james potter is ready for shit to get real (potterishly) wrote in beforethewarrpg, @ 2011-06-13 19:13:00 |
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Entry tags: | james potter, lily evans |
Who: James and Lily
What: talking?
When: Monday morning
Where: Lily's flat
Warnings: TBA
Status: Incomplete
Despite how unhappily his Sunday afternoon had ended up going, James had managed to cheer up a bit before going over to Lily's. He'd let her distract him, cheer him up even more, let himself feel excited about the cause and the things they were fighting for again. At least he didn't have to keep the secret from Lily; that made it a little easier. But, god, she wasn't the most important one to share the secret with. And he meant no offense to her by that, at all, it was only because he'd been searching for the Order before he'd even been on friendly terms with her, doing it with his friends, that it mattered less.
He was pretty sure, in retrospect, that he'd given even a little bit away to Sirius to torture himself about it on purpose. Because he didn't feel like he deserved to be properly excited about it until his best friends, especially his very best friend who was just as motivated (if not more so) to fight than he was, were a part of it too. He'd let himself forget that, until the moment when he and Sirius had really felt back to their old selves again. Like their friendship had been, before the fights that had happened with Lily, before James had been uncomfortable about Sirius and Remus, except - except he was keeping a secret.
He didn't sleep nearly as well as he usually did on Sunday night, though he managed to stay still even when he was awake, eyes closed, breathing deep. That much he could accomplish with Lily in his arms; if he'd been in bed alone, he'd have been tossing and turning. And then he was awake when he felt her stir: that was definitely new, she always woke up before he did. He turned his head to bury his face in her warm red hair, and sighed.