"Good." Heidi said darkly and with little feeling. A part of her didn't want Tracey to care, then it would be easier to do the things she did and forget. Another part of her wanted Tracey to care so much so at least then she would know there weren't only negative feelings still between them.
"Because you didn't want your private life to be private just because, you wanted it to be private to avoid facing the worlds view of what you really are!" Heidi had tears in her eyes and she was craving a hit of coke or a drink or any other drugs to get her mind off of this. "How the hell did I 'flaunt' it? I tried my hardest to abide by your absurd secrecy rules."
Heidi looked down at her feet as she spoke the truth. "You're right. I don't understand it."
How could Tracey think that? Heidi gritted her teeth. "How can you even think I'd do that?!" Heidi was hurt by the mere thought.
Leaning back against the wall near Tracey, Heidi ran a hand through her hair. "I don't know." She said in a whisper and looked away. Of course she didn't want Tracey to leave. If she did, would Heidi ever see her again? She really needed a hit...
"I'll be back, you can stay if you want." Heidi said and pushed herself off the wall and went to the bathroom, closing the door behind her. Leaning against it for a few moments, she sighed and ran her hand through her hair again. Moving to the mirror, Heidi looked in it and tried to compose herself. Reaching up, she opened her medicine cabinet and took out another small bag of the white powder. She always had a small stash there just in case.
Pouring the bag out, she formed two lines and took her straw. Leaning down she snorted one of the lines. Flinging her head up, she breathed deeply and let a few tears fall.