Oh, Tonks (variably) wrote in breaking_point, @ 2009-11-30 13:49:00 |
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Entry tags: | *complete, 2024 11, character: charlie weasley, character: remus lupin, character: sirius black, character: ted lupin, dead character: nymphadora tonks |
Owls/RP
Who: Tonks and some written correspondence
Where: The Ministry, Auror Department
When: Monday November 30, 2024
What: Time for her to get out of her funk
She stared at the mounds of paperwork on her desk. It wasn't exactly getting any lower, especially not with how dark eyes were only staring and she wasn't actually doing anything to make the piles smaller. But Nymphadora Tonks-Lupin could not concentrate. Instead, she found herself drawing absent circles and triangles along the margins of her scratch paper.
Three months. It had been nearly three months since she returned. Well, two and a half months..but still. Things weren't exactly going how she thought that they would. There had been that feeling of having cheated people out of something since she had been gone. Oh hell, Nymphadora, she mentally chastised herself, Don't bloody lie. You felt cheated out. It was true. She hadn't gotten to watch Teddy grow up, so she pulled away. Remus returned at a younger age than she knew him, so she pulled away. Merlin, she even pulled away from Charlie.
This is bullshit, you know. There, at her desk, Tonks was giving herself a talking-to. It was much needed. After about ten more minutes worth, Tonks stared again at some paper. But these sheets of paper were blank. Hesitantly, fingers plucked two..no, three or four..sheets up. And then she wrote on the top of each.
Dear Charlie.
Dear Teddy.
Dear Siri.
Dear Remus.
They all had the same line written in the witch's small, but legible, scrawl. I've been a fantastic idiot. Forgive me?