A hollow little smile appears of his face, a tired one. He barely understands it himself, but never-the-less...because this is Nata, and of everyone here, it's his other half that at least deserves an explanation.
"Perhaps....perhaps you're right. But I did break it." Blue eyes turn back to Nata. "I didn't want to kill him. But when the code forced my hand...you could say I snapped. I was angry...angry enough to break it." Gaze turns back to the far wall, thinking. "I don't want to hurt anyone anymore...and I can finally say that without the orders echoing in my ears. I can't hear her anymore."
The Reaper lets himself fall back and stares up at the ceiling. "I don't understand Nata. He was like you...he wanted to help me. I can't understand that. I feel regret, but I don't know why. I didn't want to kill Jade." Can't ask for forgiveness, but wanting to apologise anyway. Lost Soul didn't understand it.