Sara watched as Tracey curled up in a ball. She wanted nothing more than to comfort Tracey and apologize but any words she may have had were stuck in her throat. Quickly, she threw the strapon off of her, not wanting what she had used to violate Tracey with anywhere near her.
Tracey's words made her freeze. She had loved her? Sara had never known. Now she wanted to cry. She had thrown that away. Then she reminded herself that it wasn't like she could have had anything real with Tracey anyways, that was why she had always treated her so cruelly - to push her away so Tracey would see that. "You loved Macavoy." She said. "It wasn't like we could have had anything real anyways..."
"I never loved you?" Sara turned to look at Tracey. "How can you say that? Remember when you came to me when you thought I was the one who had outed you? All the things I did, explaining all of my actions? Everything I've ever done was for you. I loved you with all my heart, but I have to push it away because if I let myself feel that, everything I have could slip from my hands. And now...now I can't afford that more than ever..." now if she let her true feelings prevail, she could lose everything, she could lose her son. "I have to make myself feel like this, just to forget how much I love you..."