Re: [mild spoilers for beginning of wolfenstein 2, wyatt route]
I can’t imagine some of it honestly. I mean, my old man made it pretty clear I was a complete screw up in his eyes, and all of that, but he didn’t exactly go in for anything sadistic either. And it was...not great. But it made me want to fight more and harder when I did get out. And I knew that if there was any way, my captain would get me out.
People being terrible seems like it’s a thing no matter where you go when you’ve got higher ups. I was lucky in the army, it didn’t get to that. I mean we all had that seargeant who seemed to have it out for us in basic, but it really was because we weren’t living up to what he saw in us and he was trying to bring it out, I think. Or whatever the equivalent in everybody’s world was.
It sounds like that was rough for you. I uh, after I got to basic, I found out my mom had died, but I was already eighteen so it didn’t have... I could make my way in the world.
It’s not pretty if you’re going on trips all the time. My last one almost...have you ever had your mind blast open wider than you thought you could? I saw, oh heck, everything. And then coming down was not great. Don’t think I’m making it a habit when I don’t need to find the truth right this instant.
And your friend, yeah that does. Young and stuck and brave under it all. Takes a special person to live in that much darkness and then come back out the other side holding a candle. It’s not all fireworks and fury, you know, man?
I dig. Brains are wierd like that. The stuff we do when we’re not thinking. But huh. Like how I spent some time convinced I had to know and to be everything after they killed our leader, leaving me as one of the guys in charge, and convinced I don’t know anything and am useless in the fight.
It isn’t true and wasn’t then, but she’d just...it wasn’t a pretty death. May have had more to do with me breaking down than what I really thought about myself at the time. I mean it’s worth looking at.