"I didn't lie." Heidi shifted some. She kept averting her gaze from Tracey, not able to look her in the face. She knew that she had lied to Trace, but she couldn't accept it. "Ginny's part of the team."
"No." Heidi said simply, getting more sober by the second as the drugs she had taken a few hours ago were wearing off. "I want to be near you. It...make me feel alive and happy. And for the first time in five years I feel content and like my old self. I love that feeling and I love you."
Raking her fingers through her hair, Heidi sighed. "Yeah. She reminded me of the rapid downward spiral after what you did. All the shit I went through. About the time when I..." she stopped herself. She couldn't admit to Tracey that she had gone as far as alomst killing herself with an overdose of pills and cocaine one time when the misery was aat it's greatest.
"She said that there was nothing stopping you from doing it again. From becoming afraid and ending things just because you were afraid of what people thought and if they found out." Heidi bit her lip and looked up at Tracey. "And I thought, 'what if she did that again?' I don't think I could take it."