Jacob "Jay" Green (Ajay Mir) (hatyara_) wrote in angelnet, @ 2022-09-06 21:47:00 |
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Current mood: | depressed |
Entry tags: | jacob green |
[Locked from senior assassins and Emmett, but no one else]
This "depression" thing. Is there a way to get checked for it? Because I think this feels like more than homesickness and missing my real parents. I was meant to have a purpose at home, but was told to wait for it here. I can understand and won't fight the powers that be if I'm not meant to have it yet. There has to be a reason I'm not getting, but...high school is no substitute for starting an apprenticeship. High school is a useless waste of time and there is no purpose for me in it. I"m willing to continue if Ihave something else to do that HAS a purpose, but when I think of trying to find it...
It's as if I'm paralyzed with exhaustion and feel like no matter what I do, it will not matter. I realise my brain could well be playing with my perceptions but...
Perhaps I need some help. I can't ask my fake mother, or my uncle or cousin but...is there a way to do this by myself where they don't have to know?
...Asking for a friend.