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Lucy May Weasley (lucymaybefierce) wrote in 20somethings,
@ 2021-11-29 18:23:00

Entry tags:

c: dom weasley, c: ginny weasley, c: jaimeson fitzgerald, c: kenzie montgomery, c: lucy weasley, c: lyra malfoy, c: molly sue weasley, d: 2027 11, ~ complete, Ω: owls/texts

Texts: Pregnancy Woes
Who: Lucy to Molly, Lyra, Kenzie, Dom, Jaimeson, and Aunt Ginny
What: Lucy has a big decision to make and decides it wouldn't be terrible to ask her most important people for advice.
When: 29 November 2027
Warnings: Talk of pregnancy options, tbd
Completion Status: Complete

To Molly: I've given myself nearly a week to wrap my head around it but I know I need to make a decision soon. What would you do? I mean, I was being safe because I didn't want to get pregnant, which means it would be totally justified in ending it right? But if it's that simple, why haven't I done it yet?

To Lyra: How did you know you wanted to keep the baby when you got pregnant with Orion?

To Kenzie: Hypothetically speaking, what would you do if you ended up pregnant?

To Dom: Hypothetically speaking, what would you do if you ended up pregnant?

To Jaimeson: I can't seem to keep anything down today. ~~I don't think it was real for me until~~

Aunt Ginny? Can I ask you a personal question?

Of course Luce. What is it?

I know your pregnancy came as quite the surprise, but how did you decide to keep the baby?

~~Oh love, are you~~ Well, I gave it a lot of thought, talked it over with Blaise and decided that even though it was unplanned, I already loved the little peanut. Plus I'm at a place in my life where I'll be able to enjoy the insanity a baby brings better than I did the first time around. First three times? You get the idea!

I know you love Jamie, Albie, and Lily, but have you ever regretted having them when you did? Weren't you about my age when Jamie came along?

I was 22 when Jamie was born, so not much older than you are now. I think that there were a lot of things I'd have loved to have been able to do that having a family so young prevented me from doing, but I also know that I've had a brilliant life, and I wouldn't likely be where I'm at professionally if things hadn't gone the way they had. I might not have Blaise, either. I don't love playing the what if game. It's much more fulfilling to live in the moment.

It's not always easy to live in the moment.

I know. Lucy, love, are you pregnant?

~~Yes~~ ~~I don't~~ Please don't tell anyone! Everything's a mess right now, and I don't know what to do.

It's not anything anyone can decide for you. I know it feels like an impossible decision, but it is your decision to make. Have you talked to the father yet?

Yes, he brought me the tests and was there when I took them. He says that he supports me in whatever I choose, but I just know that he really wants me to keep it. He's not said so, but he's already got a daughter, Bella, she's 11 and just started at Hogwarts this year and he just finally got full custody of her. But we've also not been together long. It's just so much.

Do you love him?

~~Yes~~ I think it could be love. There's just been so much in such a short time. I promised him to give a relationship with him a go for trial run, that we would evaluate things before Bella comes home for Christmas. But everything's blown up all at once. I'm not sure his parents like me, he swears they do, but idk, and then losing ~~our~~ my job, and now this? It's a lot of feelings to sort through. How can I even know what I truly feel?

I have known you your entire life, Lucy, and you have never been wishy washy in the least. I think you know what you feel, and I think you know what you want to do about the pregnancy, too.

How can I though?

By overcoming the fear enough to admit it. I think that if the larger part of you didn't want to keep this baby, you wouldn't be reaching out for advice. So here is my advice, it is okay to want that baby. It is okay to love someone even only such a short time into dating them. And it is okay to not know for sure how the rest of your life will go if you keep and love them both and to do so anyway.

You really think so?

Of course I do. And maybe in a week or two, once you've sorted your head out about it all, we can get together to talk about career stuff? I might have a few ideas for you.

Really? That would be great! Thank you so much, Aunt Ginny!

You're welcome, Luce. I love you, and I'm here for you if you need anything.

I love you too ❤️

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	Dom and Lucy domweasley 2021-11-29 11:42 pm UTC (link)
	Probably freak out at the immaculate conception because that area has been closed for business for a couple of years… What’s up? Is something up with Molly? (Reply to this) (Thread)

Re: Dom and Lucy

lucymaybefierce
2021-11-30 12:23 am UTC (link)

You actually made me laugh with that!

Omg no, not with Molly! It's me. I haven't told many people obviously. I haven't decided what to do yet. This was supposed to just be a trial run for a relationship with him, you know? Like you suggested. And it's been going so well, but despite being responsible with it, this has happened. And I don't know what the right thing is to do now.

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	Re: Dom and Lucy domweasley 2021-11-30 12:48 am UTC (link)
	Okay, that’s a lot to take in. Especially when other parts of your long-term plans have been disrupted recently. Are you feeling okay? Physically if not emotionally? I wish I could give you a nice, easy answer!!! The right thing to do is different for everyone, I guess? A few months ago you weren’t sure if you even wanted to date someone with a kid. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

Re: Dom and Lucy

lucymaybefierce
2021-11-30 12:56 am UTC (link)

Exactly. I haven't figured out what to do about my career either, but that's taken the backseat for the time being, obviously. I've been sick all day honestly, it's not been fun.

That's what I was afraid of. I much prefer things that have clear right and wrong choices. And yeah, I wasn't sure a few months ago, and that whole thing's gotten more complicated too, as he's finally won full custody of her. The thought of meeting her is still nerve-wracking, but I do know I want to be with him.

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	Re: Dom and Lucy domweasley 2021-11-30 08:41 pm UTC (link)
	I know you do. But I don't think the world is full of clear binaries like that. Everything's shades of grey, you know? Trust yourself and your feelings! You have a good head on your shoulders. You'll be a great mum one day. I guess it's down to whether one day is next year or a few years from now. But I'll be right with you whatever you decide! 💚 (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: Dom and Lucy lucymaybefierce 2021-11-30 09:04 pm UTC (link)
	That seems to be the constant thread in all the advice, trust myself. I don't think I've ever been in a situation in which I was so terrified to trust myself. Whatever I choose, it's a big deal. Thanks Dom, I really appreciate that! It feels SO weird to think that I could be the first of all us to have a baby. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: Dom and Lucy domweasley 2021-11-30 10:46 pm UTC (link)
	The biggest of deals! And you have the biggest of families to back you up. It takes a village and all that. Omg, that's why I asked about Molly. I can picture her and her bae making little blonde babies. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: Dom and Lucy lucymaybefierce 2021-12-01 01:09 am UTC (link)
	I definitely have a village! Ugh right! They'd have the cutest little blonde babies! (Reply to this) (Parent)

	Kenzie & Lucy kenziefrenzie 2021-11-30 01:42 am UTC (link)
	Honestly? That's a very life altering question. The only person I'm sleeping with at the moment that could get me pregnant is technically my step-brother. Fucking hate the parents at the moment. Needless to say, this message gave me a fucking heart attack. It means however that you had a bigger heart attack. Are you alright? (Reply to this) (Thread)

	Re: Kenzie & Lucy lucymaybefierce 2021-11-30 01:46 am UTC (link)
	You're sleeping with Jasper?! How did I not know this? Are you interested in more than sex with him? Oh this is a fantastic distraction! Please tell me more so I don't have to think about how not all right I am... (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

Re: Kenzie & Lucy

kenziefrenzie
2021-11-30 01:51 am UTC (link)

Well, when you're ready.. I'm here. Definitely.

For the meantime. My mess of a life. Um.. Let's see. It started when Wes gave me the ability to invite whomever I like to our party. Which I now like to think of as birthday gift to Kenzie because he loaded my toybox with the best toys. Anyway, so I mentioned it Jasper. I wanted to invite him but with the parents married... It felt like a thing I might need to run past him. Especially since it's never been... sexual. Like ever. It's always just felt right and comfortable. ~~He's my twin flame.~~

It opened something though, at the wedding we kissed. We got lost in the hedges and uh... Changed absolutely everything. Now when we lay around his house, it's not just cuddles, smoking, plants, and movies. It's cuddles, smoking, plants, sex, fantastic times. As for like.. The more than sex? That's a worry for future Kenzie. Current Kenzie is enjoying sleeping with whomever she wishes. ~~FUCK that was a lot~~ That's the most honest I think I've been in like... ages.

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	Re: Kenzie & Lucy lucymaybefierce 2021-11-30 01:58 am UTC (link)
	Whoa. Yeah, that IS a lot! I can totally see why you wanted to run the idea past him rather than a random spontaneous invite. I can't imagine living quite that way, but I'm glad you're having fun! ~~Just don't be surprised if this~~ What would you do if this happened to you though? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: Kenzie & Lucy kenziefrenzie 2021-11-30 02:06 am UTC (link)
	I honestly don't know, I'm just starting acting. I don't think I'm grown up nearly enough for a child. I can barely take care of myself. ~~Wes helps me keep from overdoing it.~~ I don't know that I could have the child, while I also don't know that I could not-not have it. Does that make sense? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

Re: Kenzie & Lucy

lucymaybefierce
2021-11-30 02:12 am UTC (link)

It definitely makes sense. That's kind of where I'm at with it. Like, it's not that I don't think I can take care of a child, it's just that this wasn't my plan. Not even a little bit. I was supposed to be fully settled in my career and then get married and them maybe a few years after that have kids. I've only been dating Jaimeson for a few months! Is that really long enough to know if I'm ready to have a child with him? But otoh, it's happened. I AM pregnant.

I messaged Lyra about it but I think she must be at work or something. I remember when she got pregnant with Orion. I just don't know how she decided to keep the baby. God, that was nearly three freaking years ago!

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Re: Kenzie & Lucy

kenziefrenzie
2021-11-30 02:32 am UTC (link)

Lyra decided to keep him even with odds stacked against her. She seems to have made an good go of things. Orion is happy.

I wish I had some sage advice. I just have weed. Lots of that. actually. I'll be honest, but please don't judge me. If I were to be pregnant, right this very moment. I would get an abortion. For the first time ever I've got a goal, I want to see my name in lights. I want people to look at me when I walk in the room the way they look at Wes. I want people to know me. It's... a strange feeling, but I want to see where this goes. I landed a role in a movie. St. Mungos got a second season. I am doing the damn thing. I can't afford time where I'd have to be away from filming or prying people will work with a nobody and their pregnancy.

I'm incredibly selfish ~~I think Jasper would want to keep it~~

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Re: Kenzie & Lucy

lucymaybefierce
2021-11-30 02:40 am UTC (link)

That's just it, I had a plan, a goal, and I was making it happen, but that's all gone now. For this to happen now, when my whole life is in chaos and I have no working plan because I've still got to sort out what the new plan is? It just doesn't feel so cut and dry.

I don't think it's selfish to get an abortion if having a baby would ruin your career. Maybe that's why I'm so conflicted right now? Would it be selfish for me considering I have no career left to ruin? And I just keeping asking myself, do I even want a baby? Is it something I'm ready for? And I just don't know.

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Re: Kenzie & Lucy

kenziefrenzie
2021-11-30 02:50 am UTC (link)

To play devil's advocate. I don't know if you need to have a set plan for the whole career thing. I only just found my path. The baby might be the new path. Maybe you'll become like the next amazing mommy blogger. You're going to kill motherhood, we all know that. BUT there's always other jobs. Thousands of jobs. We're wizards. Your aunt is pregnant. She's ancient! I feel like there's all this time to figure out everything. Who's to say you can't have a baby now and career later? Or a career now and babies later? You can literally have everything you want, I fully see that. You're tenacious and amazing.

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	Re: Kenzie & Lucy lucymaybefierce 2021-11-30 03:05 am UTC (link)
	~~You don't know how much I needed to hear that~~ There's no way to know what my new path is, not without deciding and going for it. But yeah, I've been messaging with my aunt too. She's given me some great advice. I really appreciate your perspective too. Thanks Kenz 💚 (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: Kenzie & Lucy kenziefrenzie 2021-11-30 03:23 am UTC (link)
	Anytime. I love you 💕 (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: Kenzie & Lucy lucymaybefierce 2021-11-30 03:29 am UTC (link)
	Love you too! (Reply to this) (Parent)

	Jaimeson & Lucy keepingfitz 2021-11-30 01:44 am UTC (link)
	Would you like me to pop by once I'm done with this job? I can bring some ginger, I've heard it helps. (Reply to this) (Thread)

	Re: Jaimeson & Lucy lucymaybefierce 2021-11-30 01:47 am UTC (link)
	Omg no ginger please. I tried some in my tea this morning and it did not agree with me at all! (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: Jaimeson & Lucy keepingfitz 2021-11-30 01:52 am UTC (link)
	I can see if I can find anything at the store? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: Jaimeson & Lucy lucymaybefierce 2021-11-30 01:54 am UTC (link)
	You don't have to bring anything over. Just yourself. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: Jaimeson & Lucy keepingfitz 2021-11-30 02:08 am UTC (link)
	You're sure? I hear I'm pretty great at massages. I could bring over some things, give you a massage? Help you relax? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: Jaimeson & Lucy lucymaybefierce 2021-11-30 02:14 am UTC (link)
	Hmmm I suppose I could allow that... (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: Jaimeson & Lucy keepingfitz 2021-11-30 02:46 am UTC (link)
	I even have some candles that are supposed to help calm. Patchouli and vanilla. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: Jaimeson & Lucy lucymaybefierce 2021-11-30 02:49 am UTC (link)
	That sounds lovely! (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: Jaimeson & Lucy keepingfitz 2021-11-30 02:51 am UTC (link)
	see you soon ♥ (Reply to this) (Parent)

	Molly & Lucy mollysuetoo 2021-12-02 12:04 am UTC (link)
	Oh love, because it's not that simple. It never is. You'd be completely justified no matter which decision you make - there isn't any 'justification' needed, either way. You know I support you no matter what, right? I love you. (Reply to this) (Thread)

	Re: Molly & Lucy lucymaybefierce 2021-12-02 12:38 am UTC (link)
	I wish it was simply. I feel horribly guilty whenever I think of ending it but incredibly anxious when I think of keeping it. It's terrifying either way. I know 💚 you're my favorite sister ever! I love you too! (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: Molly & Lucy mollysuetoo 2021-12-02 03:02 am UTC (link)
	The hardest decisions never are, babe. I wish I could help make it for you, or make it easier. When I have to decide something hard, or my anxiety is overwhelming, I try my best to think of how I would feel if anxiety or fear wasn't part of it. Does that make sense? Like -- if you didn't have these worries, or the guilt, what would your gut tell you to do? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

Re: Molly & Lucy

lucymaybefierce
2021-12-02 03:09 am UTC (link)

That I'm not ready to have a baby.

But the anxiety and fear are part of it and idek if that response is free of the anxiety. Am I only saying that bc I never imagined having a family this young? And then I start thinking about how my life is in a period of transition right now anyway. I have the chance to decide a completely new path, and why shouldn't this pregnancy be a part of it?

Obviously I'm still ridiculously mixed up about it.

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	Re: Molly & Lucy mollysuetoo 2021-12-04 07:26 pm UTC (link)
	Gods...... I wish I could see you right at this moment and hug you tight. I don't want to push or influence your decision anyway, you're the only person who can make it. But can I tell you what I think? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: Molly & Lucy lucymaybefierce 2021-12-04 07:28 pm UTC (link)
	Please do! (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: Molly & Lucy mollysuetoo 2021-12-11 05:52 pm UTC (link)
	I think you go with your first gut instinct. I would do the same. If you're not ready, there's nothing wrong with that, and this is something that you ~really want to feel ready for, you know? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: Molly & Lucy lucymaybefierce 2021-12-11 06:25 pm UTC (link)
	You're probably right. What do you think mum and dad will say if I keep it? I still haven't talked to dad about the whole being fired fiasco. And I still don't know what I'm doing next. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: Molly & Lucy mollysuetoo 2021-12-11 06:31 pm UTC (link)
	I think it's none of their business, and if they have anything to say that isn't of the utmost support, they can slag off with that. You know they'll support your decision either way, though, they love you, no matter what. We both know that. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: Molly & Lucy lucymaybefierce 2021-12-11 06:47 pm UTC (link)
	You're the best. Seriously! I really need to hear that. And I know they love me no matter what, but you know how... uptight dad can get. I've always worried so much about making sure not to disappoint him. I suppose it's time to finish growing up and move past the need for daddy's approval, right? God, this is so weird! (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

Re: Molly & Lucy

mollysuetoo
2021-12-11 06:54 pm UTC (link)

You are NOT the disappointment in the family - I am, remember? I work in a shop and "play dress up" on the side, I believe is how he put it... I'm always happy to take the heat anytime when it comes to his disappointment, mostly because I gave up the thought of ever having it when I left Gringotts. BUT he loves us no matter what we get up to or how we live our loves. Mum would kill him if he didn't, LOL.

It is! But it can also be good weird, if you want it to be. Let me know what you decide? I'll be with you every step of the way, no matter which way the steps take you. I love you.

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Re: Molly & Lucy

lucymaybefierce
2021-12-11 07:27 pm UTC (link)

~~The higher the rise, the harder the fall~~ Mum is wonderful, isn't she? I bet she'd enjoy having a grandbaby about. And you know Grandma Molly would be over the moon to have a great-grandbaby. I just never imagined I'd be the first one to do the thing!

But the more I think about it, the more I'm convinced that I couldn't end it. I can't even begin to imagine being a mum, but that's why I've got eight months to get used to the idea, right?

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	Re: Molly & Lucy mollysuetoo 2021-12-11 08:32 pm UTC (link)
	I suppose that would be a good way to use the eight months. Whichever way you go, and no matter what, I've got your back, and I believe in you. (Reply to this) (Parent)