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Melora Hawke is plotting something (smallbutdeadly) wrote in undertherainbow,
@ 2012-01-09 02:03:00

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melora hawke, zelda mccoy

Um, Zelda? Can I ask you something personal?

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	putoutthefire 2012-01-09 06:56 pm UTC (link)
	Shoot. (Reply to this) (Thread)

	smallbutdeadly 2012-01-10 12:55 am UTC (link)
	Um. What was your first time like? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	putoutthefire 2012-01-10 01:16 am UTC (link)
	Honestly? Really boring. I mostly tried to look interested so his feelings wouldn't be hurt because I really liked him, but I mostly thought about how overrated the whole thing was. I liked the cuddling better. Still do, actually. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	smallbutdeadly 2012-01-10 01:33 am UTC (link)
	Oh.. Boring? It didn't hurt? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	putoutthefire 2012-01-10 01:41 am UTC (link)
	Not really? I think maybe it hurt more back when girls didn't do anything but lay around and darn socks. Especially if you use tampons or ride horses or jill off, it shouldn't hurt too bad. Just have him go slow, and I know you'll tell him if it hurts. Plus, he doesn't seem to be the kind of guy that wouldn't listen to you. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	smallbutdeadly 2012-01-10 01:45 am UTC (link)
	Are you glad you did it? I mean, if it was boring and stuff? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

putoutthefire
2012-01-10 01:54 am UTC (link)

I loved him. I just liked spending time with him, and even though it wasn't all fireworks and the world moving, it was time with him where he made me feel pretty and not awkward. I'll always be glad I did it.

There's sex I have because I have an itch I need to scratch, and there's sex I have because I love someone. I'd like to have more of that second one in my life. ... and I have no idea why I'm telling you this, you hate me.

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	smallbutdeadly 2012-01-10 01:59 am UTC (link)
	Sorry, I just don't know who else to talk to. Don't really have a lot of female friends, especially not ones that know about this stuff. Sorry. I'm kind of freaking out a little. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	putoutthefire 2012-01-10 02:02 am UTC (link)
	It's not like I don't want to be. That's normal. Hell, I invited Duncan over and wore footie pajamas so he wouldn't be tempted to touch me too much. Freaking out is normal, and if you sleep with anyone else ever, you'll freak out then too. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	smallbutdeadly 2012-01-10 02:06 am UTC (link)
	Do you use stuff? For protection and stuff? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	putoutthefire 2012-01-10 02:19 am UTC (link)
	Absolutely. I always carry two condoms with me, just in case. Hell, just in case a friend needs one, you know? I'm on the pill too, but that's more because my periods are the devil. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	smallbutdeadly 2012-01-10 02:30 am UTC (link)
	I really need to talk to Aedan about this. We just sort of.. keep running away whenever it comes up. Sorry if I sound like a total prude. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	putoutthefire 2012-01-10 02:35 am UTC (link)
	You don't sound like a prude, and you don't have to apologize. Sex is a personal thing, and everyone should do it in a way that makes them feel comfy. Oh - when you get condoms, make sure they're lubricated. They sell ones that aren't, and they hurt like the devil half the time. I don't know why they still make them. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	smallbutdeadly 2012-01-10 02:41 am UTC (link)
	Thanks. Maybe there are some people that are into that, and would be all 'Noooo, why did you lubricate all the condoms, I liked my vagina being on fire!' (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	putoutthefire 2012-01-10 02:42 am UTC (link)
	Seriously, that's what it's like. You know when you get sand in icky places after beach day? Times a hundred. We should find whoever's into that and hit them. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	smallbutdeadly 2012-01-10 02:43 am UTC (link)
	They would probably like that, too. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	putoutthefire 2012-01-10 02:45 am UTC (link)
	Ewwwwww. ... but seriously, condoms in addition to protecting from STDs protect from jizz. It gets cold really fast and it's like glue in the hair and it's the worst liquid thing ever. I think sex is kind of like a roller coaster. If you think too much about it, it's the worst idea ever, but then you do it and it's awesome. (Reply to this) (Parent)