"You didn't deserve to be misled, Eragos. I've known for quite a time that this was more than just.. than just justice. I shouldn't have asked for your help in such a misleading way. You've never been anything but honest with me. You've never done anything but try to help me. I just don't know how to take help." Eithne gripped the covers in her fingers and squeezed them. If she could have torn them a part she would have.
"I just.. can't live with the idea that it was only me. I've spent too many years of my life wondering what really happened. if I was really a monster like they said I was. How I could take a life when Reg never meant to take mine." She shook her head. I want to tell you everything but it's really.. hard."
Eithne let go of the covered. She'd never felt so exposed. She lifted her eyes to look at him.
"I don't want you to fight, I never wanted you to. It should be me. I'm the one who brought all of here. I'm the one who got Reg killed. I'm probably the reason Callum's dead. But I want to find out who is going all of this, and why. And I want them to be brought out into the open and dealt with." Eithne put a hand through her hair and looked at the ceiling because looking at him was awkward. He was saying things with his eyes.
Things she wasn't sure she could deal with hearing.
"As for.. Reg. I don't know what I'll do when I found out the truth. If it's me.." She let out a frustrated breath and nearly laughed, but there was no smile, just a wet glint to her eye. "I suppose you'll have to arrest me then. Before I have a chance to do something."
Eithne gripped the back of her neck with one hand and tried to shake it off. The emotion swelling inside of her chest.