She sighs and takes a long drink, almost draining the bottle in one.
"I have no frakking clue," she slurred. "I work hard, I mess up, but I'm damned good at my job. I have faith, I believe, I pray to the gods. I've gone AWOL because I believed in scriptures and what they said, and the military is all I have." She paused.
"Was all I have," she amended, mournfully. "Except for Lee..."