so than him. He couldn't imagine how hard it all must have been for her.

Jeremy made sure all the curtains in the living room of the appartment was shut, no sunlight able to seep in and burn him, before making his way to the front door. He slipped out into the hall, checking no one was around for him to attack, before crossing to Ric's door and knocking. Every sense seemed to be heightened. He could see little flakes on the wall where the paint was beginning to peel and he could hear people moving around in the other appartments. It freaked him right out! "Hurry up," he said impatiently, frowning as he waited.

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likevanhelsing
2011-03-31 01:34 am UTC (link)

The bag of blood didn't really impress Ric any more. He'd tried the real thing and he preferred that. But it wasn't like he was going to get Damon to give donations every day or hunt down people outside. He had enough self-control that he could settle for this. It seemed like he just needed to teach Jeremy the same sort of self-control. "It gets better," he said calmly. "You just have to work through it...and that can be hard. There's a part of you that will always want the blood, and damn the consequences, but what you have to do is overcome that and not let it master you. You're the one in control, not the hunger. You just need to remember that."

He sighed. "Emotions are a tough thing," he said. "You feel them more as a vampire, unless you shut them off. And I wouldn't advise that, because it's your emotions that make you human. Cutting them out makes it harder not to lose yourself. And then the strong emotions - the love, the hate, the anger - they all translate into that hunger. That's why you're so drawn to Vicki. You have that love and that anger and that grief...and your body turns all of that into hunger. Does that make sense?" And somehow, he'd become a freaking Qui-Gon for baby vampires, when he barely knew how to do it himself. Fantastic.

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lost_boy_jere
2011-04-04 06:41 pm UTC (link)

"Yeah yeah, I know," Jeremy said, glancing sideways at the bag. Still, he didn't reach out for it. He wanted to learn how to control himself, because once he had, he could see Vicki again. He didn't want to risk seeing her until he knew he was safe, although right now, she was the one person he wanted to see more than anyone else.

"I guess so," he said, frowning. He really didn't want to think he would ever hurt Vicki, but now the compusion was wearing off, he remembered what had happened the night Vicki had died. She'd wanted to feed on him and she'd attacked Elena. That wasn't the Vicki he'd known. That was her hunger talking and he didn't want to risk that happening with him.

"I'll be fine," he said eventually, crossing his arms over his chest and letting his eyes shut briefly as he took a deep breath. After a moment, he reached out and took hold of the blood bag again. He took another sip and licked his lips before looking up at Ric. "Where's this pizza anyway?" Jeremy asked. He hadn't eaten real food since this whole thing had started, and although he wasn't hungry, at least not for pizza, he really wanted to eat, if only just to feel a little more normal.

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