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bp_craig (bp_craig) wrote in breaking_point,
@ 2009-11-16 20:01:00

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*complete, 2024 11, character: craig lawson, character: dylan vaisey, character: james sirius potter

RP: Another visit
Who: James Sirius Potter, Craig Lawson, Dylan Vaisey
Where: Malfoy Manor
When: November 16
Rating/Warnings: Language?
Summary: Craig visits Jamie like he said he would.

Craig was a bit nervous about walking into Jamie's and Dylan's suite, well more the walk in the hallway. He still wasn't really in the mood to talk to Sirius. It wasn't so much he was upset with the other man, more that he wanted to withdraw and give himself some breathing room. There was no need to get feelings towards someone who did just want to shag.

And it'd be easy for Craig to fall for Sirius, he already had started. Luckily he wasn't in too deep. Though likely Jamie and Dylan would say he was since he had taken the first steps. Would be easier if he wasn't such a good kisser.

Still he had more important things to worry about right now. Jamie and Dylan being those two things.

Though he was sure Jamie would be, well maybe not relieved, who knew what the reaction would be, about Craig having a date the next night. It should be a good distraction at least. Though he had told the bloke that he might need to cancel, a family emergency was going on and he could get called away. Jamie and Dylan were more important than a date. They were more important than anything right now.

Opening the door Craig saw Jamie in the living room and offered him a smile, "So you sick of me yet? Where's Dylan?"

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bp_craig
2009-11-17 02:03 am UTC (link)

Craig was even more suprised when Jamie said they should listen to the healer, "You saying that more than anything else tells me how bad it was." Craig said softly, beginning to feel even more frightened for his friends.

Chuckling softly Craig smiled as Jamie brushed his hair, "Always have to be the special one don't you?" He teased, knowing from anyone else that type of teasing would end in a hex, but then again he was special too. "Course I am." Craig told Jamie, knowing he was likely referencing Sirius, "Given everything I'm the one whose the most okay."

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simply_james
2009-11-17 02:06 am UTC (link)

"It wasn't pretty," he said, trying not to scare Craig, but he should know. "You know I'm not the most cautious, but this was bad and it could have been worse... it is worse. I've seen it with Allison, but seeing Dylan- He's Dylan, you know?"

James smiled. "Of course, you wouldn't know what to do without me around." He sighed. "Yes, I know, but after last time- I wasn't sure if you ever got around to talk to Sirius, fix things there."

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bp_craig
2009-11-17 02:12 am UTC (link)

Nodding Craig sighed, "I know." Or well as much as he could given it was Dylan, he hadn't seen Allison in the middle of an attack either. Merlin he hated this, and it wasn't like he could vent to Jamie either. "I'd say its all going to be okay but I think you've heard enough of that." He offered instead, trying to get a small smile. Merlin he needed them to be okay though.

"Exactly," Craig admitted, feeling guilty for feeling like he almost had it worse than them. Though in the long run if they died he was pretty sure he would.

He then sighed when Jamie brought Sirius up again. "No I didn't." He told him, "Didn't seem much to say that wouldn't end with me sounding like a whiny brat. He's shagging someone, yea I'll admit he caught my interest but I already told you I'd rather know that before I feel in too deep. Figured I was better off just giving myself space and getting my head together." He looked up at Jamie, shrugging again, "Besides given everything we knew about him I should of known that. Don't really see the point in talking about it more, would rather not actually."

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simply_james
2009-11-17 02:21 am UTC (link)

James chuckled. "Not so strangely, people are starting to admit that we might die. Might, you understand, not will." He took a deep breath, because seeing Dylan like that had been more upsetting than being sick. "It's scaring them more than it's scaring us, I think."

He squeezed Craig's arm. "If it makes it better, I'll try to be around for a while. Now that people are starting to give up, I have to get better just to prove them wrong, right?"

Craig was giving him the perfect way out, he could stay quiet and not be blamed, but he knew that it didn't work like that with Craig or Dylan. "There's something you should know, and after that, we don't have to talk about it." Craig might decide to punch him instead. "You can't say a word to anyone, but the guy he's fucking- it's me, and I swear I had no idea that you were interested when it happened or I would never..."

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bp_craig
2009-11-17 02:43 am UTC (link)

Craig nodded as Jamie spoke, "I can understand that." He said softly, hell he was one of the ones more scared. "I almost hate myself for thinking the might." He said softly. "Doesn't seem right to think that way." Especially since he still couldn't imagine not having Jamie and Dylan around.

Nodding Craig's smile became a bit less forced, "Yes. Be your annoying, pratty, stubborn self just to prove them wrong." Hell he'd loved that. Loved to have Jamie and Dylan laughing at him for being so worried. He'd gladly take all the teasing and jokes and comments.

Craig raised an eyebrow when Jamie said there was something he should know, his tone telling him to listen even though he started to say he didn't care.

When the words sunk in though he froze for a second, tensing up before sitting up then moving off the couch to stand in front of Jamie. "Why are you telling me this? " Craig asked him, wishing he didn't know this. It had been different, not knowing who it was. This was worse.

He believed Jamie though, when he said he hadn't known. He couldn't really fault Jamie that. "Are you still?" Though he wasn't sure he really wanted the answer to that either.

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simply_james
2009-11-17 02:44 am UTC (link)

"It's all right, Craig. We've always known it was a possibility, a probability even. We're living with this. It's everyone else who feels guilty for thinking it, but it's really okay," he said.

"I'll try. How's that? I've offered to be Snape's guinea pig. He returned, I don't know when but he was here this morning. We'll find something just to spite everyone," he said, trying to convince Craig more than himself.

James tensed when Craig got up, but didn't move. Instead he looked up at Craig, meeting his gaze. "Because I thought you deserve the truth, because I didn't want you to find out from someone else, and no I'm not planning on saying anything, but secrets come out. I've learnt that recently. I didn't want to be a coward and keep this from you."

He took a deep breath and then nodded. "He doesn't want a relationship. If I thought he did, I'd back off, but he's a shag them and leave them kind of bloke."

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bp_craig
2009-11-17 02:52 am UTC (link)

No, it wasn't alright. Jamie saying it was almost made it worst. "I don't want your blessing for being willing to admit you might die." Craig told him, "Hell I'd rather you scream and bitch at me. Your blessing makes it sound like you've accepted it, you can't accept that. None of us can." Because accepting the possibility gave a better chance to it happening.

Nodding Craig said, "Damn well better," He told him, quirking his lips when Jamie said he offered to be Snape's guinea pig, "Bet he'll love that." He then nodded, "Won't forgive you if you don't." He told him.

Sighing Craig ran a hand through his hair as he moved to sit down in a chair away from Jamie not looking at him. "I almost wish you hadn't," He told Jamie, his gaze still focused away from him, "But you're right, its better finding out from you than someone else."

He saw Jamie nod out of the corner of his eye, and the words hurt him, yes, but.

Sirius wasn't important here. Jamie was. Jamie and Dylan were. Standing Craig moved back to the couch and laid his head back in Jamie's lap. "Doesn't matter." He told him softly, "Merlin right now nothing matters except making sure you and Dylan make it through this. Everything else can wait."

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simply_james
2009-11-17 02:57 am UTC (link)

"I've accepted the possibility, Craig. I'm not stupid, and denying the obvious isn't going to make me better. I knew that weeks ago," James said. "Why do you think I was willing to go to Voldemort? I know I'm dying, and they still haven't found a cure."

"I'll still do everything that needs to be done, take all the potions they want me to, be subject to every spell. Even if I wouldn't do it for myself, I'd do it for Dylan, Scorpius and Allison. They are suffering because of me," he admitted.

"You would find out, and-" James ran his fingers through his hair, smiling surprised when Craig moved back on the couch. "We're not... I mean neither one of us wants a relationship, and you know we wouldn't be able to even if we wanted, because my Dad would go nuts. I guess what I'm saying is that it's just sex." They were friends, too, and James hoped that it would survive the lack of sex, but Craig was more important. "I'll stop if you want."

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bp_craig
2009-11-17 03:06 am UTC (link)

Craig sighed, "I really wish in this case you were. And that I could still get mad at you over that." He looked up at Jamie, "Hell I had the same thought after you mentioned, trying to trade my life for yours and Dylan's, or offer him, well anything." He closed his eyes, "Knew I didn't have anything he'd want though. Not after getting to you and Dylan." It hadn't been an easy thing to accept.

"They're suffering because Voldemort is fucking insane." Craig told him firmly, "We can agree on pretty much everything else in this situation but about this I'm right and you're going to fucking agree with me." Craig told him, knowing if nothing else maybe the guilt right now would get Jamie to pretend to agree. "It could have just as easily been me instead of Scorpius if I had been there, and you wouldn't have kept me away either. Voldemort started this, blame him, not you."

Craig offered up Jamie a half smile when he played with his hair, glad at least to see his friend smile, though it was hard to maintain. "You know I've never been able to understand that," he said sighing again, "Why I've always been the girl of the group." He looked back up at Jamie, "Do I want you to? Sure, a part of me does. But I can't ask you too. That's not really fair either is it?" None of this situation was. "I can see you just wanted to protect me, not a complete fool."

He paused as something else occurred to him, "You didn't tell Sirius I was interested did you?" He might have to hex him for that if he had.

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