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Tweak says, "I love you, Laura."

Natasha Romanoff (blackwidowed) wrote in allin,
@ 2014-03-04 14:59:00

Entry tags:

bucky barnes (canon), clint barton (canon), natasha romanoff (canon)

FILTERED TO BUCKY BARNES:

How's your head?

FILTERED TO CLINT BARTON (CANON):

Best breakfast food in fake Vegas?

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	Bucky \| Natasha blackwidowed 2014-03-05 02:47 pm UTC (link)
	Some time might ease you into it. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Bucky \| Natasha bucky 2014-03-05 02:53 pm UTC (link)
	After you, they used to wipe me pretty clean after every mission. Not much stuck. I don't know what remembering everything is going to be like. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Bucky \| Natasha blackwidowed 2014-03-05 02:56 pm UTC (link)
	You need to remember one thing: you have people who care about you and will help you. Don't be afraid to ask. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Bucky \| Natasha bucky 2014-03-05 03:09 pm UTC (link)
	It's going to be difficult to talk to some of those people. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Bucky \| Natasha blackwidowed 2014-03-05 03:11 pm UTC (link)
	Nothing worth it is easy. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Bucky \| Natasha bucky 2014-03-05 03:42 pm UTC (link)
	There are already things I shouldn't have told him. About what happened to me. Before I cared if I hurt him. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Bucky \| Natasha blackwidowed 2014-03-05 03:43 pm UTC (link)
	Don't you think he should know? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Bucky \| Natasha bucky 2014-03-05 03:48 pm UTC (link)
	What good does it do him? He's just going to feel responsible. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Bucky \| Natasha blackwidowed 2014-03-05 03:52 pm UTC (link)
	He knows, Bu James. Will he feel responsible? Of course. He couldn't reach you when you fell off the train, but that was always going to haunt him. There's nothing that will change that. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Bucky \| Natasha bucky 2014-03-05 04:06 pm UTC (link)
	But there's a difference, between knowing what was done to me and knowing what I did. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Bucky \| Natasha blackwidowed 2014-03-05 04:10 pm UTC (link)
	You're afraid that when he finds out, he'll reject you and it will all have been for nothing. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Bucky \| Natasha bucky 2014-03-05 04:35 pm UTC (link)
	No. I know he won't. He's too... loyal. Even when he shouldn't be. But I know I'll be able to see it in his eyes. When he realizes that I'm just as bad as the people he's spent his life fighting. When he realizes that he should have let them take me out. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Bucky \| Natasha blackwidowed 2014-03-05 04:37 pm UTC (link)
	That's not his way. He knows that people make mistakes. He's never once looked at me as if I were just another villain turned good guy. Not once, and I could remember everything about myself. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Bucky \| Natasha bucky 2014-03-05 04:48 pm UTC (link)
	He used to look up to me. How can I take that away from him? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Bucky \| Natasha blackwidowed 2014-03-05 04:52 pm UTC (link)
	He still looks up to you, James. You're still his brother. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Bucky \| Natasha bucky 2014-03-05 04:56 pm UTC (link)
	You really think that kid could look at me the same way he always has if he really knew everything? Do you think he should? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Bucky \| Natasha blackwidowed 2014-03-05 04:58 pm UTC (link)
	The last time I checked, that kid saved the world more than once. And you helped him. Just because something terrible happened to you doesn't make you unworthy. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Bucky \| Natasha bucky 2014-03-05 05:05 pm UTC (link)
	I know. But he's never not going to be that kid to me. It's not just that, is it? I'm the something terrible that happened to a lot of people. I've never really learned to live with that before. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Bucky \| Natasha blackwidowed 2014-03-05 05:34 pm UTC (link)
	I'm sure he knows that. You're his best friend, and he hasn't been that long without you. Things will be the way they were, at least to an extent. Like I said, you have friends here. People who want to be there for you. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Bucky \| Natasha bucky 2014-03-05 05:45 pm UTC (link)
	I hope you're right. I imagine knowing what you're losing has to be worse than losing something you didn't know you had. I know. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Bucky \| Natasha blackwidowed 2014-03-05 07:56 pm UTC (link)
	The knowledge that you're losing something is hard for some to cope with, yes. (Reply to this) (Parent)

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