"Agrippa is right." She parroted at Eragos after he'd finished saying they were safer there. Anger bubbled and boiled beneath the surface of her skin. Agrippa was not right. Agrippa was hardly ever right. Eithne did not turn on Eragos, not yet. Was she holding out on the hope that her one true friend in the world would change his mind? A foolish venture. She knew Eragos in a way none of them did not. He believed Agrippa. In fact, Eragos had voiced a lot of what Agrippa had said to her in that damned office and here while on the road. That she wasn't doing this for anyone but herself, that she was nothing but a foolish girl. That they should leave well enough alone. The difference was Eragos had given Eithne a choice and listened to the story she told.
He had felt something about that story pulling on the same strings his story had pulled on hers. Though she never voiced that. That she knew what it was like to not have a family. To be alone, truly alone in the world. But now Eragos was... She didn't want to believe he was changing his mind, only that he was more comfortable with listening to Agrippa now when he'd originally wanted to listen to Agrippa in the first place. He wanted to turn away from this mission. Eithne finally looked over her shoulder at him, her face a mixture of anger and intense sadness.
She didn't care about losing her job, she didn't care about being locked away for the rest of her life. If she stayed here and did not finish what she started what was she left with? No hope. No anger. Nothing to still the ache that crashed over her every time she remembered how Reg sounded, or what he looked like. There would be no end to the pain in her chest, so much so now that Eithne was sure if Agrippa left her here longer than a day she'd lose her mind. They were not safer here. She was not safer here. Boq was not safer with her here, Sugar was not safer with her here. Callum was dead because she'd been with the Riders too long.
"So does that mean you believe I'm the problem like he does?" As if she forgot that the others were there. "Is that what you really think, Eragos?" Both statements were as much threats as they were carefully concealed fears that she was now voicing the fear she'd held onto for quite some time. That Eragos thought the worst of her still. That Eragos truly believed that she wasn't the kind of person to be around, or the person he'd wanted to train.
Eithne could not stay here, Eragos had to understand that. He had to know that she could not stay locked up and let Agrippa handle this.