Ginny (am_ginny) wrote in aftermath_rpg, @ 2008-11-18 00:22:00 |
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Entry tags: | * november 1999, - complete, - owl, draco malfoy, ginny weasley |
OWL : Ginny to Draco
Date: 18 November 1999
Characters: Ginny, Draco
Location: The skies
Warnings: Sad!Ginny
Summary: Ginny can't take much more.
Open/Closed: Closed
Status : Incomplete
Draco,
This is not easy to write, because I am really unsure of where to start. I wish you could have been there yesterday. I really needed someone not in my family to be there.
I'm moving back in with my father. He needs me to take care of him right now, and I can't say no. Family means so much to me. I still hate myself for the fight I had with my mother over you. I won't say she was right, but it ended badly and we never forgave each other before she died.
Maybe I am just a silly Gryffindor, but I believe in loyalty and commitment. If I am with someone, I am there to hold their hand and wipe their tears and deal with the good and the bad. I just don't think you can do that, Draco. Please don't think I regret the time we have spent together. You may not know this, but you saved me from myself. You gave me a reason to hope for something beyond working in my brother's shoppe and being miserable. My only regret in all of this was we had so little in the way of good times.
I can only hope I am wrong about you, Draco. I really don't know. I really wanted to believe we had something between us, a flame that was kindled by forgiveness and fanned by circumstance. Maybe one day we're going to realize it was just that the timing was wrong. Maybe there is still a someday for us, after this is all over. I'm not one to give up easy.
If you want to talk, I'm at the Burrow for good. I do start my new job on Monday, barring Dad being too sick for me to work. That is the other news. I accepted a position as a diplomatic liaison with the Ministry. I am excited and really unsure about it all, but I know I would have never done this without your help.
Love,
Ginny