Heidi watched quietly as Tracey smoked the fag before she threw it on the ground. Heidi hadn't cared that Tracey smoked, Heidi was a recovering alcoholic she didn't see that she had any room to talk if Tracey wanted to smoke.
Seeing the tears in Tracey's eyes, Heidi's thoughts flashed briefly back to the one other time when Tracey had looked like that. When Heidi confessed that she had cheated. She had hated herself then for hurting Tracey and now that it was Sara who was hurting her, Heidi felt a hate for Sara. She hadn't really hated anyone, but if she was going to start, Sara was a good candidate.
"Don't listen to her, Trace. She doesn't know what she's talking about. You are anything but worthless." Heidi said adamantly. She didn't add how Tracey was in fact, priceless to her.
When Tracey hugged her suddenly, Heidi was taken aback at first, but immediately, Heidi wrapped her arms around Tracey tightly and protectively and felt her hatred for Sara rise more. "She's an idiot." She frowned at the thought of Sara. Pulling back, arms still around Tracey, she lifted Tracey's chin to look at her and wiped off some of the tears with her thumb. "I'm not going anywhere Tracey." She said softly and with certainty. "I'm afraid you're stuck with me. If anything, I don't deserve you."
Heidi again held the girl against her. It killed her to see the girl she...loved? Maybe. Probably. Like that. She grew furious with Sara for saying things like that to Tracey. "What did she do?" Heidi whispered softly. "Did she hurt you?" the mere thought made her want to hurt Sara right back, something that she'd never felt before.