Managed to survive the 4th alright. Since this is the first time in a long time I've been a civilian during the 4th, I wasn't really all that sure how I'd do with fireworks, firecrackers and the errant handgun going off in celebration. Nor was I sure how well I'd do in large crowds of unpredictable people I didn't know.
I am pleased to report that even though the louder fireworks made me jump, there was nothing really triggering about them, which I'm happy about. I loved this holiday as a kid; the parades, the cook-outs and barbecues, the fireworks, everything about it is what makes summer summer for me. Knowing that I can still enjoy fireworks is something of a relief.
Still not sure about the crowds though. I entertained the idea of going out and watching a parade, but couldn't quite get up the nerve. Too many people packed too close together, I guess. I'm going to work on getting over that, because I would like to see a parade, dammit. Its just going to take more practice, more forced going outside to places people gather like....I don't know...shopping malls, I guess? People gather there, right?
I am a little relieved that I wasn't the only one around here a little uneasy about the 4th and all that comes with it. For those who had a good time, I'm glad. For those who chose to avoid it like I did, I hope you came out safe in the end.