You Cannot Leave Me if I Never Knew You Who Mia When: After Breakfast April 19th Where: Green Block What: Mia realizes that Aidrian isn't returning and as a result doctors her own memories to keep from having to deal with the pain of loss.
Following the attempted breakout, Mia had been different, a little more withdrawn even if her eyes said she was more there than she had been in a long while. She got up, moved around, interacted in a limited fashion with others, and seemed to be constantly awake if a bit distracted. Whether or not this was a good thing had yet to be determined.
Today she wore shades of green, but in an odd twist, she had a white belt around her waist. Normally, Mia only wore shades of the same color from head to toe. Yet she managed to have this band of green right around her waist where a belt would normally go. Strange certainly when one coupled this with what they knew about her.
In the cafeteria, she sat curled up in the chair, knees to her chest. Occasionally she would forget about her breakfast in favor of looking for something. No one was completely certain what she was looking for, but she kept doing it. Before breakfast was over, she left her cereal on the table unfinished. Instead of going outside, she went back into the block. Her eyes were clouded, confused seeming. Aidrian hadn't come back.
Yes, her brain alerted her to this fact. Aidrian had not come back. When had she seen him last? It was something she couldn't really remember. The last full memory she had of him was of going to sleep in his room and waking up next to him in his wolf form. Aidrian was the only real canine creature she had ever seen. Not that she knew he was a canine. She knew he was Aidrian. Her mind didn't allow her too much more than that when it came to thinking about him. Just like she wouldn't have understood trying to classify Brynn or Sand or Snow. They were what they were in her mind. Classifying them was simply out of her league.
Walking through the block, she was looking for him and for once people could see intention in her face. It was strange, Mia's facial expressions tended toward blank and when they weren't blank, she was confused. Today, those brown eyes said something other than confusion, they spoke of a need. A need to locate a friend.
Stopping in his doorway, Mia looked at the cell and felt the edges of her mouth drop into a frown. Tenshi spun out of the ether around her, appearing wearing a black dress down to her ankles with a high Victorian neck and long wide sleeves.
"He's not coming back," she put her arms around Mia as the girl stood looking at the empty room, articulating the thought Mia was thinking. So often people didn't come back. It was a shock to her system, knowing that Aidrian wasn't coming back. How could he not come back? Even as she understood it, her mind pulled back from it. Her understanding didn't want this....wouldn't accept this....death was not part of the bargain for her. Tenshi could only stand by and watch as the girl before her started to erase Aidrian's existence from her mind in an effort to keep away the spectre of death.
This was why her mind was always on the edge of breaking, two seconds from being thoroughly shattered, she kept taking things away from herself so that she wouldn't have to face them. Death was something she simply could not face.
After a few minutes of staring into the room, Mia turned and walked away. If someone asked, she would give them blankness. If they pushed, she'd turn away. Such was the nature of her thinking. The white band around her waist slowly changed to a light green, matching the rest of her outfit.