Lills' Monologue
I don't know what is going on with me these days. I can't seem to stay focused on anything. The fire, the accident, almost dying everything has become one great big trigger. Since I took the bite nothing has gone right. I'm starting to regret it. Yes I don't have the depression as bad as it was but it still lingers as do the panic attacks. Though I knew those wouldn't go anywhere due to the trigger.
How dose one explain to the man that raises them that he is the trigger to the worst experiences you have to cope with in daily life? I know I can't go on lying to him about it. Hey is going to get to that point of wanting to know the truth. How can I tell Uncle Peter my memories of him laying in that hospital bed cause the panic attacks?
I just wanted to go home and I want life to go back to the way it should be. One big happy family and pack under the same roof and all of us alive...
I don't want to be a werewolf anymore. I never should have taken the bite. I should have stood by what I told Daddy before he died. I want to be human again...