Light Yagami (god_of_justice) wrote in clockwork_rp, @ 2008-01-21 18:27:00 |
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Current mood: | sad |
Current music: | Evanescence - My Immortal |
Entry tags: | duo::elltwosweeper, light::god_of_justice |
Today's The Day Where Dreaming Ends
Coda ~ Love [ Complete ]
Who: Light god_of_justice and Duo elltwosweeper
What: Drama.
When: Sometime after his journal entry..
Where: Light and Duo's room...
Warnings: Drama, split personalities, sad, sweet... I don't know if you need tissues D:
Light: *paces the room a tad bit knowing that this conversation might turn tables and it might not.* (I've never been this nervous before... but what else am I supposed to do?) *sits down on the edge of the bed and stares at the door waiting as he takes in a deep breath and lets it out slowly*
Duo: *Steps inside and sees how tense Light is, not liking the looks of things but goes to sit beside him, reaching over to kiss him in greeting and whispers** Everything alright, babe?
Light: I guess I'm just tense. *moves slightly closer to him before looking away* I've been thinking of way to try to keep these personalities in check but it's not going to happen. I've been thinking of going to go see Yuuko but ... I just don't know what the price would be.
Duo: *Sighs and nuzzles his throat* We could go together if ya want. I was kinda thinkin' of goin' to her about it too . . .
Light: Really? *puts his head on top of his gently* Then we should go together if you were thinking about going to her about it as well. But... that's not all. I meet up with my older self as well.
Duo: . . . *wary about where this is going* Yeah? I talked to him a bit, wasn't able to really get a clear idea on what he's like . . .
Light: He's much more mature since he is older. *sighs slightly as he looks away from Duo* If all of my personalities go back to being as one... I just might be just a stubborn as him.
Duo: *Smirks* Like you're not stubborn already.
Light: Yes but there's something else about him. *looks at him, smiles* Duo... there are other things... that I want to say but saying them is so hard.
Duo: *Tips his chin over to steal a kiss* Just say it.
Light: *shakes his head* Not now... should we go.. see Yuuko now or wait?
Duo: . . . *concerned* She can wait. What do you want to say?
Light: What would you... call our relationship?
Duo: . . . *smirks but it's vaguely uncomfortable* I dunno, was never too big into the label thing. I love you, you love me, what does it matter what we call each other?
Light: As long as you know that I love you than... *closes his eyes and then opens them back up* You should know, Duo, that I have had done things with others.
Light: Not just making out but also having sex. Although, it's not the same feeling when I'm around you.
Duo: *Is silent for a long moment and finally pulls away, still sitting on the bed . . . and smirks faintly* I knew it . . .
Light: . . . *looks down at the ground*
Duo: Who?
Light: *looks over at him* Like I should tell you. How do I know that you won't go after them because of what I did.
Duo: *Glares faintly* Don't turn this into me, Light. You're the one that went off, not me, and you really think I'd shoot someone 'cause you were an idiot?
Light: How am I not to say you won't go to them to ask them why they didn't stop? *glares at him* I'm not trying to turn this about you because you haven't done anything. I made the decision and the choice to mess around.
Light: Quite honestly with the times of messing around there's too many people to tell you. How many of them I had sex with is about half or slim since I'm picky as it is.
Duo: *Sneers and stands up, pacing slowly but agitatedly* I should've known better. I really shoulda known better. You were way too immature t'be in a real relationship. Dammit! *Whirls back around* If you didn't wanna be in a relationship, why the hell didn't you tell me?!
Light: *stares at him calmly knowing that the other would be mad which was the whole reason why he didn't want to bring anything up* (But that would be cowardly wouldn't it? Light the coward, I'm not the coward at all.) Because I didn't know what to do. It's not like I can't help flirting with people but if you hadn't notice that only person I have said had the balls to say I love them is you. *gets up from the bed*
Light: I would have told anyone about false sayings and get away with it. But they don't mean anything like you do.
Light: Even if I haven't been in a real relationship before you have been the person that I would end up going back to. Not so meaningless person who I don't give a shit about.
Light: Go ahead and yell do what you want. I've been expecting it knowing that I would end up telling you about this sooner or later so just say your piece.
Duo: Don't gimme this pity party "Oh I still love you I came back to you, didn't I" shit, okay?! 'Cause that's all it is, bullshit! I've heard it all before, Light, an' I'm sick of it! Love only means as much as you're willin' t'put into it; if all I am t'you is a regular lay and a warm bed t'sleep, then what the hell're we doin' here?!
Light: I don't know?! Why don't you tell me Duo?! WHY DO I BOTHER TO KEEP COMING BACK?! Why do I bother to say things knowing that you are going to scream and yell over it? When I know that all we're going to end up doing is fight over it!
Light: What's the point in fighting when none of us are happy to bring shit like this up?! Why do I have to feel better about myself when I'm dead?!
Light: THAT ISN'T FUCKING NORMAL!
Duo: . . . I know that, Light. And I'm sick of it. I've been through the whole suicidal boyfriend thing before too, and I'm sick of it! I can't deal with this anymore, Light! Goddammit! *Spins around again, rubbing a hand over his face, and then turns back, sad* Y'know, there's a point when ya gotta realize that something's just plain unhealthy for everyone involved . . .
Light: *looks away from him speaking softly but clearly* I want you to be happy and not have to worry about what I'm currently doing or currently getting myself into. But this dream can't keep going on... at least not like this. If we're not going to be together I can't trust you with the Death Note... If we break and move on I want it back as a pre-caution for myself.
Duo: . . . *glares* You really think I'd use it against you?
Light: I have told people this people and I've warned Sakura of it. I'll warn you again. You might not be tempted to do so now but you might be tempted to at least use it once. But it doesn't belong to you. There is no point to use it here anyway and Sakura used it in a childish fashion because she fucked up. *narrows his eyes at him* I'm not going to tell you for a second time it's for a pre-caution because how do I know that you won't try selling it to someone else?
Duo: What are you, insane?! You gave it to me to protect it from you, that's the only reason I still have it! If I'm gonna kill someone I'm not gonna do it with some magical notebook like some little chickenshit, I'll do it with my own two hands! You want it back, you better come up with a better reason than that!
Light: You don't think I have the balls to pick up a gun and shoot someone? You don't think I'm afraid of that happening once I put these personalities back together? *glares at him* I don't trust myself with the notebook but I know how to forget about it. Give it to me, Duo.
Duo: And why should I trust you that you will forget about it?
Light: Enough with this game.. give it to me and I'll be gone.
Duo: *Snorts and goes to leave himself* Find it yourself, I'm movin' back to my own room.
Light: *steps in front of him puts his hands up* Give it to me, Duo. I'm not having you leave this room without giving it to me.
Duo: You really think you can stop me?
Light: Yes. Yes I believe I can. Don't know why.. but... *puts his hand behind his back and takes out the gun and points it at him* Anshi put it there... told me I might not have to use it. But give it to me Duo.
Duo: *Doesn't even flinch, only narrows his eyes more* And you really think you have the guts to use it? *Snorts and holds out his hands, only his eyes showing even the vaguest hint of fear* Go on then. Shoot me. Blow my damn brains out. Just remember that you'll still hafta search for it then what with me bein' dead. And I still won't tell you.
Light: *stares at him and keeps the gun steady even if he can feel the shakes starting with his legs*red eyes stay focus on Duo* If I don't shoot you Duo... someone else will. I won't give him the pleasure of doing it even if he hates you with a passion. Don't do this! JUST GIVE ME THE NOTEBOOK!
Anshi: ^____^ Best do as he says Duo-kun!
Duo: *Is a little creeped out at the sudden change in personality, but doesn't show any reaction on his face, instead darts forward in a flash past the gun, a hand clamping around Light's wrist and the other arm wrapping around his neck, tightly enough to keep him immobile, not to choke* Don't push me, Yagami, ya still don't know who you're dealin' with.
Anshi: It isn't safe here. Give the notebook to me. It doesn't matter where it goes back it's not safe here. *keeps a hold of the gun and goes to pull the trigger* Give me the notebook, Duo-kun. Kira doesn't know what I do.
Duo: *Nuzzles and whispers against his ear* Light, I know you're in there. Let me destroy the notebook. You keep saying you don't need it, there's no point in using it here. So let me destroy it. We can do it together, we'll burn the damn thing and it'll be over and done with . . . Let's destroy it . . .
Anshi: You think destroying the notebook will be such a good idea. Duo-kun, why are you making this harder than it already is? Just give us the notebook and you'll won't have to get hurt.
Duo: *Still murmuring* You say that like I'm scared. But I wasn't talking to you. I was talking to Light. And he knows that there's no point in using it here. There's no need for anonymous killing, 'round here, and it's not like death lasts. You don't need it, Light, I don't need it, so let's just destroy it. Then we can be sure the wrong person won't get their hands on it, once and for all.
Light: *says quietly* Just give me the notebook Duo... just stop this... and give me the notebook. Give it to me so you are not in danger. I.... I might have told someone that you knew where it was. I won't be able to live with myself knowing they will be after you to get that information. So please just give it to me.
Duo: . . . *tries not to get pissed off at the fact that Light had apparently told someone about him having the notebook* I can take care o'myself, babe, don't worry 'bout me. If somethin' happens t'me it'll be on my own head for makin' a stupid mistake. It's safer this way, isn't it? Just gettin' rid of it and we'll never hafta worry 'bout it again.
Light: Duo. Just. Give it. To me. *lets go the gun dropping it to the ground and kicking it away* Duo, please.
Duo: *Watches the gun skid across the floor and sighs* Light . . . *Turns Light's face towards him and kisses him, deeply, tenderly, warmly, and lovingly* I'm not givin' you the death note. *Shoves him away and disappears out the door, rushing down the hall to the elevators, just in case Kira comes out. He stops just as the elevator doors open and gazes back down the hall sadly for just a moment* G'bye, babe . . . *and he slips into the elevator*
Light: *stands there quietly for a couple of minutes before dropping on to his knees leans over and starts pounding on the floor*warm tears flow his cheeks as he keeps smacking the floor before curling in on himself screaming out as if in pain* (Idiot... Such a fool to believe...) *sobs, pounds the floor a couple more times*softly* ....I loved you... no one else.... why.... why...