"I'm the only one who's gonna get away with making excuses today, You're appealing to emotions that I simply do not have" Blackmailed myself 'Cause I ain't got anyone else Lyrics from It's Hard to Say "I Do" When I Don't by Fall Out Boy
"Roxas, you don't get it. You're just a kid, so don't even--"
"I'm just a kid? How dare you, Axel?" He spits my name like the unwanted thing it is. I stare blankly back at him. I need to be careful with this one, I trained him well. He knows exactly how to get under my skin in more ways than one, and I'm not sure how to feel about that.
"Because it's the damn truth. You're a kid, and you act like a kid. You don't see it 'cause you're stubborn." I retort. How dare I? More like, how dare he. This needs to be continued, "Someone's got to tell you these things, right? Now shut up and listen to me before getting into a goddamn hissy fit."
"Whatever." His tone is a mixture of disinterest and defiance. I do my best to let it slide with a shrug.
I sigh and prepare myself. I know that past that facade of boredom, he's taking it all in. My actions, my words. "Believe it or not, you're just a kid. You act just as immature as everyone you complain about and you do the same things yourself that you hate about me. That's probably why you hate it when I do it, too. I guess... I'm saying it because I'm tired of this double standard. I'm tired of you being able to do something but the second I do the same thing..." I give him a pointed glance and he just stares back, expression unreadable. He's thinking of the best way to talk back because I know him, and this is how he works.
"Just tell me one thing, Rox... how long did it take you to realise that I'm not who you thought I was?"
"Not...what..?" he looks genuinely bewildered. I smirk.
"Oh, don't play coy. You fell in love with a glorified personality that I just don't exude anymore. Otherwise, we wouldn't be having this conversation, now would we?"
"We're having this conversation because you've changed."
"No, I haven't. You just thought I was as shallow as I make myself appear."
"Then you're a liar." he says, crossing his arms and turning his face away. I laugh, then, the sound is hollow in my throat.
"You do what you gotta do to get through life." I say, "And because you don't know that... proves you're just a kid."