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Is it terrible that I'd rather be sunning on his boat right now than at work?
I still haven't told Gavin I'm home yet. I really ought to... but...

Hardly! You did just spend almost 3 months doing that after all...
Oh. I get the impression maybe you don't really want to keep seeing him?

I don't but he did fund my entire adventure so... I slightly feel guilty.

Hmmm that's quite the quandary. The feminist in me says you don't owe him shit, but I guess for good karma points, it's probably best you reach out before he finds out from someone else?

That's what I was thinking too.
What're you doing? There's a lot of racket coming from that house just down the road. The one falling in on itself. I think someone bought it finally

I got home about an hour ago, took a bath and am doing some reading out on the deck. Someone did buy it. If my eyes haven't been deceiving me, it's my coworker Albie and his friend, this blond weirdo that tried hitting me up on the dating app. That was before Manny and I started talking though, and I never responded to him.

🤣 oh fantastic. That just sounds like a bad episode of 3s company or something.

They're not terrible to look at, and I might be getting ideas for some steamy, formulaic romance novels I could knock out pretty quick...

Do you think they are an item??

....No? I got the impression Albie was single, and obviously his friend is active on the dating app. It's more just watching them work... the ideas probably work better as bad porn scripts anyway.

There's loads of money to be made in port. Especially gay porn. Could be a good career change.

OMG I WASN'T IMAGINING THEM TOGETHER. You're killing me 🤣

I have a thing for gay men. They just do it for me.
I have a very one tracked mind.
How are things with Healer Manny?

You always have...
Things with Healer Manny are going pretty great. I thought maybe the whole working a lot thing would bother me? But we've managed to make time to see each other fairly regularly. And it's kind of nice being able to do my own thing. It feels like such a healthy, grown up relationship. So strange, idek how to deal with it!

It may be just the thing you need. Time to discover yourself, while letting a good man love you lavish you in attention when you've got the time.

Exactly! It feels low pressure but still exclusive, which is not something I've ever had? Like, I've had exclusive obviously, but it's always felt So Serious so fast in the past. And even though we've already had amazing sex, it doesn't feel like we're rushing toward any goals. It feels really good to just take my time in really getting to know him. Especially bc I didn't come out here for this! But I'm not sad I found him

Think you'll move here for good? I'm glad to hear it. I love you, all I want is to see you happy.

I am happy. I kind of love it here! I love it even more now that you're back ;)

Thank you, I promise I'll stick around a bit. I think my adventure days are over for a moment.

Adventure or travel? I feel like you could definitely find local adventures. Seems to me you're the type that would attract them ;)

That's very true and this country is very old. I wonder what sort of adventure we could find around here.

There's the spirit! Let's find some local adventure!

You'd come with me? I bet we can find a castle that's falling in on itself to play in.

Of course! I didn't come 6000 miles to work in a bar and twiddle my thumbs at home. I could have kept doing that back home!

You're sure? Maybe we can go play in Ireland. They likely have more castles.

Nope, nevermind, idk what I was thinking, I never want to hang out with you! 🤣 Of course I'm sure, silly! Where is this weird anxiety coming from? It's not like you...

A misadventure while we were gone. It shook me a little, but I'm getting better.

Okay well shake it off, anxious Eve freaks me out 👀

Sorry, you're just safe.
I bet you Gavin will fund the trip.. Maybe I ought to reach out.

Do you think it'll be costly? Seems like looking for castle ruins in Ireland wouldn't cost anything at all? But yet, can't hurt to ask... Do you think he'll freak out if you break things off?

Maybe just for a portkey. Unless we take a train.... Hm.. I don't know, honestly. I thought I'd seen something in a gossip rag that he'd gotten around while I was gone. I doubt his bed was empty.

Oh right. I guess neither of us would know the right apparition points. Hmm okay yeah but you guys don't have any expectation of exclusivity, right? I bet he missed you. You're kind of amazing, how could he not?

That's very true. I need to stop fretting over ridiculous things. Keep moving forward.

Have you been by the club yet? At least to see how beautiful it is??

Forward momentum is definitely for the best! I have not been to the club yet... it's not really my scene? Although that makes me wonder if Manny's ever been. I think I'll ask him next time I see him. Have to see his face when I do, after all 🤣

I will let you know when we have a more PG sort of event. Like nates birthday or something. The bar area alone is so incredible, especially all dressed up.

I mean, I'd be fine doing a tour of the place during normal hours, just probably won't be going for a membership ;)

Perfect. I just want to show off how beautiful it is. The simulation rooms are *chefs kiss* you'll not believe what Nate accomplished. I've used them to just feel like I'm laying on a beach when it's blistering cold.

That sounds amazing. I wrote my schedule on the kitchen calendar so just lmk when!

Perfect!