littleblackbow (littleblackbow) wrote in pervy_werewolf, @ 2011-05-29 20:49:00 |
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Entry tags: | #lmom 2011, author: littleblackbow, remus/sirius |
LMOM 2011 Day #29
Title: Do What We Can
Author: littleblackbow
Rating: NC-17
Pairing: Remus/Sirius
Kink(s): kissing, sex
Challenge: LMOM 2011
Word count: 882
Summary: After Severus leaves to go back to Hogwarts, things are just not the same at 12 Grimmauld Place.
Things were not the same after Severus left to go back to Hogwarts. They had spent one last night together, everyone taking turns making love to each other, whispering words that they dared not speak outside of that bedroom, and sharing the most intense physical pleasure imaginable.
Because there were no guarantees. Each of them knew that to be painfully true.
Remus and Sirius tried to make things work just between the two of them, but it always felt a little awkward. Something was always missing.
Someone was always missing.
“I miss him,” Sirius said one day as he stared out the window. It was late November, and the rains were heavy and cold. “And I worry about him.”
“Harry?” Remus set down his book and joined his lover, leaning against the wall next to him. He put his hand on Sirius’s arm and gently ran it up and down.
“Well, yes, Harry, but I was talking about Severus.”
Remus nodded, then leaned in and kissed Sirius on the cheek by his eye.
“There’s a foul smell in the air, and it isn’t just the Triwizard Tournament nonsense. Harry isn’t ready for that, I know that much. But I also know that there’s something darker than just a prankster behind all of this.”
“He can take care of himself.” Remus tried to sound reassuring, but his voice faltered.
“You’re worried, too.”
“I am.”
“Moony, I love you more than anything. You know that, right?”
Remus actually smiled a genuine smile. “Of course I do.”
“But... I think...” Sirius was obviously having a difficult time putting his feelings into words.
“You love him, too.”
Sirius pressed his lips tightly closed. He turned back to the window and nodded. “I do.”
Remus moved around to Sirius’s back and wrapped his arms around his waist. “I do, too. And I worry. And I can smell the evil in the air, as well.”
Sirius placed his hands on top of Remus’s and leaned back into his embrace. “We can’t go back. I don’t even want to go back because it will just make everything sour again. So, what do we do when the road ahead is so completely black and hopeless?”
“I wouldn’t say hopeless, Padfoot.” He kissed Sirius’s neck and rested his head on his back. “Let’s go upstairs. Do something to take our minds off of things.”
“It isn’t the same without him.”
“No, but we can still do this for each other. Even if it isn’t as good, we can still make today a little better.”
They went into Regulus’s old room. It was one of the rooms they generally stayed out of, but today Sirius said he needed to be in someplace where the three of them hadn’t been together.
For the first time, the took their time undressing each other. Sirius started by unbuttoning Remus’s shirt and slipping it off his shoulders, kissing each side as he slid it down his arms. Then he unbuttoned Remus’s trouser button, unfastened the zipper, and slid those down off of his hips. After pushing his lover’s underpants down, and helping him step out of them, he sat Remus down on the bed and removed his socks, running his face on his legs as he tossed those aside.
When he was done, Remus stood and began the same process with Sirius. “You have as many scars as I do, Padfoot.”
“Life can do that to a man, Moony.”
“Do you ever miss Prongs?”
“Every day. Every single day. And every time I see Harry. And every time I think of...”
“Shush.” Remus removed Sirius’s denims and held him close, reveling in the feel of skin upon skin. “Today it’s just you and me. Just you and me again.”
“I love you, Remus. I never tell you enough, but just always know that I do.”
“I love you too, Sirius. Always have.”
They lay on the bed, kissing and fondling each other until their erections were hard enough to start rubbing against each other.
After several minutes, Remus pushed Sirius’s legs up and prepared to enter him. They took it slowly this time, almost as if they were under some sort of spell.
And in a way, they were. The sex wasn’t like anything they’d had recently. Sirius felt drugged as he leaned into Remus, meeting his thrusts. And as for Remus, well, it wasn’t as if he wasn’t enjoying himself, but he was so focused on trying to make Sirius feel better that he was only remotely aware of nearing his own climax.
Remus did finish first. “I’m sorry, Sirius.”
Sirius reached down and gave his cock a few quick tugs to finish himself off. “It’s... it’s alright, love.” He reached up and pulled Remus down for a tender kiss. “It’s alright.”
Before he knew it, Remus felt tears well up in his eyes. It wasn’t the same. It didn’t feel right. Somehow he was here with Sirius, and they were making love, and it still didn’t feel right. Had the world changed so much that he couldn’t even have sex with Sirius, Sirius and enjoy it?
Sirius petted back his hair and held him close. “I know, gorgeous. I know. Until he comes back, we’ll just do what we can.”