I guess I should expect an adjustment after nearly 7 years of freelancing/under-employment. But I was surprised to have a panic attack reporting to new office for security and badge process, including finger-printing.
It wasn't so much the procedure itself, it was the NEWness, plus the 'be-on-time, traffic, getting-lost-because-I'm-anxious, NEW PEOPLE vibe that clobbered me as I arrived Friday afternoon. Yikes, I was actually SHAKING. **eyeroll* *8pats self like a nervous dog**
I have 1.5 weeks to get ready for a whole new world. The work doesn't scare me at all: I know I am completely competent. (if you've known me a while you;ll know that is a BIG breakthrough!)
But, everything else seems to be monumentally terrifying! As if I were 6 years old!
- Big Buildings
- Strange People
- People with GUNS
- Miles of corridors and spaces that all look alike
- Rules, rules, rules!
This list shows me what a wild child I have been in recent years! Well, yeah - look how much 'civilizing I had to go thru to get ready:
- skincare & makeup
I'm going to be FINE, I'm just scared is all!
Lately all these things have been luxuries. Now, more necessary.