Shaun Hastings Knows Too Much For His Own Good (guyfawkes23) wrote in angelnet,
I mean, I'm sure, Okay, I KNOW I've done my share of stupid shite that's almost gotten me killed back before I had to become paranoid, but there's accidentally getting traced from wikileaks and then there's getting yourself kidnapped when you KNEW what was going on. ...And then turning around, saving the world with the most incredible act of sacrifice short of, I don't know, something biblical. Des and I weren't... He was more like the best mate I never said it to.
Same sort of ideals, really, but he picked them up along the way. Made it a LITTLE easier to watch him go from being the world's least impressive spoilt seeming brat to making the hardest decision he'd ever had to.
It's hard not to love the people like that, whatever way that love goes, yeah? We became friends, brothers. I don't think I've really processed that he's gone and it's been years.
And we won't even begin to get into the actual incredible woman I managed to fall in love with. Saved my sorry clueless arse more than once, helped me save myself from that first death squad sent after me...stuck by me when I was at my worst, which is no small feat, believe you me, and... took a bullet for me, and...I don't know after that.
That's the part about being here I hate the most, that bloody uncertainty.