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James Sirius Potter (simply_james) wrote in breaking_point,
@ 2009-11-14 18:59:00

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*complete, 2024 11, character: james sirius potter, character: sirius black

RP: Jamie and Sirius
Who: James, Sirius
Where: Malfoy Manor
When: Late night, 13/14 November, 2024 (Slightly backdated)
Rating/Warnings:
Summary: James has too many ideas after th Order meeting.

Jamie had been humiliated by his father's insistence to take him back to the Manor. He hadn't argued only because there were too many people that would have overheard, and that would have been even more humiliating than being taken home like some little child, who couldn't find their way home. However when he got home, he was furious, and he told his father to leave, refusing to discuss anything else.

When he was sure that he had gone, Jamie had walked into Sirius' room. He hadn't even bothered taking his robe off and changing into Muggle clothes, too upset to worry about clothes. "Can you believe him? He wouldn't let me come back with you. What the hell is wrong with him? He took me home, like I couldn't Apparate." He growled as he got closer to Sirius. "Can I hex my father? Because that would make me feel much better." He sighed, trying to calm down. "What about you? Everything okay there? I saw you with Dumbledore. You didn't seem too pleased."

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simply_james
2009-11-15 01:15 am UTC (link)

"And what do I hold on to?" James asked. "I might be dying, Sirius. I don't want to spend the last few days of my life being trapped in a prison and resenting my family. I want something more than this, even if it's just walking outside without bodyguards."

James grinned and nodded. "I remember Dad telling me about it, but I didn't remember about it until Mum brought it up at the meeting. I've been thinking about it since then."

He sighed and rested his head against Sirius' stomach. He could tell Sirius the truth and hope that he didn't say anything, or risk not going on the bike. He drew back and stared at the other man "First, we can find one with the sidecar, and I'd be safe in there. Even if I have an attack, I wouldn't fall off or anything. Second, I've... I've had some attacks breathing, but I've managed to keep it under control without telling Nott. If I relax when they start, then they don't get too bad, I can stop them before. The swelling isn't life threatening and can wait until we get back. The marks are permanently there, and the nausea-" He shrugged. "I can deal with that. Besides, I might have asked Nott for potions when I didn't need them and I'm keeping them. I can tell you what's for what." He smiled "Regardless what my father thinks, I can plan." He took Sirius' hand and kissed the palm. "I just want some freedom, Sirius."

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hate_fleas
2009-11-15 05:06 am UTC (link)

"I'll talk to him." Sirius sighed, James was right, he didn't deserve this - to be trapped in this place. But he'd be seeing Harry tomorrow, so he could talk to him see if they could do something about this. Because the thought of playing quidditch with him was only going to go so far, James needed something more to keep him busy and hopeful.

Now that was surprising, he would never get used to finding out the way so many people seemed to know about his past - especially people he hadn't met yet. He hadn't even known that Harry would have known about his bike - though he supposed he might have told him about it at some point during their first meeting.

Sirius slid a hand up to the back of James' neck when he leaned his head forward fingers pressing gently into the skin and then pushing up into his hair right there at the back of his neck. He listened while James told him his plans for the bike and his own well being. Even Sirius had to admit it was stupid, taking James out on a flying motorcycle, James trying to control his attacks, thinking that he could help him if he did have one. But Sirius knew what it was like to want freedom, to ache for it.

"If you die on that bike I am going to kill you myself." He said shaking his head with a small grin.

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simply_james
2009-11-15 05:20 am UTC (link)

He didn't know if it would help. "I don't want you to argue with him, and I don't want you to tell him about the bike, so if it's easier, don't say anything." Lying was always the best policy.

James stood up, and when he did so, their bodies were flushed against each other. He put his arms around Sirius. "I won't do that to you. I promise. You'll bring me back alive and breathing."

He leaned closer and brushed Sirius' lips with his. "I know it's pushing, Sirius, but I'm going crazy. My dad is controlling every part of my life. My mother just asked me never to talk to her. Neither one understand that I'm here because I've decided to stay, but it's becoming harder and harder to remember why staying here is a good idea. I just need something, a reason to suffer here, because I'm getting to the point that I just want to find him and force him to kill me, because death has to be better than this prison."

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hate_fleas
2009-11-15 05:34 am UTC (link)

"I won't argue with him." Sirius told James. "And I won't tell him about the bike, but I am going to talk to him." Or maybe he'd talk to Jamie and see if he could help with anything, he thought he still might keep the bike a secret, but Jamie might have better luck talking to Harry than he would.

He let his hands circle around James when he stood up. "I know I will, and you're going to make sure that I do that." He told him with a pointed look.

"I don't mind pushing." He told James, frowning. "Your mother told you never to talk to her?" Now that was.... well strange, unexpected. "Do you want to talk about that at all?" He sighed, stroking his fingers across James' forehead, it was strange how close he felt to him already, how much he really hated hearing that he was even thinking of dying, of being killed. "I don't remember dying, but I can't imagine it being better than this." He told him. "I know you hate staying here, feeling like you're trapped, but I'd really like it if you stuck around for a while longer."

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simply_james
2009-11-15 05:46 am UTC (link)

"Good, I don't want you in trouble." That sounded so absurd, because they both seemed to like trouble, but this was a different sort of trouble, and Sirius didn't need it.

"I will. If I start to feel something, I'll tell you immediately, before it gets really bad and we'll come back. You have my word on that." He would never make a promise if he intended to go back on his word, especially with Sirius.

James smiled a little. This was why he liked Sirius so much. He understood that sometimes you had to do something stupid to feel better. "Not much to talk about. I have no clue what happened. One moment we were talking, and then she was talking about Lily and boyfriends, and then me and boyfriends and Dad not caring and I said that Dad would care regardless the gender, because he'd have a fit if I were fucking - and no, I didn't phrase it like that. She answered me that I was being disrespectful and not to talk to her. I answered that she shouldn't come here anymore. I'm starting to think that they are the crazy ones and we're the sane ones."

He trapped Sirius' hand with his and kissed his wrist. "No, it can't be better than this." He leaned in for a deeper, desperate kiss. "I'm not leaving just yet," he breathed against Sirius'. "I like being with you."

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hate_fleas
2009-11-15 06:01 am UTC (link)

Sirius smirked. "It really is a shame I do trouble so well then, isn't it." He knew what James meant though, and he'd do his best to stay out of that sort of trouble.

"Good, I'm going to hold you to that." Though he was sure at least with James when he promised something he meant it, and that made him feel better about all of this - because it was amazingly stupid, but sometimes doing something stupid was the best way to feel like you had a little control over your own life.

"I can't imagine what brought that on then." He hadn't gotten to talk much with Ginny, but he couldn't imagine either of James' parents telling him never to talk to them again. They really were only holding themselves together in the most basic way, this curse was pulling them all apart and fuck he just wanted it fixed. He hated seeing that worried broken look on Harry's face when they talked, the way James pretended things weren't as bad as they were, the way the never mentioned that he very well might die, this wasn't the sort of life he'd imagined for his adopted family when he and Jamie had been younger.

Sirius held James close, kissing him with just as much desperation as James gave him. "I like being with you too," And it was completely true, not even in that sappy way people meant when they said things like that. Sirius liked being with James, liked the way it was easy with him - he didn't feel like he needed to impress him, because he already had before he'd ever come back. He leaned his forehead against James' when they parted, breathing deeply.

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simply_james
2009-11-15 06:12 am UTC (link)

James traced Sirius' lips with a finger, his eyes following carefully, before looking up and smiling back. "Oh, but we can get into all sorts of trouble together. I'm good at that, too."

He didn't harp on the promise. It was made and he'd keep his word. "I don't know what she was thinking or drinking, because she was high or something. It's the only explanation. I swear I didn't say anything, didn't insult them. She just went off on me." Somehow it was important that Sirius believed him, because he was sure no one else would.

The kiss took his doubts away, because Sirius understood. He could feel it in their touches, taste it in Sirius's lips, and he didn't want to pull away, happy to stay as close as they could. "My nights are certainly worth living." He cupped the back of Sirius' neck and stared at him, with a daring expression on his face. "I want to you to fuck me." And there is was, with no challenges or teasing involved.

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hate_fleas
2009-11-15 06:33 am UTC (link)

"Oh I know you are." He chuckled lightly, smile on his lips. "And I'm sure the two of us will be getting into all sorts of trouble together."

He shrugged, Sirius didn't have the slightest idea what had happened to cause Ginny to tell her son she didn't want him talking to her again. "I believe you." He assured him. "Maybe she's just got a lot to deal with right now?" He suggested lamely, because even that wasn't a good excuse or explanation for what had happened. "Maybe your parents really are mental." Which was seeming more likely.

"Maybe we can work on the days too." Not that they could actually spend their days fucking as well - but he could come up with something that would make his days worth living too. Every time before, it had been filled with teasing and dares and challenges and whatever they needed to get to the actual fucking, but this was different and Sirius could feel it in the way James touched him now. "Yeah alright."

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simply_james
2009-11-15 06:43 am UTC (link)

"There you go again, giving me reasons to survive." He looked at Sirius with a wicked smiled on his face. "How can I pass up the chance to shake up the world one trouble at a time?"

James threw his head back and laughed, and it really was the most honest reaction in ages. "Yes, they are very mental, thank you for noticing."

He was pretty sure that they could. Just talking to Sirius made him feel better. They could smile and laugh without even trying. However, for now, he was interested in the night.

He reached for Sirius' shirt and pulled it over his head, and then letting it fall on the floor. His fingers traced Sirius' collarbone, before moving down with a soft touch over his chest, further down until his trousers were in the way. "This is so weird. I love tits, really, really do, but you... you're gorgeous."

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hate_fleas
2009-11-15 07:11 am UTC (link)

He laughed and shrugged. "I'm sure I'll stop eventually, but no promises there." He teased James grinning right along with him. "It's not an opportunity that comes around every day after all."

"Well that's me, I am what they call a noticer." He chuckled, it was good to see James laugh, really laugh to head thrown back and a smile on his face.

Letting James pull his shirt off, Sirius stayed his hands for a few moments, they'd get to their ultimate goal eventually, he didn't mind letting James look and touch. And then it was his turn to laugh, unable to help himself when James spoke. "I'll agree with you there, tits can be really really nice." He grinned, tugging at James' robes pulling him closer. "Sometimes though, this is better."

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