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beccababy (beccababy) wrote in 20somethings,
@ 2022-09-09 20:19:00

Entry tags:

c: hans sayre, c: rebecca ollerton, d: 2028 09, ~ complete, Ω: owls/texts

Text: Friday afternoon feelings
Who: Becca & Hans
What: Becca is nearly free for a whole weekend!
When: 09/09/28
Warnings: None
Completion Status: Complete

One more hour until I'm free.
Things are so quiet here since the first.
Even the little ones can tell.
And there's been something missing here since ~~Mikaela~~ Belinda was taken home.
I guess I'm feeling restless these days.
Do you think it's just the Fall?

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hansandpaws
2022-09-10 12:25 am UTC (link)

I understand the restlessness, I've been feeling it too with that odd quiet on the Alley after back to school madness.
I have a couple more hours here, unfortunately. With the back to school madness, I'm behind in closing out the August books. Evie is with my mum for the night though, so if you wanted to come distract me once you're off, I'm sure the books will survive until tomorrow.

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	beccababy 2022-09-10 12:28 am UTC (link)
	Hmmmm... The chance to distract you for the night? Are you sure I'm more alluring than your books? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	hansandpaws 2022-09-10 12:32 am UTC (link)
	Even if these were more interesting novel type books, you would still be worlds more alluring than them. You are an expert distractor. I so often find myself thinking about the next time I'll get to see you. Hold you. See? You're distracting even when we're apart. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	beccababy 2022-09-10 12:35 am UTC (link)
	It does often feel like ages before I can feel your arms around me again. Even if it's a couple of times a week these days... Sometimes more. I may have picked something up than can be very distracting indeed, when I was out shopping with friends the other night, but it may depend on the mood. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	hansandpaws 2022-09-10 12:39 am UTC (link)
	Mmm, I've had Thoughts about that, but that's probably better for an in person conversation rather than over text. Ooh, well I have a feeling the mood will be ~quite receptive... (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	beccababy 2022-09-10 12:50 am UTC (link)
	About my shopping? You don't even know what I got... (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	hansandpaws 2022-09-10 12:51 am UTC (link)
	I have a vivid imagination. And you have excellent taste. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	beccababy 2022-09-10 12:53 am UTC (link)
	I would love to hear more about your imagination. Unless that's not a conversation for text? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	hansandpaws 2022-09-10 12:57 am UTC (link)
	And risk one of the children seeing words they shouldn't know? Wouldn't that be naughty? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	beccababy 2022-09-10 12:58 am UTC (link)
	I am very good at hiding my phone. Besides, I've been with the infants all day... Not the most eager audience :) (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

hansandpaws
2022-09-10 01:04 am UTC (link)

I see... in that case...

Right now I'm imagining you pushing my chair back from my desk and perching on the edge of the desk and blocking my view from the bloody demanding screen, your bare legs spread with your feet resting on the arm rests of my chair, boxing me in. You know how I love your legs, the feel of them under my fingertips as I stroke up and down them.

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	beccababy 2022-09-10 01:07 am UTC (link)
	You stroking me like that, the lightest touch, always gives me goosebumps. In the best way. What do you imagine I'm wearing? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	hansandpaws 2022-09-10 01:09 am UTC (link)
	Hmm, some silky, barely there negligee, probably in a bright sapphire blue with black lace around the edges. Am I getting warm? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	beccababy 2022-09-10 01:10 am UTC (link)
	You're getting somewhere with that black lace bit... I was feeling a little bit adventurous... a little outside my comfort zone of soft pastels anyway... (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	hansandpaws 2022-09-10 01:12 am UTC (link)
	Ooh feeling adventurous? Just how adventurous have you been feeling? I've got some adventures in mind. ~~Some of them even require clothes~~ (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	beccababy 2022-09-10 01:14 am UTC (link)
	You should definitely tell me about those. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	hansandpaws 2022-09-10 01:16 am UTC (link)
	That's likely to circle back to conversations better held in person. Unless you really want to know what my mind's been chewing on for the last few weeks... (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	beccababy 2022-09-10 01:18 am UTC (link)
	Of course I do! Please share? Unless you'd really rather wait till tonight. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

hansandpaws
2022-09-10 01:22 am UTC (link)

I suppose this might make you feel less put on the spot and give you a bit of time to think about it before reacting.

I miss you when you're not with me. The nights I come home from work and you're not there, I wish that you were. I know that moving in together is a large step, even without taking Evie into consideration, but I would love nothing more than for you to move in with us. My future is with you, I know that with my entire soul, and I want our lives blended in all the ways. I love you, Becca. Would you like to move in with Evie and I?

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	beccababy 2022-09-10 01:28 am UTC (link)
	~~I...~~ ... ~~I...~~ ... Are you sure? Would Evie be okay with that? ~~I've never had roommates, other than school...~~ You know I've never really lived with anyone before, right? Unless you count nannies... or Hogwarts... or sometimes my brother... How long have you been thinking about that? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

hansandpaws
2022-09-10 01:32 am UTC (link)

~~Since spring~~ I do know that, yes. I understand if you have anxieties about living with someone. It's a big decision and shouldn't be made lightly. But I've put in loads of thought for longer than I should probably admit. Evie loves you, and she misses you on the days you're not around too. She's said as much to me, and mum says she talks about you all the time.

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	beccababy 2022-09-11 11:00 pm UTC (link)
	I mean, it makes me a little nervous to never have done it before but also... I'm more nervous that maybe I'll be terrible at it. Or maybe I'm really weird when I'm home alone and I don't it? Does that make sense? Evie loves me? Okay, we were all flirty and such and now I may be a little teary as I'm getting ready to leave work (in a good way, I promise). ❤️ (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

hansandpaws
2022-09-11 11:07 pm UTC (link)

You couldn't possibly be terrible at it. So long as we continue to communicate honestly and openly with one another about our wants and needs and boundaries, there couldn't be any real issues. I never want you to feel trapped or suffocated, and I know the flat doesn't have as much space as you're used to, but I'd love to make it our home.

Of course she loves you! How could she not? I didn't intend to make things emotional. I fully planned to wait to have this conversation in person.

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	beccababy 2022-09-13 02:47 pm UTC (link)
	Our home? … … … I’m on my way. … … Yes ❤️ (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	hansandpaws 2022-09-13 02:49 pm UTC (link)
	Our home. I love you. See you soon ❤️ (Reply to this) (Parent)