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ᴘʀᴏᴍᴘᴛᴏ ᴀʀɢᴇɴᴛᴜᴍ (xpro) wrote in arrivedic,
@ 2019-01-08 20:14:00

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!network, dragon age: fenris, final fantasy: noctis lucis caelum, final fantasy: nyx ulric, final fantasy: prompto argentum

network post ➢ Prompto
There's always something kinda sad about the holidays being over, like we have to go back to our real lives and that part never really stops sucking, does it?

[Praespero filter]

Now we're all back together, I think it's time we talked about going after Valgardson. Let everyone kinda weigh in on it like usual.

Even with the fact we could use his desperation against him, it's still not gonna be easy. He's not gonna make it easy, but it would be worth stopping him from hurting anyone else. On the other hand, it's going to be dangerous, so I hope no one feels obligated to go after him either.

Thoughts?

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	PROMPTO. broody 2019-01-14 03:08 pm UTC (link)
	Technically, no. I saw him once before, I think, but it was a long time ago. We are from the same country. [...] I suppose that makes it seem stranger. Yes. He was interested in meeting again, so we did. I might have ruined that. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	FEN. xpro 2019-01-14 03:26 pm UTC (link)
	Seriously? Though... well, I guess it's really easy to be from the same place and not know everyone else who's there. Sometimes I think about that, too, you know? But then I think about how one little decision I made led to where I am now, and I guess, well, ending up here was that one thing for you. Why do you think that? Did he say that? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	PROMPTO. broody 2019-01-14 03:35 pm UTC (link)
	Puns to poetry. You are right, though. I have a feeling we would have met regardless, with as many mutual acquaintances as we have. This was simply quicker. No, but this was after an [...] unpleasant conversation I had with someone, and he offered to keep me company. I was [...] very drunk. And fell asleep on him. It's embarrassing to think about. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

FEN.

xpro
2019-01-14 03:47 pm UTC (link)

My brain works in weird, mysterious ways. Let's be honest.

It just takes one thing. And well, who knows, I don't really believe in fate or anything, but sometimes I think things are just going to happen, no matter what the universe tries to do. I want to believe that two halves will always find each other.

So......? I don't really see how anything might have been ruined but did you talk about it, if you're concerned enough to be thinking this way?

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	PROMPTO. broody 2019-01-14 03:56 pm UTC (link)
	Perhaps. You are still charming, if unusual. I did not believe that before. Now, I'm uncertain. Talking about it would mean acknowledging what I want. If he was displeased, he likely won't pursue anything more. That is better. There is less to risk this early. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	FEN. xpro 2019-01-14 04:28 pm UTC (link)
	I'll take that compliment. I think it's maybe the only thing I do believe in, but it took me a while to get there too. What's wrong with acknowledging that, though? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	PROMPTO. broody 2019-01-14 04:57 pm UTC (link)
	It was meant as one. There are a great many people who believe in you, whatever you believe for yourself. I [...] am afraid. He is honest and kind, but I've been mistaken before. Misled. I'd like to avoid the same now. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

FEN.

xpro
2019-01-14 05:06 pm UTC (link)

😊

I still can't really wrap my head around that, you know? Anyone believing in me. It took me a really long time to even consider not tearing myself down over everything.

I think it's natural to be afraid? I was afraid too. And I get wanting to protect yourself, I do, but what if all these worse case scenarios are wrong? I guess what I'm asking is.... would that make you happy? Letting it end with just what ifs?

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	PROMPTO. broody 2019-01-14 05:37 pm UTC (link)
	If you did believe it, you would make a poor leader. The good ones lead for their cause. [...] No. I am already in too deep, so to speak, to turn away now. Even if it is terrifying. I never thought it was possible to feel this way after such a short time. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

FEN.

xpro
2019-01-15 12:26 am UTC (link)

Well, by that logic, I guess I'm not a half bad one, though I don't know if I believe that either.

If it makes you feel any better, at some point it's not terrifying anymore? I can't really tell you exactly when that is, but I know it does go away. I mean, I still have moments when I'm a little anxious, but it doesn't really take that much to make it go disappear. And I definitely know what it's like to be kinda blindsided by that.

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	PROMPTO. broody 2019-01-15 03:00 am UTC (link)
	I will believe it for you, as will the rest of us. You can trust in that. That is [...] mildly comforting. What helps to make you feel better in those moments, if I may ask? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	FEN. xpro 2019-01-15 03:10 am UTC (link)
	I will, then. Trust in all of you. Pfft, only mildly? I get it though. It's sometimes hard to see past all the scary stuff. And honestly? It's them. It just takes a smile and all of that dark stuff is gone. It helps me remember that all of that is just inside my own head, and that I shouldn't get hung up on it. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	PROMPTO. broody 2019-01-15 03:33 am UTC (link)
	That would be wise. So you ask for [...] selfies? Is that the word? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	FEN. xpro 2019-01-15 03:43 am UTC (link)
	Yeah, that's the word, and sometimes. And I like to call a lot, too. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	PROMPTO. broody 2019-01-15 07:03 pm UTC (link)
	~~I don't know if he -~~ ~~What if -~~ [...] I see. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	FEN. xpro 2019-01-15 07:08 pm UTC (link)
	I'm getting real strong "seriously overthinking this to infinity and beyond" vibes from that. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	PROMPTO. broody 2019-01-15 07:16 pm UTC (link)
	I would need an excuse to call him initially. That is my problem. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	FEN. xpro 2019-01-15 07:29 pm UTC (link)
	You don't need excuses to want to call someone you like, Fen. But, if you really need a reason, try this one: Because you want to. It's a pretty good one, as far as I'm concerned. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	PROMPTO. broody 2019-01-15 07:30 pm UTC (link)
	And that will work. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	FEN. xpro 2019-01-15 07:32 pm UTC (link)
	I would bet my life on it. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	PROMPTO. broody 2019-01-15 07:33 pm UTC (link)
	That is [...] excessive, but compelling. I appreciate your help. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	FEN. xpro 2019-01-15 07:37 pm UTC (link)
	Sometimes it takes excessive to get through to you. Anytime. 😊 But seriously? From what I saw at the party, I'm sure he'd be happy if you called. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	PROMPTO. broody 2019-01-15 07:40 pm UTC (link)
	I'm not that bad. ~~How can you t~~ We shall see. He is engaging with many people. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	FEN. xpro 2019-01-15 07:48 pm UTC (link)
	Not all the time. Sure, but the way he was looking at you all night? You maybe didn't see it, but I did, and I'd say there's something more there. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	PROMPTO. broody 2019-01-15 08:09 pm UTC (link)
	Fair. You are a romantic. It is easy to see such possibilities if you wish to see them. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)