|Steve Rogers/Captain America (kicksnaziass) wrote in undertherainbow,|
@ 2008-10-25 22:36:00
|Entry tags:||steve rogers|
Some days it's hard to work when Tony is around. Sometimes when I see him I have flashbacks to the day I died. To the day he couldn't save me. I end up thinking about how his men ambushed me in my own home only hours before the superhuman registration act was to come into effect. Deep down I feel the distaste and the closest feeling of hatred I'd ever felt toward someone who wasn't German. I hate that feeling, especially because he's so good to me. He's given me a job; something to do, something to keep my mind busy when there aren't people to save.
Yet I can't help but feel sick when I see him sometimes. I feel like there is still a wound between us that will never heal and sometimes...well, it makes me miss my best friend. Actually, more like it always makes me miss my best friend. I even find it hard to talk to Pepper at times because I know if I talk to her she might end up talking to Tony and I don't want to make him feel bad.
He doesn't deserve it.
[Psyche]: Would you like to come and walk a beach with me? I'm finding it hard...to sleep.
It's cold outside tonight. I thought it was never supposed to be cold in Southern California. The sand between my toes feel nice, though. I think I'd rather have cold sand than hot sand.