He tried to smile. Yes it had been so long but Lucien was getting to the point that he was about to go steal some liquor. The only way he got through the day was Nate. Looking at Nate he knew he couldn't be drunk again. He was not going to hurt the man he loved ever again. Well by drinking that was. Lucien hurt Nate on a daily bases like to day.
"You are special. Even if no one ever saw it but me. You are special." He kissed his hand and then Nate's lips, it was a slow and gentle kiss. His other hand cupped his cheek.
"But I think the OCD is not calming down." he said against his lips. "Do you think you can get up enough energy to make out? We don't have to have sex, but I am still not ready to get up."