"OK, well, not speaking about your problems to anyone is not going to help you. Also, expecting people to know what is wrong, to try and piece things together when they don't even have any information to go on, well of course you will continue to remain in this heightened state of pain and panic. There are actual live and wholly real and qualified people Here who are in the medical field, plus a priest who can help you. The priest is sworn to secrecy too, in case you feel this need to keep your problems closely guarded, but walking around constantly looking miserable and not talking to anyone about it and then expecting people to come to you and ask you questions to which you absolutely refuse to give any information about your situation...it is a very passive aggressive way of dealing with this situation. It is not fair to the people who desire to be your friend. Putting a band-aid on a broken bone will make the injury worse. Same for you head. If all you are doing is letting people take care of your wound, but not accessing the wounds in you head, you will never get well. No one here can help you, unless you decide to step up to the plate and take care of yourself. This has been beyond months now. Do you just want people to worry about you all the time? Do you?"