Mac (_queen_bee_) wrote in 4bidden_social, @ 2014-10-03 20:37:00 |
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Current mood: | contemplative |
Entry tags: | #week: 6, &day: sunday, *character: jack sweeney (dropped), *character: nicole chavez, @type: blog |
Week 6; Sunday evening
Type: Written Journal Entry
Who: Just Mac, and Jack if he picks up the journal
Halloween was pretty nice. That dress, my god, I'll dream about that dress. I believe I did it justice. It was as if I wasn't a slave that night, and as if I was back in time. It would have been wonderful if Carmen was there. She would have loved that dress too. I wonder if she'd have dressed in a dress or a suit? She was a bit unpredictable that way. My step father would have died if he saw me in that dress. Probably would have tried to pawn it off as a dress he bought me, fucking louse!
But I did notice, slash overhear, some things at that party. Too many people want to bitch and moan about their life, puh-leez! Get the fuck over it! We all have shit in our background, skeletons in our closest, and places we'd rather be than our current locations, but bloody hell, man, get over it or keep it to yourself.
Sorry about your life family parents, they sound like crap bad people.
You're daddy sounds like a jerk.
I bet think guess your momma didn't know the ... gift she got when she got you.
Where am I going with this? Hm... spoiled, annoying bratty people who bitch about shit out loud.
I'm sorry about you life,
You had it pretty rough.
Bending over backwards, never good enough.
You poor thing it must suck to be you.
And I know it's not your fault, it never is.
Is it?
No never your fault. You're only unhappy with your life because you're the one sitting there, doing nothing to fix it. Shit isn't going to just fall in your laugh, idiots! I took charge of my life. I moved out and moved in with Carmen. I worked my way into the Tres 60 and convinced them to go after my step father. I killed my own step father. I took revenge on those who killed my mate, and I ran one of the best operating, smooth sailing, boot-in-your-face gangs in the entire country.
And it was my own fault I got caught. I should have seen the signs of that snitch before he got a chance to snitch.
I know what it's like staying up all night, taking care of fixing doctoring nursing wounds.
It takes more than I have to pick fights with the past, I always lose.
Oh-whoa, don't you know, that's no way to live?
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Becoming the alpha wasn't easy. Even after killing that disgusting mook, I was tested by the betas, and challenged daily for two straight weeks. I know about having to heal up quick, how to stitch up and nurse wounds, even with my wolf healing. Fighting another wolf takes its toll. Multiply that by 14 different wolves, over a 14 day period, and fuck! But I survived, I made myself survive. And I didn't fucking whine about it either!
Hmm.. I get it. Give me a little credit.
I remember when I was that pathetic.Wore Wear my scars on my sleeve, for all the world to see,
Like look what they did to me quick, lay on the sympathy thick.
A good thing about being a wolf, it's not easy to give me a scar. Unless of course you brand me with wolfsbane covered silver. Thanks Jack! Though I can't really bitch about him. It could be worse, I suppose. Like a sick, sadistic, fucked up sociopath who keeps me chained and beats me everyday. But he's not. Instead he's this secretive, slightly sadistic, late hours working, old ass vampire with an elegant side.
You probably have the right to feel how you do
You were mistreated and cheated out of the childhood you needed
And now you'll never succeed if you're so convinced you're defeated
If you're obsessed with your yesterday then you're destined to repeat it
And I know it's not your fault, it never is, is it, is it, is it?
People go through shit in their lives, super and mortal alike. It just sucks more if you're immortal, I guess, because you have longer to deal with shit. But you're also immortal which brings on the chances of things getting better. It's a teeter totter. Just which side to you wish to be on? Upside or downside?
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