|the little ghost (erice) wrote in chicagothread,|
@ 2008-01-12 10:31:00
eleanor rice (6:46:40 PM): mm, so it was a thursday nigh tand one of eleanor's girlfriends - shelby - was having a birthday party. she was turning 28 and apparently that was a big thing. collectively, everyone was gathered at shelby's apartment drinking and then were going to take a cab over toward some club. it wasn't your ordinary club, no, not at all. it was one of those upscale clubs, wherever every man has to dress nice and women all have to be in dresses. it was hardly a place a person lke eleanor would be caught dead in, but apparently shelby had connections and was able to score a vip room. so, as the party moved upstairs to the vip room eleanor continued to banter endlessly and drink obsessively. all the while keeping an eye out for ryanne. finally, the night was drawing closer to mid-night and she abandoned her wait and went to dance with brian, who turned out happen to know shelby. small word, the two were what looked like dry humping on the dance floor while eleanor continued to suck back drinks. --
ryanne clayton (6:54:30 PM): She was running late, no more than late. Hours have passed as she pounded down beer after beer with her friend just to run from the pain of the soar nose she was sniffing herself up. By the time it was a half pass midnight she found herself at the club she was suppose to be at. Everyone stared at her. How could she show up? Who was she? Or..he? Dressed in her best pinstripe suit and tie she watched Eleanour, grinding on a man. She wanted to walk over and cause a scene but that just wasn't in her nature.
eleanor rice (7:09:32 PM): so many songs later eleanor broke away. "i want to sit down for a bit," she lied. really, she was just a little overwhelmed by the slapping of his manhood against her behind and a part of her missed ryanne. he attempted to go in for a kiss or something, eleanor was too quick. even in her inebriated stated. sighing, she walked to the bar nursing a different drink that she picked off from one of the walking shooter girls. she settled in her dress and slumped forward, "please something hard. this night wont end fast enough." she complained, a soft smile grazing her lips.
ryanne clayton (7:16:24 PM): Ryanne was proud she denied him of a kiss. It meant something for her to not kiss him. Watching her go to the bar she couldn't help but walk over to her, slipping her hand over her shoulder to brush her collar bone. "Hey you." She smiled softly, pulling a seat up be side her, her breath ranked of beer and cigarette but Ryanne didn't care, she made it to the party.
eleanor rice (7:25:44 PM): Eleanor smiled, at the warmth of the hand. The sound of her voice sent chills up her spine, "..Hello." She turned her head shyly toward her, "I thought you stood me up." She suggested, "I wanted for a while and finally gave in to Brian. He's a creep." She admitted. Twisting completely, Eleanor hooked her heel into Ryanne's chair. Poor Eleanor was pretty far beyond inebriated, her accent was a lot thicker at this point and her usual radiant blue hues were glazed over. "What kept you?" She beckoned leaning forward to trace her fingertip across the outside of her jacket.
ryanne clayton (7:29:19 PM): "Um." She started out, leaning against the bar as she supported her head up, looking her over. "My friend came by and stayed for a while, man. I couldn't get her to leave." Not that she even told her to leave, she didn't want her leave. "So you look sexy." She told her, looking her over she was very impressed at how nice she cleaned up as well.
eleanor rice (7:32:05 PM): Uh, Eleanor was always dressed nice - duh. Just not sexy nice. "I told you I was hoping you'd come." She offered, turning away from her. Eleanor had a hard time convincing herself that Ryanne's - friend - came over and not one of her bedmates. She crossed her feet at the ankles and flagged the bartender down for another martini. That'd be what, her 9th for the night possibly more. "Two of you have fun? You look a little flushed." She said, a bit of distaste lingering in her voice.
ryanne clayton (7:35:15 PM): A hand to her face she felt if she was warm and she slightly was. She sat up and shook her head a little. "Eh, she was talking about needing a room mate and what not. Her girlfriend ditched her so.. It was weird." She shrugged, asking for a beer as she got her martini. "You look a little drunk, you alright over there?"
eleanor rice (7:38:02 PM): "Is she going to move in with you?" Eleanor didn't like the idea of Ryanne sharing her flat with another woman. Especially, after learning of her promiscious past. Friends or not, she was still a little jealous. "I had to do something to pass the time." Eleanor sucked down her martini in a few gulps and then began to stand, "I think I am going to dance again." Hmph.
ryanne clayton (7:40:12 PM): "I think so." She told her, running a hand through her hair and messing it up more. People were staring and she felt way out of her element in that place. Her skinned crawled and all she wanted to do was leave. "I think you should relax, babe. You had too much." Her voice was soft and caring.
eleanor rice (7:42:18 PM): She felt the heat of everyone's eyes on her and Ryanne, but fortunately enough Eleanor wasn't one to give a damn about peoples opinions. "I will after you dance with me." She held out her hand, waiting to be escorted to the dance floor. "You promised me." Well, just say that Eleanor cornered her somehow in a previous conversation. "Come," she smoothed her hand over the opposing females and led her away from the bar.
ryanne clayton (7:45:40 PM): She feared she couldn't walk, she would fall and get hurt. Holding onto her tight to make sure nothing happens. "One dance. That's it. I rather get you home and safe." Ryanne wasn't stupid, she knew the men here would snatch her up and abuse the oppertunity. It was something she couldn't let happen.
eleanor rice (7:48:01 PM): She squeeked with excitement, "why do we have to go home though? I mean, it's supposed to be a party right?" With Ry leading the way Eleanor followed beside her toward the dance floor - the staring only intensified. But all of her interest were reflected on Ry. She smiled shyly as she turned her back toward her and moved along with the beat of the music. She held Ry's hand to her waist and tilted her head back so it rested on her shoulder, "it's how we met." She exclaimed - dancing. Oh, maybe Ry's subtle game spitting at the bar.
ryanne clayton (7:56:13 PM): She didn't know what to do with her, holding her waist like she wanted she stood there; wishing she had a beer. "I rather have you to my self though." She told her, watching descretly at the crowd of people. Girls whispered and it made her tense. She wasn't normally like this, never did she care but tonight was different and she didn't know why. "Listen, I'm going to the bathroom.. When I come back, can we leave?"
eleanor rice (7:58:08 PM): Eleanor gently brushed her nose across Ry's cheek, "That can be arranged." But then Ry's expression changed and she pitched the idea of going to the bathroom. "..What? Already? Fine, I'll grab my bag it's upstairs." Breaking away she walked in the direction toward the stairs.
ryanne clayton (8:02:40 PM): Ryanne kissed her cheek softly before moving passed her towards the batrhoom. She checked the stalls to se if she was alone before leaning on the sink and staring herself down in the mirror. God she hated how she looked tonight. Everything was taking a big toll on her appearance and she wondered if anyone would notice. She finshed her pocket for her small box of smokes and pulled out the cocaine her friend friend gave her. Pouring some on her finger she sniffed, sitting the bag in the sink she looked at herself again. Waiting to feel it drip down her throat she dipped her fringer in and rubbed more on her gums.
eleanor rice (8:09:14 PM): It had taken her less time than she thought to get her purse. So, she decided to just meet Ryanne in the bathroom. Quietly she opened the door and just as she was rounding the corner she saw Ryanne smear something over her gums. "What are you doing?" She asked, immediately rushing over (more like stumbling seeing as she was a little intoxicated). Blues shot toward the sink and so did her hand immediately retrievig the bag. "What the hell Ryanne?" She clutched the meshed up powder in her hand, "You break away for me for this?" She flashed the bag before holding it away.
ryanne clayton (8:11:43 PM): She was caught by surprise and nearly looked like a deer in head lights for a few minutes before she caught her self and collected the peiece she almost lost in her head. "It's nothing. Don't worry about it." Who was this chick? She probably had done the same shit, all she wanted to do was just be high and stay high.
eleanor rice (8:14:17 PM): "Well, then you won't mind if I just take this then." She popped open her bag and stuffed it inside. Eleanor was already starting to back up toward the door, "so this is why you were late huh? Why you've been so grumpy and irritable lately?"
ryanne clayton (8:16:46 PM): "Yes I mind. I fucking paid for that!" she yelled, running a hand over face. She wanted to reach out and hit the woman but never in her life has she done such a thing. "I told you why I was late." She glarred at Eleanor now, biting her thumb a bit as her other hand snaked over her stomach.
eleanor rice (8:20:55 PM): "Well, you wasted your money." She said, as her anger bubbled her drunkenness began to fade. Isn't that how it always happened? "So, the two of you were what.. hunched over your dining room table snorting coke together? Don't fucking lie to me to me either." She took another step back. "I don't understand how or why'd do this to yourself.. " Her tone switched to something a little more sympathetic. "I mean, Ryanne.. You're so much better than this." She closed in on the space between the two of them, "You told me you left the drugs behind .. In New York." Or at least that's what she assumed.
ryanne clayton (8:24:42 PM): She stayed quiet for a few minutes but it felt much monger, staring into space even though was looking right at Eleanor. "Yeah were hunched over snorting a shit load." Her tone was sarcastic even though it was paritally true. Her hands went to her face and leaned against the sink. "Fuck. I did. I fucking did. I left them al behind but you don't fucking get it!" she snapped. Her hands went to her thigh and she fumbled for her pockets. "You won't understand.."
eleanor rice (8:28:11 PM): Eleanor jumped at the sound of her voice and whinced. The screaming reminded her of the life she left behind. "Just tell me.." She whispered and picked both of her hands. "You don't have to do this really. I'm telling you. We've all taken this path before and trust me.. It's no good." She held Ryanne's hands together, "I promise you without this shit you could have a better life. You don't need it."
ryanne clayton (8:32:52 PM): She jerked her hands away and pushed passed Eleanor, bumping her boney shoulder into hers. "I.. Can not bring myself to say." Her eyes filled but no tears ever dared to slip by. A hand went to her face and she covered her mouth, looking at the floor. "I can't bring myself... to even say." She repeated muffled but she fixed herself, clearing her throat. "I got to go.. " she told her, heading out of the bathroom.
eleanor rice (8:35:47 PM): Eleanor stumbled back and out of her heel, "fuck." She immediately gathered herself and hurried after Ry, "No please." Quickly she hurried after her, but Ry was already lost in the crowd.
ryanne clayton (8:39:45 PM): She pushed herself through the faceless crowd towards the door. People tried to stop to her, asking what she was, who she was and why she looked a little familiar but that was mostly from seeing her face somewhere in magazine. She reached the door and slipped out, grabbing her smokes from her pocket and lighting one up. She stood under the cold night, puffing away and trying to gather her head. Her car was parked around the corner but she didn't want to start walking just yet.
eleanor rice (8:42:12 PM): Following the same steps Ry took toward the door Eleanor eventually came rushing out. She ran to the corner, tears now clouding her already hazy eyes. She was gone or so she thought. She walked in the opposite direction of where Ry was standing, the sound of her crying was heard within their close proximity. El, felt like she had lost her and didn't know what to do. She hated feeling helpless.
ryanne clayton (8:46:14 PM): She stood there and could see Eleanor from a short distance however she didn't want to move or speak. She was torn between hate and disappointment but mostly towards herself. Anger was fuled from El though, angry she couldn't just let Ryanne be, besides she barely knew who Ryanne was. She finished her cigarette just as someone came up and asked for a light. "Yeah, sure." She said clearing her voice and giving the guy one.
eleanor rice (8:52:23 PM): Hearing the familiar softness in Ry's tone, El turned around. She slid one arm over her slender frame and held her opposite elbow as she walked up to the two. "Ryanne will you take me home?" She asked, it was probably a better solution in the first place then her trying to navigate through downtown to get to the train station or hailing a cab. Eleanor was standing still in her elegant cocktail dress without a jacket and looked mighty appealing to the dominant male race. "Please." Her voice was slightly broken.
ryanne clayton (8:55:58 PM): Sucking in a breath she nodded and slid her jacket off, giving it to her to wear. She of course had her smokes and more cocaine but she gave it to her anyway. "Yeah." Her tone was different, gentle and sad. Having a hoodie under her jacket which Ryanne still had on, she slipped her hands onto her pockets and began to head to her car.
eleanor rice (8:59:29 PM): Her slender arms were slid into the jacket, "Thanks," she whispered and followed behind her to the car. -- The pair rode on in silence and when they arrived, Eleanor lingered in the car for a long while. "I want you to stay with me tonight." She admitted, still apprehensive about stealing glances from her.
ryanne clayton (9:02:21 PM): Sitting there she shook her head as she stared down her steering wheel. "Why?" she asked as she was curious. Why would she want to stay with her? Why would Ryanne want too after what just happened?
eleanor rice (9:04:55 PM): "Because, I don't want to be alone." Ry's yelling and violence of the evening reminded her so much of her ex. She was slightly fearful of the nightmares that typically ensued on an evening like that. "Please.." Reaching out she brushed her hand across Ryannes. "I mean, if you don't want to.. That's okay."
ryanne clayton (9:06:59 PM): "I can't." She finally told her, moving away from her hand and searched for her smokes. "And I need my jacket back, please." She finally looked at her.
eleanor rice (9:09:16 PM): Eleanor kept her vision downcasted as she slid off the jacket. "Goodbye Ryanne," without saying anything more she slid out of the car and hurried inside.
eleanor rice (9:28:53 PM): Eleanor cried herself to sleep that night and the following nights there after. She knew Ry was never going to come around and she felt like she had lost a big part of her life. It wasn't until Maria encouraged her to do the right thing and go visit her. Maybe, Ry really needed someone. Eleanor sighed and bundled up some purple hyacinth's (which mean i'm sorry, please forgive me) and took a cab to Ry's place of employement. She sighed as she headed upstairs in her black and white skirit and leggings. --
ryanne clayton (9:45:03 PM): Ryanne was in the back office with a fellow employee before driving out to see their boys. Their boys being the ones they work for. She was siting in a chair as her friend sat on the table, moving hair out of Ryanne's face. They were talking among themselves as they had just gotten paid but mostly their conversation was about the cuts and bruises she had on her face and neck. Ryanne brushed it off as some hot story of a small car crash. "I parked my car a little too in to the wall!"
eleanor rice (9:53:44 PM): Eleanor took slow steps down the hall until she reached Ry's office. She smiled softly and knocked on the door. "..I didn't want to interrupt." Her soft lyrical british accent fitlered intot he room and invaded their conversation. "I was just hoping we could talk Ryanne?" She turned the flowers of her in her hand, shyly staring at the floor. "I mean, if your busy.. I can just try again another time."
ryanne clayton (9:59:55 PM): They stopped, looked at the woman and both felt slightly weird. Her friend gave Ryanne a small smile before leaving, telling Ryanne she'd talk to her later. "What's up?" she asked, spinning in her chair to make herself dizzy. She had an hour before she had to be at Danny's house to take him for his medication.
eleanor rice (10:06:39 PM): "Bye.." Eleanor said in a soft tone toward the woman breaking for the exit. It just so happened she was courteous enough to close the door and offer them some kind-of privacy. "I wanted to bring you these. They are hyacinth's.. I mean, they mean I'm sorry. Which I am.. You know for the other night. I shouldn't of be so agressive." Eleanor handed the flowers to her, did lesbians like that sort-of thing? She wasn't sure. "I was slightly intoxicated and completely overstepped my boundaries." Eleanor did more talking with her hands than she did with her mouth, "..I didn't know how to handle it. I'm sorry."
ryanne clayton (10:10:11 PM): She stopped at the sight of flowers and even though her eyes were still spinning and trying to get themselves cenetered she snickered, taking them after missing a few times. "Thank you. They're sweet." She laid them beside her on the table her friend sat then looked at Eleanor. "I'm sorry actually. I just.. I don't know. I don't know what I can say, you know? I guess you can't beat the habbit when you want to live with it."
eleanor rice (10:13:42 PM): Her own expression softened at the sound of her snickering. That meant she was headed in a good direction right. "No problem.." Listening to her nods persisted, "But I mean, I don't understand why you want to live with it." Swiftly she rounded the desk and sat back against it. "I mean, don't you think you're worth more? I surely do.. I think you have a lot to offer and just these drugs are going to do nothing, but hold you back." There she went on her protective tangent. Eleanor closed her eyes and let loose a long sigh. "Sorry, again. I'm sorry. Boundaries, right. All I am saying is that I don't know you, but I'd like to and if you continue abusing yourself.. I'll just live with the fear that sooner or later it will catch up to you and.. Well, yah." Death. Pretty much, but she refused to say it. Refused to open the window so death could peer in.
ryanne clayton (11:30:11 PM): "I always sit up front!" Danny yelled again as they exited his building. Ryanne cleared her throat at the mentioning of her car and Danny took notice, glarring at her now too. "Yeah, explain now. I wanna know." Causing Ryanne to shut up and smile in embarressment. "Um, I had a little too much to drink. Parked my car too far into the wall." She shrugged and pointed to the cuts on her face.
eleanor rice (11:35:59 PM): "Oh," she didn't want to ask too much in front of Danny. "I'm sorry to hear that." Eleanor adjusted comfortably in the back of the car by sitting sideways. Blah Blah Blah, they drove to some diner and went to have breakfast. "Are you a big breakfast eater Ry?" She asked, slightly amused that they were at another diner for breakfast. "I'll have to keep that in mind when I need to trick you to come over."
ryanne clayton (11:41:29 PM): Danny wasn't amused by Ryanne's answer as the car wasn't smashed in the front, more like side swiped. He reached over as they sat in the car and smacked the back of her head. "You lie too much sometimes." He warned her before checking to see if the cd player worked. When it didn't he smacked Ryanne again, causing her to sink in her chair and try to block him. "Fuck man, I'm sorry. I'll get it fixed. I promise." However that wasn't good enough. "I look up to you!" he yelled at her and rolled his window down. Ryanne started her car quietly now, wanting to not be there. At the dinner she stayed to herself, danny being overjoyed to have new company. "No. Not at all." She pulled her sun glasses on and buried herself in the menu.
eleanor rice (11:44:27 PM): "it was nice meeting you danny." she waved to him from her doorstep. since they were the closest to her house she asked to be dropped off first. "will i see you later ryan?" she asked, slightly amused by her faux name. eleanor was only half attentive as she was fishing through her bag for her keys. she giggled as danny poked his head out the window, "yes, i hope to see you too again. i had a lot of fun." she looked toward ryanne.