Heidi's head was reeling with what she had just done. Yelling at herself for being so stupid. She just had to go and fuck things up again, just when they were getting really good. She knew she couldn't confess about this like she had last time, no, she didn't have that strength in her again, but she knew if Tracey asked, she wouldn't be able to lie. SHe was such an idiot!
"I can't do this." she repeated, biting her lip again, hand still tangled in her hair as she looked at the ground.
Looking up when Gabrielle said her name, Heidi opened her mouth, but was silent for a few moments before she spoke. "No, it's not that, I guess I just..." she sighed and the hand in her hair ran through it and came to a rest rubbing her neck. "I just can't do this. I love her too much to do something like this to her, cheat that is." she explained, not using a name and only faintly aware of blurting it out the first time.