Zoe (history_repeats) wrote in nevermore_logs, @ 2014-11-02 11:01:00 |
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Entry tags: | greed, zoe hansen |
WHO: Zoe & Greed w/ Digger
WHEN: October 25 [Backdated]
WHERE: Zoe's and Greed's apartment, hotel, office
WHAT: Wedding reception
WARNING: Drunk kissing
Note: The log reads backwards
"Sounds like a prison sentence." He pulled her close so that her legs were back to wrap around him, only so he could crush her in a hug. She needed it. She needed to feel something strong. There was nothing sexual in this even if someone came in to see their position.
On Aug 25, 2014 4:36 PM, "Lucky L." <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote:
"Fine, a 100. You deserve for me to be mad at you forever." she had no energy to her voice, "You left me." she said in a broken voice that was still filled with so much heartache and disbelief. She had to say it outloud, she had to keep saying it because sometimes she couldn't believe it. And she did, she needed to hate him for it.
On Mon, Aug 25, 2014 at 1:18 PM, Lauren Christensen <prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote:
"Fifty years is a long time for you to hold a grudge." Lust had held one for even longer with what he'd done to her human boy toy. "But if it makes you feel better..." She was allowed to feel, allowed to hate him. She deserved that after what he'd done.
On Aug 25, 2014 4:09 PM, "Lucky L." <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote:
"I'm gonna be mad at you for 50 years." she said in a dull voice but didn't lift her head up, just rested it on his shoulder. She didn't trust him. She was still so hurt by him. She wanted to be with him. But she couldn't. And yet, she still couldn't leave him.
On Mon, Aug 25, 2014 at 1:06 PM, Lauren Christensen <prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote:
"Maybe I do, but that's ok. Be mad at me, just don't hide from me." She didn't trust him, that he could sense. As much as she got closer in this one evening, she was pulling back. As long as she didn't let go, he wouldn't go into a fit of hysterics.
On Aug 25, 2014 3:50 PM, "Lucky L." <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote:
She gave him a look, "You don't think you deserve to be mad at?" she sighed and closed her eyes, letting her forehead fall onto his shoulder, "We can't do this. I can't do this." she was tired. She was exhausted. She couldn't go on this hamster wheel with him anymore.
On Mon, Aug 25, 2014 at 12:47 PM, Lauren Christensen <prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote:
"So we're back to being mad at me then?" They hadn't fully solved anything when he went all demon deal. They just started to finally iron some things out. They were a long ways off though.
On Aug 25, 2014 3:02 PM, "Lucky L." <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote:
When his puppy eyes met hers, she turned her head to look the other way, "Yeah, you left me." she raised her brows and shook her head, "I don't know if you remember, but I was still mad at you before you turned into a demon/zombie." so seeing 'him' again might not be the best thing since she was upset with him.. but at least she was upset with him and not a faded image of him.
On Mon, Aug 25, 2014 at 11:59 AM, Lauren Christensen <prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote:
Greed hummed seemingly pleased with that answer. "See any other girl would tell me 'oh cause you look so hot'. Everything falls on image and how they see me. But, yeah, for the first time in a long time you're looking at me again and not the zombie I left you with." He inhaled, exhaling slowly and tilting his head to meet her lowered gaze. She was not going to shy away from looking at him anymore tonight.
On Aug 25, 2014 2:37 PM, "Lucky L." <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote:
"Because..." she lowered her gaze and fell silent for a moment before taking a deep breath and saying, "Because for the first time in a really long time... it felt like us. Tonight felt different." they had jabbed at each other about clothes, she did his tie, they danced, he comforted her, they laughed and played with food and had to make a run when he swiped the bouquet, he made her something so beautiful and meaningful, and she felt like... "Tonight I felt like maybe I was enough.." her words were barely audible she said them so quietly.
On Mon, Aug 25, 2014 at 11:33 AM, Lauren Christensen <prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote:
"Why'd you do it then?" He asked curiously. If she told herself why, she could tell him why and maybe they could move forward.
On Aug 25, 2014 12:16 PM, "Lucky L." <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote:
Her cheeks turned pink and her lips parted when he mentioned her liking the kiss. But he was right.. she wasn't mad at him, he didn't do this. He kept his distance like she asked. She eventually looked at him and said, "I should be mad at myself. I.. I messed up and I made it more confusing for us.. for me.. I'm not angry I liked it... you know I did. I just, I'm angry I did it.. but.." she trailed off. How to explain she was angry that she did it but she couldn't help it. Tonight felt different. Tonight had felt like them before.
On Mon, Aug 25, 2014 at 6:16 AM, Lauren Christensen <prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote:
"What are you more mad about? Huh?" He tilted his head to the side. "The fact that you kissed me or that you liked it, because you're not mad at me. You're mad at yourself and you shouldn't be." She'd given in to a little greed.
On Aug 25, 2014 2:06 AM, "Lucky L." <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote:
She was getting increasingly agitated and nervous as she shoved at his chest, "It happened, I had a moment of weakness, I came to my senses, who cares!?" but she wasn't angry, she was distraught. She was upset it happened. Or maybe upset it stopped.
On Sun, Aug 24, 2014 at 11:03 PM, Lauren Christensen <prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote:
"No, we're not going until you get out whatever the hell is keeping you wired shut." She clammed up almost afraid of him and he wasn't attacking her.
On Aug 25, 2014 1:38 AM, "Lucky L." <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote:
She looked stubbornly off to the side since she couldnt move in his embrace. If she did, she'd literally be bumping crotches with him cause of the way he was standing between her legs. "Fine, it happened. Now can we go?" she looked incredibly nervous all over again. She didn't want to look at the reasons why she did it and she hated herself for doing it.. even if it had felt wonderful for a little while.
On Sun, Aug 24, 2014 at 10:36 PM, Lauren Christensen <prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote:
"No. We're gonna talk about this because you're doing what you do best and trying to forget it ever happened. It did happen so you're not gonna ignore it." While she panicked he could take the reigns.
On Aug 25, 2014 1:16 AM, "Lucky L." <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote:
She ran the edge of her hand under her eye so the tears wouldn't spill on her cheeks and looked at him, still upset. "Don't joke.." she said softly. She couldn't handle it right now. She felt like she single handedly ruined everything, "Let's just go." then they could forget this happened.
On Sun, Aug 24, 2014 at 10:07 PM, Lauren Christensen <prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote:
Despite their rather comprimised position, Greed held her like he had at the wedding. He hadn't realized she was this pent up with the feeling department still. "I would have thought a good, healthy makeout would have loosened up all this weepy stuff you got goin' on in there."
On Aug 25, 2014 12:06 AM, "Lucky L." <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote:
She looked at him in disbelief, "No, you didn't. I kissed you." she was now looking at him and she felt worse, "I.." she didn't know what to say and just shook her head and put a hand to her head.
On Sun, Aug 24, 2014 at 9:02 PM, Lauren Christensen <prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote:
"I put myself in this position. I led myself on." He wasn't blaming her because he knew what he was doing. He knew what he'd asked for when she kissed him.
On Aug 24, 2014 9:54 PM, "Lucky L." <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote:
"Because!" she said and threw up her hands, her eyes opening to show they were wet, "Because I didn't mean to and we're not together and it doesn't change anything and all it does is tease you and that's not fair to you and I don't mean to be unfair to you because then you DO have a right to be angry." she took in breaths between the long rush of words as her eyes filled with more tears but she wouldn't look at him.
On Sun, Aug 24, 2014 at 6:51 PM, Lauren Christensen <prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote:
"I'm not going forget this. Why would you want to?" Had it been that bad? Was he starting to lose his edge since he'd rose from the dead?
On Aug 24, 2014 8:05 PM, "Lucky L." <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote:
She closed her eyes when he held her face, she was really scared, "Greed, I'm sorry, I'm sorry, can we please forget this...." she begged him softly, close to breaking down. And completely beating herself up about what happened. "I didn't mean to--" uggggh now he had every right to get angry at her for teasing him and turning him on and confusing him and leading him on.
On Sun, Aug 24, 2014 at 4:58 PM, Lauren Christensen <prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote:
He held her face in his hands, not quite the horny jerk he'd been with her before. It was the right interruption. He wasn't angry, not at her. Though now he was definitely more horny than he had been.
On Aug 24, 2014 7:43 PM, "Lucky L." <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote:
Zoe flinched a little when he kissed her cheek, she was so scared and so mortified. "I'm sorry..." she whispered, just staring at a spot on the floor, she just wanted to run.
On Sun, Aug 24, 2014 at 4:35 PM, Lauren Christensen <prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote:
"Later Digger..." Greed was more firm. He hung up not long after still leaving Zoe in his wall of arm. With a heavy sigh (not angry one) he kissed her cheek. Despite the hot and heavy makeout session his kiss wasn't begging her for more, he just wasn't ready for her to leave.
On Aug 24, 2014 6:51 PM, "Lucky L." <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote:
His arm was like a treetrunk blocking her in and made her nervous and she tried to lean back and to the side, still trying to find a way out that didn't involve kicking him and running. Digger's voice filtered in through the phone, "Are you with Zoe? Oh man, Ohhhhhhhhhhhhhh!" he cackled, "It finally happen?" he sounded thrilled for his friend but Zoe was red as she could hear him cause she was so close.
On Sun, Aug 24, 2014 at 3:46 PM, Lauren Christensen <prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote:
Greed put his hands down on the desk beside her so that she was barricaded in by his arm. He wasn't going to let her escape this one. "Digger man you can tell me all about it later, I'm a bit...busy..." He emphasized the word so Digger might get the clue that he was making out with Zoe and this was horrible timing.
On Aug 24, 2014 5:36 PM, "Lucky L." <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote:
Digger's voice kept rambling, "She was freaking OUT about her bouquet, they had to toss one of the bridesmaids flowers for the whole tossing thing-- where'd you run off to?" he asked. The mood was definitely broken and Zoe's face felt hot and flushed. What the hell was she doing?? Her legs dropped from around him but he was still between them and she gently shoved at him to get him to move so she could try to escape while he was on the phone.
On Sun, Aug 24, 2014 at 2:32 PM, Lauren Christensen <prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote:
"Fuck.." he muttered under his breath. This was piss poor timing. He looked down at the number when he pulled out the offensive machine. Clearly Digger did not understand privacy. He'd just seen them leave in a hurry, what was the asshole thinking?
"Yo man, Shelly was pissed about the cake! That was like the best thing ever. You are a crazy sonvabitch." Greed's brow flattened. "Is that what you called me for? To tell me how awesome I am?"
On Aug 24, 2014 3:42 PM, "Lucky L." <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote:
She looked in his eyes and it was like the real world was seeping back into hers. Panic, fear, heartbreak, the more his phone buzzed, it was just reminding her this wasn't real. She put a hand on his cheek and closed her eyes when he kissed her again, hesitant at first but she slowly kissed him back, the tension easing until his phone moved from a buzz to just flat out ringing and doing it obnoxiously since it was his phone. She stiffened immediately and broke the kiss, unwilling to look at him, trying to catch her breath.
On Sun, Aug 24, 2014 at 12:23 PM, Lauren Christensen <prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote:
She tasted like an island coconut, he was enjoying the flavor when he felt her go rigid. He literally had her melting, what happened? He pulled back enough to look into her eyes, that face of hers pink. The vibration from his phone buzzed again inside his pocket. He was willing to ignore it, going straight back to her lips for a tender kiss.
On Aug 24, 2014 3:18 PM, "Lucky L." <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote:
Zoe shifted her position, her back scraping up against the cubicle wall, knocking something off on Digger's side of it and causing a tear in the poster that was on Greed's side. With her other shoe off, she put her other leg loosely at his waist, her foot pressed against his butt. Her breathing becoming shallow as he sucked on her neck but the absolute silence (except for the noises they were making) was broken by a buzzing noise. Her body started to tense as the buzz was pulling her back to reality... what were they doing?
On Sun, Aug 24, 2014 at 12:13 PM, Lauren Christensen <prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote:
Oh this was definitely playing into his fantasies. He knew it wouldn't end quite as delicious, but he sure could let it linger as far as he could.
When one shoe fell he feathered his hand down her leg to drop the other shoe. He could practically feel her skin tingle under his fingertips. But, he let her breathe a little longer, making a nice little mark on her neck.
On Aug 24, 2014 12:55 PM, "Lucky L." <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote:
That gold polka dotted dress started to slide down her thighs as his hands followed their trail. He was warm but she didn't know if it was warm from normal warmth (she was pretty warm herself) or if he was heating up... but her brain was literally scrambled. She couldn't think beyond him, beyond wanting to kiss him and be with him. She took in a breath when he let her breathe and one leg wrapped around his waist, her heel falling off in the process.
On Sun, Aug 24, 2014 at 9:47 AM, Lauren Christensen <prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote:
It was always so easy to get lost with her. It was that high he'd explained to Digger. There was something so exciting in even the littlest things he couldn't get anywhere else. It just revved everything up to maximum speed and he stayed there. With other girls it wasn't nearly as intense, and Greed was nothing but intensity. His hands released her hips and gripped the bend of her knees. It wasn't long before they skirted down her thigh, inching closer and closer to that squishy, curvy ass of hers.
He broke that kiss to nuzzle her ear with his nose. If he kept kissing her like that he was going to lose it, and she knew it. So he sucked on her neck instead.
On Aug 24, 2014 10:06 AM, "Lucky L." <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote:
He'd gotten to kiss her a little and hold her since the break up but being in his favorite place, between her legs, that had been over three months since he'd been there. She leaned back on the desk till her back hit the cubicle wall, making a small noise when he bit her lip. Her legs bent at the knees and squeezed his hips as she touched his neck with one hand and gripped his shirt with the other to kiss him back. They were so limited with sexual things but at least part of his office fantasy was coming true.
On Sun, Aug 24, 2014 at 3:38 AM, Lauren Christensen <prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote:
That kiss broke only momentarily so they both could take in a breath, but he didn't let her lips go completely as he slid some of the shit on the desk away and pushed her back. His teeth raked down her bottom lip, catching the very end as he slid her back and nestled himself between her legs. Then he jumped right back into that kiss to continue where they both left off, just this time with new leverage.
On Sun, Aug 24, 2014 at 12:55 AM, Lucky L. <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote:
She was surprised when he stood up and she was gonna slide to the floor cause her knees were weak but his hands were all over her. He felt solid and warm and so right. She didn't want to think about their problems and their issues, right now she just wanted tobe with him. Was that so wrong? When her butt hit the desk, she just sat down right on top of it since there was nowhere else to go and twined her arms back around his neck to keep his mouth to hers.
On Sat, Aug 23, 2014 at 9:50 PM, Lauren Christensen <prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote:
It was getting a little steamy in there with the dim lighting. If they'd been in the car they would have fogged up the windows already! When the chair squeezed out a higher pitched groan Greed stood up and suddenly she could face him and feel him plastered up against her. His hands were a bit needy, racing down her back and getting just a little grope or two in before her butt hit the desk. This was an office fantasy heading down the right direction.
On Aug 24, 2014 12:43 AM, "Lucky L." <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote:
Even though they couldn't use tongues, close mouthed kisses with Greed were a million times sexier than frenching Chance. Feeling his short hair was weird and a thrill, it was new.. but him.. and exciting. It wasn't just the fact she was horny (she really was) but it felt like how it was months ago, back when they had Jonah around and they had to have each other. The chair squeaked and groan, not really meant to hold two people, especially two squirmy people who were trying to get closer.
On Sat, Aug 23, 2014 at 9:36 PM, Lauren Christensen <prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote:
Everything was bouncing around inside again, almost like he was on a trampoline that once in the air he didn't come back down. He just climbed higher, and higher and higher! Her hands in his hair always just allowed her something to grip, but now with the buzz cut on the sides and around the back it just felt like she was giving him a head massage. There was little for her to hold onto, but it felt so fantastic.
Greed moved in his seat, a tad fidgety as he wanted to be a little closer. She was in polka dots and he still wanted her.
On Sun, Aug 24, 2014 at 12:31 AM, Lucky L. <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote:
She turned in his arms to better kiss him, her hand going from his cheek to around the back of his neck, her fingers trailing up the hair at the nape. She'd missed touching him and kissing him and his arms around her felt crushing and amazing. When Chance held her it was like being held by a limp fish, but Greed had this fierceness that just made her feel more than wanted, it made her feel loved.
On Sat, Aug 23, 2014 at 9:28 PM, Lauren Christensen <prettykozi@gmail.com>wrote:
This kiss was almost necessary to breath right now. It was filling his lungs back up when he thought he'd been losing air. It wasn't sweet, it was a little horny, but it was very, very tasty. His arms broke from the chair and braced her. That dizzy spell running around inside now wasn't from the alcohol. She was throwing him into a tailspin.
On Sun, Aug 24, 2014 at 12:23 AM, Lucky L. <neverluckymore@gmail.com>wrote:
She put a hand on his scruffy cheek and inhaled through her nose because she didn't want to break their kiss. She had imagined it'd be soft or sweet but it was just pure emotion, emotion that had been bubbling up and was now spilling over. That and he just had been throwing her hormones out of whack once he backed off and let her breathe. Tank tops and naked walking around the apartment and the scruff and the new fauxhawk and yeah, she was just human, she had needs. But she was also crazy in love with him, she had never denied that part.
On Sat, Aug 23, 2014 at 9:18 PM, Lauren Christensen <prettykozi@gmail.com>wrote:
His internal organs all made a clamor for his throat and then back down again at the same time. The only part left making an obscenely loud noise was his heart, beating a mile a minute. It wasn't out of nervousness but just plain excitement. Now that she was in his lap he wasn't letting her escape. He kissed back fervently. He'd only imagined it a million times in his head today. That wasn't even a forth of the times he'd thought about it in the last month.
On Sun, Aug 24, 2014 at 12:15 AM, Lucky L. <neverluckymore@gmail.com>wrote:
She kept leaning forward sloooooooowly especially when he looked deep in her eyes, "I bet you'd look--whoa!" she had leaned forward so much, she literally tumbled into his lap, her hair falling in her face as her arm was around his neck and she just kinda stared at him for a second with her lips parted and then without a word, she just ninja kissed him. Not even slowly to give him time to pull away. She'd wanted to kiss him for awhile now and she just couldn't resist anymore.
On Sat, Aug 23, 2014 at 9:04 PM, Lauren Christensen<prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote:
He wasn't pouncing like a starved tiger, but he was thinking it. Every time he'd made a move she had shied away or gotten angry at him. He wasn't willing to be lead on unless she really wanted it. That coconut smell filtrated his nose, he could just breath that in as air and survive off of it for hours. He found the more he stayed back the closer she came to him, so he stayed put.
Greed batted that earring again, letting the metal breeze by her skin. When he looked back from the swaying bird he met her eyes, locking them into place with his. "They look so good I think I want a pair..." his lips turned up into a quirky smile. Maybe he was still a little buzzed.
On Sat, Aug 23, 2014 at 11:57 PM, Lucky L.<neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote:
She was actually really impressed that he wasn't pouting or trying to put a move on her. The cool metal grazed the skin of her neck and thing was she was actually really trying to resist him too. He'd been less of a jerk lately and he'd been very good to her tonight and while she tried to play off his new look, it was actually really really hot. "Just... nice...?" she asked and looked in his eyes, staying in the same position. It had been hard for her to look in his eyes when he first came back, then she could but not for long... right now it was the first time when she looked for more than a few seconds in them. She was still deeply afraid of what she'd see, but she was searching for the love that used to be there, a sign of the Greed that she used to be crazy about, the one that didn't demand things from her, the one that worked with her, the one that she was enough for.
On Sat, Aug 23, 2014 at 8:52 PM, Lauren Christensen<prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote:
His insides instantly flipped upside down and ran into each other. Basically a wrestling match going on with his internal organs as she zoomed in close enough that he could smell her body wash and shampoo all at once. He could lick the air and it taste of cocoanuts. Reaching out like a cat he smacked the little metal bird softly so that it teetered from side to side, bouncing off her neck in a seesaw motion. They made a perfect contrast against her short hair, just as he'd hoped. The earrings were definitely getting more action than he would. Damn those perfect things!
"They look nice..."
On Sat, Aug 23, 2014 at 11:47 PM, Lucky L.<neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote:
He really put a lot of thought into the gift and she found it too sweet, too amazing. She listened to him and moved closer to him. "You think....?" she gave him a skeptical look. Her butt stayed pressed against the edge of the desk and she leaned down a bit to where he was in the chair so she was closer to him. Maybe he needed to see them up close to make an informed decision.
On Sat, Aug 23, 2014 at 8:42 PM, Lauren Christensen<prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote:
"You don't usually do the dangly stuff with your ears and all, but with the new bob I thought they might make a nice silhouette on your neck." He waved his fingers around as he explained why they fell so much lower than most of her jewelry. He washed his fingers through the air, touching what he saw without making a move on her. "They look nice....I think...." she hadn't said she liked them yet.
On Sat, Aug 23, 2014 at 11:38 PM, Lucky L.<neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote:
"Yeah...." she said softy and smiled a little, her eyes glassy with emotion. She picked one out of the box and slid it through her pierced ear and then affixed the other one on the other ear. She looked at him intensely and asked in the same hushed voice, "How do I look....?"
On Sat, Aug 23, 2014 at 8:35 PM, Lauren Christensen<prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote:
"Well, I couldn't make just one. They're supposed to be a pair right?" He meant the turtledoves, but it sounded like he meant the earrings as a set. Since the beginning that had been them this single pair of turtledoves that finally had another. He'd marred his skin once to show her that, this hardly felt like the statement he'd been hoping for. He couldn't tell by her response if she even liked them. He wasn't even sure what that would do to him if she rejected them---she was rejecting them.
On Sat, Aug 23, 2014 at 11:25 PM, Lucky L.<neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote:
She leaned against the front of the desk as he took his sweet ass time and purposely taunted her. Her hands were behind her, gripping the edge of the desk as she stared at him and then the box he played with. She kinda eyed him and then picked the box up, noting the noise it made. She was almost scared to open it and she held the box in her hand and took a breath and looked at him. She just stared at him as if she was gonna ask him something but... didn't. She turned her attention back to the box and opened it. Her mouth formed a round stunned 'o' as she saw the metal earrings. She delicately picked up one of the birds, very moved that he would make something that was so special to her. To them. She looked at him with a lot of emotion on her face, "Why...?" but she wouldn't elaborate on what exactly she was asking. It was why everything, he could pick and choose what answers he gave.
On Sat, Aug 23, 2014 at 8:19 PM, Lauren Christensen<prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote:
The chair made a squeaky noise as he flopped into it and spun in a few circles before opening up the desk drawer. Inside was yellow paper box. It was bare on the clean desktop. He twirled it around in circles a few times, looking up at her from his tilted head. He'd never made anything like that before, and he'd learned pretty quickly now that gifts were not going to win her over. He wanted this one to be special.
Slowly he pushed the box over to her, the metal earrings inside shuffling around inside. Once he lifted his hand off the top she had free reign to open it up.
On Sat, Aug 23, 2014 at 11:12 PM, Lucky L.<neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote:
She didn't move back when he leaned in, she kinda thought he might kiss her and it made her heart race but no, he just wiped her nose of frosting. She smiled embarrassed and touched her nose and then followed him into the building. She kinda felt like she drank too much champagne too except... she hadn't had even a glass. The office was kinda spooky when it was just them and the big glass windows were pitch black because it was night out, even the office lights seemed kinda dim.
On Sat, Aug 23, 2014 at 8:09 PM, Lauren Christensen <prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote:
He leaned in, still honed in on that speck of frosting which he swiped off with his thumb. A thumb he licked clean before heading towards the main entrance. He was still kind of floating as he walked, the pain of binge drinking the equivalent of two bottles of champagne starting to take its harsh effects. He could have had more but he'd been sucked into cake.
Cake...
It was about the sweetest, tastiest thing he was going to get right now, so he tried to imagine when he licked his lips that he could still taste the cordial cherry and chocolate.
Their floor looked empty even when he flicked on the lights. They were completely alone with just the silence as company.
On Sat, Aug 23, 2014 at 10:53 PM, Lucky L.<neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote:
She didn't even realize she had frosting on her nose and tilted her head, it sparkling in the moonlight. She shoved his chest lightly, "Yes, and by it, I mean whatever you've been working on. I wanna see." the parking lot was quiet. The building still had lights and security guards because it was a big building but right now the hustle and bustle was gone.
On Sat, Aug 23, 2014 at 7:51 PM, Lauren Christensen <prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote:
Greed was confused as to what file was so important that she absolutely needed it tonight. Then the real reason came out and he just stared at her. "My thing? The thing I've been working on?" He pointed at himself, his eyes zoned onto that cake frosting on her nose. He wanted to lick it off....
"Do you really want it?" He sounded like such a perv when he asked.
On Sat, Aug 23, 2014 at 9:36 PM, Lucky L.<neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote:
She mumbled, "A file..." once he got out of the car tho she winced, "I lied, or well I can't lie.. I just.. I wanna see what you and Digger were talking about. Will you show me?" she was curious what he was keeping from her. She still had frosting on her nose and a rosebud behind her ear, could he really say no?
On Sat, Aug 23, 2014 at 6:01 PM, Lauren Christensen <prettykozi@gmail.com>wrote:
Greed slid forward a few times when she had a lead foot in the breaks. "What do you need in the office?" He look confused. He'd thought they were getting a cab?
On Aug 23, 2014 8:26 PM, "Lucky L." <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote:
Zoe was nervous and jammed on teh brakes a few times but the office was six blocks away and she got them there in one piece. She parked in a space and blew out a breath, looking at him with the rose behind her ear askew, "We're alive." he still seemed out of it, "Um... you mind if we stop inside the office for a minute? I wanna check something."
On Sat, Aug 23, 2014 at 5:15 PM, Lauren Christensen<prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote:
Greed just shrugged momentarily interested in the bouquet abs pulling our one if the roses to put behind her ear. It was more like a rose bud than a full rose, but it matched the pink in her cheeks.
On Aug 23, 2014 7:54 PM, "Lucky L." <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote:
She swatted his hand away and put on her seatbelt and tried to remember how to do this, "Okay... breake.. reverse.." she mummbled, she got this... "The office is closer than home.. can we park there and take a cab the rest of the way?"
On Sat, Aug 23, 2014 at 4:47 PM, Lauren Christensen<prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote:
"I'm not drunk!" Bet maybe more than hed thought. "Maybe it was more like eleven glasses?" He took her wipes to clear his face of cake once he was strapped in his seat. He took out another wipe to slap on her cheek, giggling the entire time.
On Aug 23, 2014 4:55 PM, "Lucky L." <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote:
"Ha and ha. You're drunk, you'd like roadkill right now." she unlocked his car and leaned in to rummage for wipes so he was talking to her polka dotted butt. She knew if they got cake and frosting on his precious baby he'd freak out when he was sober.
On Sat, Aug 23, 2014 at 1:52 PM, Lauren Christensen<prettykozi@gmail.com>wrote:
"You still look hot," he wiped his cheek to lick off the icing. She basically had a sticky fingered child to handle until he sobered up. "I like your hair," he said in a silly voice and grin.
She slowly took her hands out of his pockets, having the keys. She looked at the ground and didn't know what to say. Maybe she was associating him with his zombie self. But he had also been a jerk and that was all him. She looked at him as he mentioned her haircut and scoffed as she tugged at her short hair, "Yeah but you got one that you wanted and that looks good." she was still very self conscious of her bob. He'd given her compliments on it but she still felt he preferred the long hair. "I'm driving." she said firmly with some nerves, he was in no condition to drive.
On Sat, Aug 23, 2014 at 12:12 PM, Lauren Christensen <prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote:
"For one, she butchered my hair." He held up his finger to emphasize. "Two, I just...wanted you to see me again. Anyway you got a new haircut..." she had changed it it was a good change, why couldn't he?
On Aug 23, 2014 12:08 PM, "Lucky L." <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote:
She was surprised by his answer and her hands didn't move even tho one was wrapped around his keys, "But you love your hair... you had a fit when that chick cut off an extra inch.." she couldn't believe that he'd do something like this for her.
On Sat, Aug 23, 2014 at 8:34 AM, Lauren Christensen <prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote:
He kept laughing like a giddy child, but then she went all questions and he stopped wiggling to try and answer. This was serious. He put on the serious (but tipsy drunk) face "When you look at me you see Chance not me anymore." He looked down to see she hadn't moved her hands yet. "Sooooo I wanted a change..." it meant he was capable of it.
On Sat, Aug 23, 2014 at 11:16 AM, Lucky L. <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote:
She tried to stil his hips by grabbing on to them through his pockets, "Hang on you perv..." the jange of the keys indicated she got them but she kept her hands in his pants and said, "In a minute.. Digger and I were wondering... how come you changed your hair?"
On Sat, Aug 23, 2014 at 7:58 AM, Lauren Christensen <prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote:
"Ooooh," Greed snorted while she searched his pockets finally retrieving keys. She'd have to still him from wiggling around while she did because he couldn't stop giggling.
"Give 'em to me," but he was a little too tipsy to be driving if he couldn't even successfully steal an armful of cake, toppers and flowers. He was still ringing inside his head.
On Fri, Aug 22, 2014 at 11:28 PM, Lucky L. <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote:
She watched him shake his leg around holding a bouquet and a stolen wedding cake topper with his hands covered in cake and frosting on his face and she felt her heart ache. She was so insanely in love with him she wanted to cry. But she just got him to stop shaking and said, "Hold still." and then while facing him, she stuck her hands in his pockets and wiggled them around to find his keys.
On Fri, Aug 22, 2014 at 8:18 PM, Lauren Christensen <prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote:
"I'm not drunk," he pointed his finger to assure her he could still drive, but with the cake topper and bouquet in his hands he couldn't fish his keys out of his pocket. He looked down as if shaking his leg was going to actually make the keys fly into the ignition.
On Aug 22, 2014 10:12 PM, "Lucky L." <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote:
"You are drunk." she stated and took his finger only to make him poke himself in the cheek with the frosting. "Can you drive...? I mean.. I guess I could drive but I think that'd be about as good as you driving." she was also trying to brush off the fact he was talking about marriage and asking for kisses.
On Fri, Aug 22, 2014 at 7:10 PM, Lauren Christensen <prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote:
He offered her his still frosting covered finger. Why couldn't she lick that one off? There was more frosting on his hand.
On Aug 22, 2014 9:53 PM, "Lucky L." <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote:
She made a face as he smeared cake on her and she gave him a look when he told her to kiss him. She scoffed a short residue laugh and wondered if he was serious... of course he was. "Mmmm no, sorry, you're gonna have to wait for your groom to come along and do that." but she did slide her finger down his nose to wipe off some frosting and stuck her finger in her mouth.
On Fri, Aug 22, 2014 at 6:50 PM, Lauren Christensen <prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote:
The cake hadn't been lost completely as he took his own hand to smear across her nose and lips. "So kiss me...if I'm the bride seal the deal. No bride wants to feel neglected." But then he was slathered in cherry, cake and frosting.
On Aug 22, 2014 9:32 PM, "Lucky L." <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote:
Zoe gasped when Greed swiped the bouquet, "Are you--" she hissed but then he grabbed her hand but his hadthe cake in it so it was squished in her hand now. She let out a short giggle as he dragged her with him to run like hell, the topper of the cake sticking out ofher little bag. When they got to the parking lot, she was still chuckling and she let go of his hand to hold up her frosting cherry and cake covered fingers so he could see, "You're gonna make a beautiful bride." she said to him and smeared the cake on his stubbled cheek. He didn't catch the bouquet technically but he did take it.
On Fri, Aug 22, 2014 at 6:26 PM, Lauren Christensen <prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote:
The bride and groom headed out and everyone's attention went to them. She walked past Greed but his back was to her as she sat her bouquet on the table to hug the line of people that wanted to greet the newlyweds. He eyed that pretty bouquet and somehow managed to swipe it and stash it under his arm. By the time the bride turned around Zoe and Greed had bolted out of sight.
Digger the whole time laughed hysterically. Greed was the best wedding crasher he'd ever seen.
On Aug 22, 2014 8:56 PM, "Lucky L." <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote:
"Fine, you can have a bite.... but I get the rest." she looked him over and smiled as he was a mess, "On secon thought, maybe you SHOULD eat it before you fall over from no food and all champagne.."
On Fri, Aug 22, 2014 at 5:54 PM, Lauren Christensen <prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote:
"I want a taste of cake!" He hadn't had a deal with her in some time, he'd forgotten what it felt like. It had his already tipsy brain running on cranked up energy and alcohol.
On Aug 22, 2014 8:46 PM, "Lucky L." <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote:
She shook her head, "No way, I don't want to die by bride." she licked some frosting off her finger, "I'll hide it if you give me the rest of your cake." it was a silly deal, she hadn't offered him one of those in a long time.
On Fri, Aug 22, 2014 at 5:45 PM, Lauren Christensen <prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote:
"Hey!!!!" He pouted as she dug in and didn't give him a taste. "She's not gonna know. Here, put it in your purse." He nudged it at her.
Digger just thought Greed was pulling a prank, this was hilarious!
On Aug 22, 2014 8:38 PM, "Lucky L." <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote:
Zoe's mouth dropped open when she saw the cake topper, "The bride is gonna Killllllll you." then she really quickly reached out and broke off a piece of the cake in the napkin and took a bite of it, "Mmm it is cherry.."
On Fri, Aug 22, 2014 at 5:37 PM, Lauren Christensen <prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote:
"Zoe, sasuage balls!" He pointed with his head. Digger actually sat back watching the whole thing, it was hilarious. The bride was going to kill him.
When Zoe refused to be pulled away by sausage balls he sighed and put forth his hands.
On Aug 22, 2014 8:07 PM, "Lucky L." <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote:
She put her hands on her hips, "Show me your hands, Avaritia..." and she narrowed her eyes. She was not gonna get distracted by him when he was acting so suspicious.
On Fri, Aug 22, 2014 at 5:06 PM, Lauren Christensen <prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote:
He hid the napkin covered slice behind his back. "Can you get me some sausage balls?" He was diverting her from the fact that his hands were full, not only of the cake slice but the cake topper as well.
On Aug 22, 2014 7:07 PM, "Lucky L." <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote:
"Well we'll find out..." she pulled on his hand to lead him away from the cake and when she saw the little boy, she knew Greed was trying to shift the blame on him. She looked at Greed and eyed him, "Did you take a slice...."
On Fri, Aug 22, 2014 at 3:50 PM, Lauren Christensen <prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote:
He whimpered like Samson before they left earlier. "What if its cherry?" He couldn't wait an hour. He snuck a piece on the napkin and wrapped it up, handsome off the cake knife to the little boy watching. But thst wasn't enough, greed had to smear cake on the kid's face so his mother thought he'd been the cake stealing culprit.
On Aug 22, 2014 6:33 PM, "Lucky L." <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote:
She tugged on his hand, "You'll get a big slice in like an hour when they cut it..." ten, good lord. She was amused and trying not to be, Greed was hard to handle when hewas tipsy."Come on, let's get you some food to soak up all the bubbles."
On Fri, Aug 22, 2014 at 3:31 PM, Lauren Christensen <prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote:
"There's chocolate inside with some kind of jam inside, I want it." He stopped short to count on his fingers and then shrugged. "Maybe ten." He was just a little more accelerated than usual.
On Aug 22, 2014 6:28 PM, "Lucky L." <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote:
She made a face, "You have frosting on your hand. Come on.. why don't we go sit down? Or maybe get some food in you..." she smiled a little because he seemed kinda buzzed, "How many champagne glasses did you have? An entire trayful?"
On Fri, Aug 22, 2014 at 3:25 PM, Lauren Christensen <prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote:
He was a little tipsy after having had anywhere from eight to ten glasses of champagne. Hed lost count after four, but he was still fully functional. "No one who's going home alone---I mean with someone," which was zero when it came to Greed. He was a magnet. Girls with partners wanted him.
On Aug 22, 2014 5:54 PM, "Lucky L." <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote:
"I--" her eyes went wide as big hand covered her mouth. She pried it off her face, her hand now loosely holding his basically as she gave him a look, "Someone is always paying attention to you." he was a gorgeous guy, he got stared at.
On Fri, Aug 22, 2014 at 2:52 PM, Lauren Christensen <prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote:
He dipped his finger in the icing circling the bottom the plate. "I'm getting some cake!" He put his free hand over her mouth to keep her quiet. "Everyone is out there no one's paying attention to me." He made another huge cut, more like a box than an actual triangular slice.
On Aug 22, 2014 5:39 PM, "Lucky L." <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote:
Zoe didn't hear Digger's second statement because when she saw Greed circle to the back of the cake, she'd already sprung to her feet and was quickly moving towards him trying not to bring attention to herself. When she joined him, she hissed, "What're you doing??"
On Fri, Aug 22, 2014 at 2:31 PM, Lauren Christensen <prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote:
"Why do I have to stop him? He's your whatever he is. I don't know what to say?" Digger was trying to force Zoe to do more things with Greed. The more she talked to the damn boy, maybe they could keep having these moments and stop moping like teenagers. "I swear you two remind me of two teenagers that don't know what to do." Greed had circled to the back of the cake, making a nice clean slice on the bottom tier.
On Aug 22, 2014 4:08 PM, "Lucky L." <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote:
"Digger, sometimes you sound more into him than the girls in the office." the guy really dug being friends with Greed it seemed. She looked over and sure enough Greed had the cake knife, "Oh God.. Digger please go stop him otherwise the bride is going to plunge that cake knife in his juggular." and she shoved at his arm.
On Fri, Aug 22, 2014 at 1:04 PM, Lauren Christensen <prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote:
"Woah, woah, woah, he's a good looking guy but I dont swing that way." He held his hands up in defense. He looked back over to see Greed picking up the cake knife. "Shit is he gonna steal the cake?"
On Aug 22, 2014 3:52 PM, "Lucky L." <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote:
"He might be into it. I've never seen him take to a guy likehe has with you." Zoe looked over at Greed and made a face, "I don't know... but it can't be good. You might wanna go drag him over here..."
On Fri, Aug 22, 2014 at 12:51 PM, Lauren Christensen <prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote:
"I think he might think I'm coming onto him if I ask. He's gonna tell you not me." Digger buffed her to look as Greed started measuring with his hands cake sizes. "What the fuck is he doing?"
On Aug 22, 2014 3:37 PM, "Lucky L." <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote:
"He used to.." she murmured and took another sip. He hardly ever wore t-shirts and jeans or shorts, not even when they went to the beach unless she nagged him to. She looked over at Greed and his punky hair and trimmed beard, he looked different. He felt different. "I don't know.. maybe. He's pretty set in his ways and what he likes to look like so I'm curious myself." Digger looked at her, "Why don't you ask him?" she narrowed her eyes at him, "Why don't you?"
On Fri, Aug 22, 2014 at 12:35 PM, Lauren Christensen <prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote:
"Awww," Digger teased with a nudge of his elbow, "he dies like to look sharp. I feel like he probably never wears just jeans and a t-shirt." Though the clean cut look was a bit disheveled with the punk hair and stubble. "What caused the change in hair I wonder? He get bored?"
On Aug 22, 2014 3:09 PM, "Lucky L." <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote:
Zoe nodded with a slight roll of her eyes as she picked up the cup to take another sip, "He has more hair and bath products than I do. And he takes twice as long as I do to get ready when we go out. Used to go out." she sipped the punch again and decided to shut up.
On Fri, Aug 22, 2014 at 12:07 PM, Lauren Christensen <prettykozi@gmail.com>wrote:
"Oh God does he primp like a girl?" Digger laughed just imaginning that guy taking hours in the bathroom. Greed looked over at them laughing with a slight glare. What was so funny? He hadn't gotten her to laugh like that in forever.
On Aug 22, 2014 2:33 PM, "Lucky L." <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote:
Zoe didn't even get a chance to say thank you before Greed was off again. She picked up a cup of punch and took a sip as she watched him for a moment and then looked away. Greed might not know the glances Zoe kept stealing at him but Digger saw. Zoe listened and for some reason even tho Greed had said it before, it was different hearing it from Digger. It wasn't that Greed couldn't get another girlfriend.. he didn't want another one. Then she let out a short but loud laugh when Digger called him a girl. It was such a spontaneous sound from her, she hadn't laughed in MONTHS. She set the cup down, still smiling a bit, "He IS like a girl sometimes. Especially in the bathroom." her smile softened as she said, "I like him too. But don't tell him that."
On Fri, Aug 22, 2014 at 11:28 AM, Lauren Christensen<prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote:
Digger was about to respond when Greed sat down four cups of punch. He wasn't even sure how the guy juggled that much, Digger didn't know some of the tricks he'd learned from Gluttony on stealing food. Before anyone could say anything else Greed was off again for some more champagne, nibbling on food and circling the wedding cake like a predator.
"He's weird. Said you know all his demons. Seems he doesn't want anyone else to know what you know...besides how many girls would put up with a high maintenance guy? Its like he's a girl himself sometimes. He's just awkward...but I like him."
On Aug 22, 2014 2:23 PM, "Lucky L." <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote:
Zoe rolled her eyes and gave Digger a helpless look, "I wouldn't be the only girl who thought that if he would try to date girls that had more brains than boobs. He's just... impatient. He doesn't like to get to know someone. And.. he requires some delicate handling BUT you have to know when to be firm with him." she knew him really well, and Greed was like a tempermental car that you had to know how to crank just right to get it to purr.
On Fri, Aug 22, 2014 at 11:19 AM, Lauren Christensen<prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote:
So Greed took another few glasses of champagne. He gave Digger some time to dig before he came back around. Enough time for Greed to get a little buzz.
"He says you're like the only girl that doesn't think he's all beef and no brains. Guy has it pretty bad." They could see Greed from a distance eyeing the punch and getting a few cups, trying his best to not spill it all over his clothes. He'd have a fit if he had a punch stained shirt.
Digger gave Zoe a goofy smile and started talking about the nerdy chick he danced with and then after a few minutes he tried to talk to her about what happened with Greed. There were no more laughs at the table as Zoe sighed and tried to explain without giving too much away. Greed just wasn't the type of guy that could commit but Digger argued with her, all Greed could talk about was wanting to be with her. Just her. Okay maybe not marriage (Zoe interrupted and said marriage was way way in the future if at all) but Digger had never seen a guy want to be more with one woman than Greed with Zoe.
On Fri, Aug 22, 2014 at 9:39 AM, Lauren Christensen<prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote:
Greed shrugged in reply because he wasn't going to be the one to find out what had happened just yet. "I think she's a little light headed. I'll get some punch." It was time for Digger to do what he did best, dig up information. Here's took the opportunity to get himself a glass of champagne, and then about three more.
On Aug 22, 2014 12:34 PM, "Lucky L." <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote:
She was more... confused than anything else. Greed being sweet and sensitive for a moment didn't make up for everything that had happened. Being in his arms had felt good. He had felt... familiar. Like he used to. When he loved her and cared about her feelings no matter how ridiculous they might be. She sat down to the table he took her to and Digger showed up, he'd been excited at the progess the two had been making but this... "Everything alright?" he asked casually but he quirked a brow at Greed as if to silently ask his friend what happened.
On Fri, Aug 22, 2014 at 9:27 AM, Lauren Christensen<prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote:
She was put off he could feel that. He would be lying if he didn't admit it stung. "There's a table right over there." It was in his line of vision so she wouldn't be obscured by the crowd. He wanted to take her somewhere more private, but he had a feeling that might spook her even more. He looked over to Digger with a jerk of his head for him to come over. Maybe if he sat with her she would mellow out? He had learned the value of when to give her space when it was necessary, and when she was avoiding things. He needed to give her a breather.
On Aug 22, 2014 12:14 PM, "Lucky L." <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote:
She looked a little panicked when he leaned in to kiss her but it wasn't one of those kisses that demanded anything of her. In fact, it was a kiss he hadn't done in a long time. A giving kiss, one that was for her instead of payment to take something from her. She didn't return it and leaned back a little to break the kiss, "I.. should sit down." she mumbled. That was the other thing, it wasn't 'we' should sit down, we should eat, we should. It was now always 'I should' and he could do what he wanted. She didn't say anything about the kiss, she didn't scold him but she didn't seem to want to talk about it either.
On Fri, Aug 22, 2014 at 9:09 AM, Lauren Christensen<prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote:
He wiped her cheeks with his thumbs, leaning in to give her the softest of kisses. It wasn't an urgent kiss, it wasn't even a kiss that required she return it. It was just a simple kiss to give her a little strength.
He couldn't see Digger, but the guy was rooting Greed on in the distance. This was mad progress.
On Aug 22, 2014 11:57 AM, "Lucky L." <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote:
She shook her head, "No, I had pieces of it on loan." he hadn't been forever, he'd been you can have me till I decide to leave for something better. She did want this day but more than that, she wanted what it symbolized. "Ugh Avaritia, I'm leaking all over you and ruining your outfit." she lifted her head up and snifflled again. She knew he hated it when she cried and she was becoming self conscious of what a mess she was.
On Fri, Aug 22, 2014 at 8:35 AM, Lauren Christensen<prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote:
This was why he'd pushed Chance on her so hard. He could be that bright shining light that could give her a home, kids, marriage, all the human bullshit that he couldn't. The problem was Chance without him just wouldn't suffice. It was a carbon copy with no insides. It was just having a reproduction and not the real deal. He got that now. She couldn't go for second best because he couldn't be second best.
"Maybe not conventionally...but you have pieces of it." He couldn't give her kids but he could be as much of one as any. He couldn't be her home but he was working to make one with her somehow. She didnt have a father but she had a grandfather that could be drawn and quartered to come back. She wouldn't be married, but he might be willing to their something for her so she felt like a princess for a day.
Zoe took some solace in his strength as she watched the bride in her beautiful white dress dance with her father while the groom looked on beaming with pride and happiness. "Yeah.. what I can't have." she whispered. She didn't forget who he was. He was her ex. They had too many problems that couldn't be solved. And if by some miracle they did, she still couldn't have him. Never like this. No white dress. No groom. No Daddy dancing and giving you away. No big room of flowers with people saying how happy they were for you. No starting a life and home together. Zoe had chosen Greed over it and lost all of it.
On Fri, Aug 22, 2014 at 8:03 AM, Lauren Christensen <prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote:
"Nothing you want badly is stupid. Did you forget who you were talking to?" He held her a little tighter the more she let her tears escape. He wasn't holding her to get something out of it, only that she could rely on him. To know that he was capable of change.
On Aug 22, 2014 10:42 AM, "Lucky L." <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote:
She sniffled and wished she wasn't crying, "It's stupid..." she whispered back, putting her head on his shoulder as they danced, her face in towards his chest. She leaned on him for more than just physical support, for the first time in months she was letting him in emotionally.
On Fri, Aug 22, 2014 at 6:57 AM, Lauren Christensen <prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote:
"Because its important to you. I more than anyone know the feeling of wanting something you can't have..." he kept his voice soft, he thought if he jumped above a whisper it might startle this moment.
On Aug 22, 2014 9:40 AM, "Lucky L." <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote:
"How...?" she whispered, her eyes closed still as he kissed her cheek. She wanted to deny his comfort but she needed it right now. But she felt ridiculous, none of this mattered. She didn't have him to have this day and even if she did have him, they didn't get this day. So how could he say it mattered?
On Fri, Aug 22, 2014 at 6:15 AM, Lauren Christensen <prettykozi@gmail.com>wrote:
"It matters..." he kissed her cheek, the world around them just background noise. It had been a long time since it felt like just them. He wasn't leaving now, he'd been reckless and learning lessons about keeping humans around...it wasn't about disposing of them when they became
difficult, like hed done with baby Ava. This was so much more than that....
On Aug 22, 2014 2:24 AM, "Lucky L." <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote:
She held onto him, embarrassed she was crying but appreciative he was trying to give her some protection and privacy as they danced. She squeaked out, "So?" okay so maybe she did care, "It doesn't make a difference." they weren't together so she won't have this day and even if they had been together, she still wouldn't get it. She felt ridiculous for crying for something she couldn't have.
On Thu, Aug 21, 2014 at 11:20 PM, Lauren Christensen<prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote:
He curled his arms around her, pressing her into him as he still kept this slow dance moving but waltzing further and further off to the side. There were enough people around them that no one would be paying attention to her crying. "But you do care." He whispered as he leaned his head down, chin on her shoulder. In heels she was practically his height, but it didn't mean she couldn't feel him closing in on her.
On Aug 22, 2014 2:13 AM, "Lucky L." <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote:
It was like a slap when he said it, she was so stunned he knew. "I'm not thinking that.." she immediately said even tho her voice cracked at the end. "I don't care about this stuff." she said as her arms curled around his neck, trying more to convince herself than him as she said, "Cause that'd be stupid because I don't have anyone anyway so I wouldn't need this day." she swallowed the lump in her throat, "And even if I ever had someone, they wouldn't want this day and it wouldn't matter because I couldn't invite anyone to this day to celebrate because no one would be happy about it." her face crumpled and she closed her eyes as tears rolled down her cheek and she sniffled, her voice shaky as she said, "You're so wrong." she was crying for other reasons, he didn't know her, she didn't care. At all.
On Thu, Aug 21, 2014 at 11:06 PM, Lauren Christensen <prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote:
"You're thinking that you won't get to have this day and it's killing you inside." He kept her close in body language that wasn't sexual though still inviting. He wanted her to feel it was okay to let go. She could even bury her face in his shoulder, he wouldn't let anyone see.
On Aug 22, 2014 1:48 AM, "Lucky L." <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote:
She was immediately on guard when he took her hand but she put her rose down and let him lead her out on the floor. She was going to protest but then decided to go with it, putting her hand on his shoulder as his went to her waist. She asked him quietly, "What am I thinking?" her tone clearly indicating she didn't think he had any idea what she was thinking and none of it was okay.
On Thu, Aug 21, 2014 at 10:45 PM, Lauren Christensen <prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote:
Now they were forced to be alone. Greed didn't ask her if she wanted to dance he just took her hand and led her there. Of course the music slowed down and started on a new song as if it knew they had just stepped under the lights. "You might protest but no one sits without at least one dance at a wedding." Maybe he did want an excuse to put his hands around her waist, but the real win was to get her to let go of all that stuff building up inside being here. "I know what your thinking" he whispered into her ear, "and its okay." She could let it out, she needed to.
On Aug 22, 2014 1:31 AM, "Lucky L." <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote:
Zoe just raised her brows in surprise and looked at Greed. He was working on something... for her? She was more surprised he hadn't shoved it in her face wanting kisses and praise for whatever it was. Digger took the fact Zoe was looking at Greed as a good sign and was trying to get the guy to ask her to dance when the nerdy girl stood up and was making googoo eyes at Greed, "Do you wanna dance?" she asked, practically fogging up her glasses. It was clear she was asking Greed but Digger stepped in and said, "I would love to!" and took her hand to yank her out on the floor, glaring at Greed and hissing in his ear, "You owe me!" as he took the bullet for him so he could be alone with Zoe.
On Thu, Aug 21, 2014 at 10:26 PM, Lauren Christensen <prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote:
All Greed could do was stomp on Digger's foot. Clearly it was the wrong time. "Not right now." Gifts would not get him anywhere, had that idiot forgotten? He looked at Zoe with a fake smile. He would talk to her about this when it was the right time.
"He's been working on it for weeks. It's in his desk drawer next time you pop by. I guess he hasn't brought it up yet because he thinks you won't accept it..." he nudged Greed forward as the music started up and other couples made towards the dance floor under the lattice of lights.
On Aug 22, 2014 1:10 AM, "Lucky L." <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote:
Zoe kept that fake smile going for Digger as he talked about the food, her hand limply holding the rose once Greed gave it to her. She didn't know Greed could tell she was in a blue mood, she assumed he was too focused on himself as usual to notice. But when Digger mentioned that he'd been working on something, Zoe looked at Greed questioningly.
On Thu, Aug 21, 2014 at 10:05 PM, Lauren Christensen <prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote:
She wanted to cry he could just sense. Part of him really wanted to just whisk her out away from all the people so she could and he'd be there to barricade her from them and hold her. But, she didn't want him holding her, she didn't want him really touching her because she saw that as him looking for a handout. He tried to tickle her nose with the rose before she took it from him. Nerd girl looked up to Greed about to ask him if he wanted a dance but Digger jumped in. "You guys try the mini quiches yet? Oh and the sausage balls are fabulous." He was trying to break the ice because seeing Greed and Zoe tip toe around this weird relationship was kind of a bummer most of the time. "Hey Chance did you give Zoe that thing you've been working on?" Call it a little bit of a cheap shot but someone had to help these kids along. It would give them something to talk about before the dancing started up.