I only know what I am told, which at present is not a lot.
Start what exactly?
I respect you a lot more than I let on Dean, but I am of no current use to you at present. Your brother is Lucifers vessel and his will is fading, so before you start to point your stubby little fingers at family actions- I suggest you review your own.
I have not left Dean, I am still around- I am looking for the answers that we seek.