Michel Combeferre (etrelibre) wrote in angelnet, @ 2014-06-03 04:50:00 |
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Current mood: | depressed |
[Locked from Antoine]
I think that the worst thing about losing a husband (or a wife, but in my case, husband) is that first moment when you realize how very much like them your child has grown up to be...
It is still too soon, for me, to catch the look of passion and intensity in Antoine's eyes, in his moments of greatest joy and inspiration, and to see Apollon mirrored in them, and knowing he is not likely to ever stand beside him doing that same thing again, or to see, and tell our son how proud he is of him and his success.
And, oh, how much I MISS him.
I was supposed to guide him here. To guide him always. How dare he go where I can't follow?
This is stupid and self indulgent. My apologies.