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Lily Potter (goodatcharms) wrote in colligo_threads,
@ 2011-02-17 21:07:00

Entry tags:

!closed, lily evans, sirius black

WHO: Lily and Sirius
WHAT: Picnic? XD
WHERE: Sirius' work, then the park
WHEN: February 17th at Lunchtime :D
RATING: Urm a little high due to likely swearing
STATUS: In Progress

Lily woke a little later than she probably should have and was willing to blame last night for it. It had been hard, learning so much about her future in the space of time it took to read a page in a book. She had found out more than she would have liked to, but she guessed it would have happened one day. She wasn't too sure just what to do with the rest of her day, however, and after showering and getting dressed she sat and stared at the book she had left on the floor yesterday.

No, she couldn't go back to that. Not alone.

She had wanted to see Sirius. Well now would be a good time. She knew he worked most days, and after realising the time, thought perhaps lunch would be nice. Finding a plastic box, she started to make up various foods and put in packets of whatever she could find that wouldn't result in Donna yelling at her for draining the resources they had. Placing that along with a bottle some fizzy type drink into her bag, she lifted it before heading out.

It didn't take long for her to reach where Sirius worked, but it was a different matter trying to find exactly where he was. After a few minutes of searching she saw him through an open door into a seperate part of the garage. She was about to knock, but decided giving him a fright if she could would be much more fun. So she brought her wand from it's place in her bag and made the tools sitting next to him fly. Grinning after a moment, she let them fall with a clatter.

"I have a delivery for Sirius Black."

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pad_foot
2011-02-22 04:04 pm UTC (link)

Sirius nodded again, running the back of his hand over his mouth. The other hand was still in his pocket, and he turned a box of cigarettes over absently between his fingers. But he knew Lily didn't like it, so he held off lighting up until she left him back at the garage. He'd been meaning to quit before he came here, mainly because of Lily's insistance that nothing resembling smoke come anywhere near her son - something Sirius understood completely. Only since arriving in Colligo that idea had gone off the boil a little.

"I'm sorry," he said again, a little awkwardly. It was odd, really, how Sirius found it almost impossible to apologize to anyone who wasn't James, Lily, Harry or Remus. But when it came to those four he felt like he had to do it all the time. "I wish I could do something... I just... I dunno. Do you want to ask me anything? About this place or... what happens? I mean... I only have what I remember from the other me." And he was halfway insane, he thought, but didn't say.

After all, as far as he knew, James and Lily didn't know about Azkaban, and he wanted to keep it that way for as long as possible. It wasn't a topic he wanted to talk about, because when he did he heard a buzzing in his head and it hurt.

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goodatcharms
2011-02-23 11:19 pm UTC (link)

"I...I don't know. Part of me wants to know everything, but then I worry if I will just regret it after."

She sighed softly, eyes falling on the bread in her hand but not lifting it to take another bite. Her appetite wasn't as strong anymore now that she was thinking about the situation she had found herself in. She had her future in front of her, the ability to know anything he knew that would happen for her in the short time she had left alive. That in itself was something hard to come to terms with. She would die soon.

"What would you do if you were in my situation? Would you want to know?"

Not that she would do as he said, she just wanted another opinion. She knew the books were bound to tell her things but there was something about hearing it from Sirius that made it more believable. Not that she would tell him she relied on him for the truth for once.

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pad_foot
2011-02-24 10:01 pm UTC (link)

Sirius quirked an eyebrow. "You're not really giving me a lot to work with here, Lils." He reached forward, grabbing another sandwich and shoving it into his mouth whole.

"Well, I know what happens to me." Sirius' knee twitched a little, and he shifted, avoiding Lily's gaze. He didn't know how much she knew about him, and really didn't want to be made to talk about it. So he skimmed over it, and inwardly prayed she wouldn't question it. Of course, she'd hear about Azkaban eventually. But he was quite up for putting that day off.

Sirius reached for the bag, searching through it for something to drink, managing to avoid her gaze as he spoke. "But other people know what happens to you, so you're bound to hear it sooner or later. Even if you don't want to. It's just... I dunno, Lils. It's your choice."

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goodatcharms
2011-02-24 11:55 pm UTC (link)

"And that doesn't seem good, guessing from your reaction."

She watched him for a second before looking out to her surroundings. She was going to find out eventually and, as he said, it could be from someone she doesn't know. Some people know her future and would just say it all without care. She had experienced that before. Wouldn't it be better to hear from someone she trusted even if she wouldn't admit that she did. Sighing softly, she looked back to him.

"Tell me. Everything."

She was giong to hear it anyway as she listened to the books with James like they had decided, but she wanted to know.

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pad_foot
2011-02-25 05:47 pm UTC (link)

Oh, fantastic. Sirius sighed, located a bottle of water and spent a moment pulling his wand out and transfiguring it into a thermus of tea. For a moment he was quiet, unnaturally so for him, pouring a portion of the steaming drink into the mug that doubled as a lid and passing it over to Lily. He took a healthy swig himself from the thermus itself. It was a little watery - James had always been best at transfiguration - but otherwise good.

"You and James started going out in seventh year. We all graduated, and joined the Order of the Pheonix together pretty much straight away. We were fighting the Death Eaters with Dumbledore. Things... they got really bad. People were dying or vanishing every other day. Our friends, people we went to Hogwarts with. Marlene and Dorcas and... everyone. But we fought a lot of battles and everything was just..." He hesitated. "We weren't winning. They were getting rally popwerful, took over the ministry. But you and James got married, and you had Harry and made me Godfather. You were so happy together, even with everything going to shit. It was a bit sickening. But we used to hang out at your house all the time and it... it was pretty great. I mean, it was the closest thing to a normal family I've ever had. Harry was only about five weeks when I was brought here."

"Then there was a prophecy - I didn't know the details, but Voldemort was after Harry. So you go into hiding for a long time. In the end we decide to use the fidelius charm to keep you all safe. And we told everyone I would be secret keeper." Sirius glanced up at Lily for the first time since he started the story. "James is the best friend I've ever had. I love you both and everyone would assume I was going to be the one picked. But at the last minute we switched to Pete. We don't tell anyone. Not Dumbledore or Remus. No' one. Because that way they'd keep thinking it was me and Pete would be able to keep you safe. I fucked up, Lils. It was my idea to use a bluff." Sirius voice was suddenly a little hoarse. He hated telling this story, hated thinking about it. "I fucked up so badly."

"He was a Death Eater. I don't know how long or why or whatever. But he told them where you are, and he finds you and comes to Godrics Hollow and..."

His voice caught a little, and Sirius took a huge gulp of tea to get rid of the lump that had swollen in his throat. "Because you died for Harry, you leave protection on him. In him. When Voldemort tried to kill him, the curse rebounded. It ripped him from his body and he was gone. Harry was left with just a scar. But he had to go to your sister because he needed the protection that came from your blood..."

Sirius looked up from his lap, seeking out Lily's gaze and trying to work out whether he could stop here.

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goodatcharms
2011-02-25 06:36 pm UTC (link)

She took the mug without a word, her eyes firmly on his as she waited. She was feeling nervous, more than nervous if she was honest. He didn't seem so sure about telling her what she wanted to know and she almost told him to forget it. But she was going to find out eventually. And why not hear when she had the support of someone she supposed was a friend.

The moment he mentioned James her eyes flickered to the floor. As much as she hated to admit it, she had found herself feeling a bit more attracted to him recently. Especially after last night when he came to comfort her. There was something so, and she couldn't believe she thought this way, but there was something so right about the way she fit in his arms. As if she was meant to be there.

She never would have thought Peter a death eater. She never spoke much to him, but she just assumed that was because of his quietness. She never pushed anything on him, never spoke to him if he did not seem willing to have a conversation. But to think that he was willing to, in a way, cause her murder. James' and the near death of her baby boy? She wouldn't have believed it.

She felt a little relief even if she hated the thought of her sister looking after her magical son. She knew from the book, if that was extremely accurate, that she didn't treat him well. And she wanted to hurt her so badly for doing so. But she was the only protection her baby had and if it kept him safe then she guessed it was the only thing to do. When Sirius stopped and looked at her, she didn't think before putting her mug down and wrapping her arms around him tightly.

"I know you're blaming yourself. I know you better than I probably should since I came here, and you shouldn't. You weren't to know."

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