"I know it's up to me, but I want to hear what you have to say as well, because like it or not, it will affect us," he said. "I know I'm not the Order, but that's where it's going. If I say yes, I won't be able to step back. People would rely on me."
He sighed. "I don't know. The fact that they might want me for who I am more than what I'm capable of doesn't mean that I can't do good, right? I mean they might want me there just for my name, but if I'm there I can keep an eye on them. Severus has no limits when it comes to Voldemort. I mean we've seen it already with Regulus, and I'm willing to bet that he hasn't discussed this with Al. To him, it comes before everything. Moody isn't much better. I couldn't imagine not telling you first. Maybe I can do some good, maybe I can remind them that they are sending people with families out there."
James lay down again, resting his head against Sirius' shoulder. "How would you feel if the order came from me? What about Remus and Regulus? Will we be okay? Because I can take a lot of things into account, but we come first."