She never went there with the intent to kill she went there for answers. And when they weren't the right ones she wanted them to hurt but she could feel how easy it would be to take their lives how good it could feel to take away something she thought at the time was the problem. Some fucking relief was all she wanted. But when she was stunned her senses came back for a moment at least when she realized what she had done.
"Sick..." She said finally and then almost followed it with a 'but'. She supposed maybe there was no difference. How could anyone ever be sure the person they were eradicating from the universe was irredeemable.