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Chance Avaritia "Greed" ([info]better_than) wrote in [info]nevermore_logs,
@ 2012-12-03 11:44:00

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Current mood: depressed
Entry tags:greed, zoe hansen

Who: Greed and Zoe
What: Returning baby Ava so Satan doesn't make her crispy bacon.
When: Sunday afternoon, December 2 [Backdated]
Where: Church
Warnings: Cuteness?


The entire backseat of his yellow sports car was crammed with toys, clothes and other goodies that he had bought Ava. The gold bracelet he had originally picked her for was not within the mound of stuff. If he wasn't able to keep baby Ava then he was not giving up his prize. It was a shame her parents hadn't put up reward money for finding her or the kid would have been taken to the police station. Instead Greed was going to dump her right back on the church steps with her bag of goodies. Already the kid had started to wail as he strapped her into the car with Zoe. The ride was further out as he tended to hop around churches like a drunk did bars. Once in the parking lot he gave Zoe the duties at dragging up the two clear bags of stuff that he'd crammed everything into.

Ava clung to Greed's vest as he walked her toward the front door. She had already grown gravely attached to him, which was the side effect to his influence. On someone so young she would have lasted longer with him before wearing out. Babies had a lot more strength. As he peeled her off of him she gripped his vest tighter her fat bottom lip poking out ready to rip a loud cry. He sat her down still in that cute yellow dress he'd picked out, a sun hat to cover her eyes and a jacket to keep her warm. The moment he started to back away those little hiccups surfaced and her eyes filled with tears. It didn't matter what the girl grew up to be, she wasn't going to forget Greed. He'd branded himself into her head, to him she was his new father. Her parents would never again have the bond they'd shared before because she'd been infused with a deadly Sin.

Greed walked back up the steps, wiping away the tears off her puffy cheeks. "Don't do that..." he said, crouching down to her level. She instantly hushed, bright eyes focused on his voice. "I'll visit. Sometime. Or something." He buttoned up the top button of her coat as the wind gushed by. "You look much cuter as a fat butterball than fried crispy bacon." This was the third time he'd had to give something up, it wasn't getting any easier. Giving things wasn't his territory. It was for his benefit, to protect what was his because Satan killing it would be another Hell King stealing from him.

He cushioned her between the bags of toys and clothes, giving the little thing a kiss on the cheek. She smiled softly one last time before breaking out into a tearful wail when he left again. Her fat little arms reached out as he sat in his car watching from a distance. He wasn't going to leave before seeing someone come out. After a few minutes he fished around in his pocket and pulled out the golden bracelet and hung it from his rear view mirror.

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[info]history_repeats
2012-12-05 05:42 am UTC (link)
Zoe was alarmed by that, she couldn't not ask. One, Greed seemed so upset and two... what was he possibly keeping from her that would result in her leaving? She felt fear clawing in her gut but squeezed him, "Chance.." she kissed his head, "Talk to me.. it'll be okay. Just...." was it more than Ava? More than his sister? Her tone was filled with massive worry, she wanted to know but something in her at the same time..

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[info]better_than
2012-12-05 03:43 pm UTC (link)
Greed squeezed his eyes tight repeating the words over and over again in his head until it just blurted right out. He was a scolded child. "I fuck Lust." Jesus Christ there was no going back from that one. He hoped in his quick explanation she hadn't heard him. He waited for the shove off because she was going to gag. Humans usually didn't understand this situation.

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[info]history_repeats
2012-12-05 03:51 pm UTC (link)
Out of all the things Greed could have said, that was not something Zoe expected to hear from his mouth. In fact, she wasn't even sure she heard him correctly. "What do you mean you fuck Lust..." she said slowly. Because.. wasn't Lust gone? He couldn't possibly mean that he.. that would be.. no way. No no no no no.

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[info]better_than
2012-12-05 07:08 pm UTC (link)
It was in his nature to ruin things. A Sin could never have something good could they? It seemed to work for Wrath....so then why not for him damn it! Lust was having her fill now. Had she predicted this?

There was no going back. He'd wanted to blurt it out many times before. He didn't let her go though, still holding on because he could. "Lust is my mirror." He peeled himself up a little so he could look at her. "We don't always, but more often than not..." She looked dejected and he expected it. "We fuck." There was no other way to say it.

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[info]history_repeats
2012-12-05 09:52 pm UTC (link)
Zoe froze as she looked at him, there really was no other way to explain what he said but she hoped. She prayed. Please, if there is a God, do not let him-- and no, there was no God. This was why her family didn't subscribe to religion because it was always a total let down.

She looked repulsed but something stuck out in what he was saying, he was using present tense, not past. But oh God.. GOD! She pushed at him to get him off her, "You have sex with your sister!?" she kept shoving at him, trying to get off the bed herself, feeling gross. "Why are you telling me this now!?" she was trying to process the whole sex with his sister thing but the fact that he was saying he did it pretty often was demanding her attention but she didn't know if she could handle falling apart all in one go.

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[info]better_than
2012-12-06 12:01 am UTC (link)
"She's not my sister like you think of it." He grabbed her wrist as she pushed him harder and harder until he rolled off. "Listen to me..." he clamped down. He wasn't letting her go. He'd never wanted to merge these two worlds. In fact he'd never imagined there would be two sides of this coin to play for so long.

"I've tried to tell you before. Zoe..." his voice got a little choked up.

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[info]history_repeats
2012-12-06 12:15 am UTC (link)
Zoe curled her hand into a fist and yanked on it repeatedly, twisting and turning to try to get loose, "You don't.. people don't sleep with their families, it's-- let go of me!" she raised her voice, still trying to get away.

She only paused to look at him when he said he tried to tell her before and she was in disbelief, "You did? You tried? When? The first night when you told me you were a Sin and I begged you to please not go down this road. Or every time after that where I pleaded with you to please just be friends with me, don't get involved with me more than that because I won't be able to handle it if you.." her eyes filled with tears as she shook her head, "Or maybe it was when you wanted me to be your girlfriend and I told you..." it was the one thing she'd asked for, just one. She should have known better. She had no one to blame but herself.

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[info]better_than
2012-12-06 12:22 am UTC (link)
He didn't let up. Physically he could cling to something just as hard. "You don't understand it. I knew you wouldn't get it." He gritted his teeth through his water-lined eyes. "Lust has been there since we were born and not like you are born. Not with blood ties. She is my mirror. It's always been this way." They were kin, but his excess sins they were linked to each other as a chain. "I didn't break my promise. You said no random girls, Lust doesn't fall into that category." His voice got heavier the more he tried to explain. It wasn't something a mortal could grasp. It was incest, something of a gross nature. Something dark and unnatural.

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[info]history_repeats
2012-12-06 12:30 am UTC (link)
Zoe still struggled, "You should have told me before! In the beginning, if--" she stopped talking, if she'd known she probably wouldn't be here right now. "Fine, it's always been this way then it can keep being this way, let me go!"

Her mouth dropped open when he was trying to argue semantics, "No, no, NO! You do not get to cry technicality on this. I didn't know about you sleeping with her and you know it. You know that is such a bullshit way to say you didn't break your promise." she tried to kick him just to get him to let go but then stopped for a moment, she still wouldn't look at him but her voice got dangerously quiet as she asked, "How soon after you promised me did you sleep with her...?"

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[info]better_than
2012-12-06 12:43 am UTC (link)
The more she fidgeted the longer he held on. They were both standing now, her direction towards the door and him not letting up on his iron grip. Eventually, he yanked her back towards him, her back hitting his chest and both his arms enveloped around her, rooting her to that spot. She didn't have to look at him, he knew she couldn't.

He hadn't planned on ever telling her. He hadn't planned on her ever getting this close. This had been a fail safe move. Figure out what it was that made this so intriguing. But now that he had it, he didn't want to ever let it fade from his grasp. He'd wanted it for too long. He squeezed his arms around her tighter, not enough to hurt, but he was going to lock her up right there.

"Lust is persuasive. She feeds off me and I feed off of her it's not as simple as--" He rooted his chin into her shoulder with a hurt sigh. "Don't ask me that."

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[info]history_repeats
2012-12-06 12:52 am UTC (link)
Zoe closed her eyes when he pulled her to him and locked her in his vice like grip. She hated being so close to him, she didn't want to smell him or feel him and he wasn't being fair in this. She turned her head to the side away from him when he put his chin on her shoulder. Her eyes were still closed as she said with as much strength she could even though it came out in a hushed voice, "Tell me.."

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[info]better_than
2012-12-06 12:57 am UTC (link)
"No matter what I tell you it doesn't lesson the blow." He inhaled heavy, exhaling just as stiffly. Her wreck of emotions was pulling out his human side easy. He didn't want to tell her.

"Little over half an hour." His eyes were squeezed so tight that when he opened them again all he could see was a watery blur.

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[info]history_repeats
2012-12-06 01:13 am UTC (link)
There was nothing that would lessen the blow of course but if he was going to hit her, she wanted the truth. She didn't know what answer she'd been expecting, no answer would make it okay or make her feel better but 30 minutes? That's what she meant to him? Thirty minutes. She was worth less than an hour.

Her eyes also squeezed tightly shut after he gave her the answer. Her head dropped forward as hot tears finally made their way down her cheeks. She didn't say anything but her body shook with silent sobs. Her heart physically hurt and he couldn't have caused more pain than if he'd actually taken a knife to her heart. In fact, she would have preferred that to this.

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[info]better_than
2012-12-06 01:17 am UTC (link)
Greed had done what he was best at doing when it came to humans, he broke them. This one he hadn't even pushed to that point, or maybe he had all along.

He took a few steps back until his legs hit the side of the bed and he scaled down the side with her until they were both on the floor wrapped up in a tight bundle. He pressed a cheek against her back, closing his eyes against his own tears as he listened to her sob.

"I break everything," he whispered. Her emotions were feeding into him, he was burning up but this time out of such sadness. He'd only felt that one other time, but not like this. He didn't know how to fix this.

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[info]history_repeats
2012-12-06 01:36 am UTC (link)
Zoe had been in bad relationships before, she'd dated some really bad guys who she thought were good guys and she'd dated some bad guys that she hoped weren't as bad as they seemed. She'd been insulted, she'd been dumped, scorned, thrown aside, cheated on, pretty much every bad thing that could happen while dating or in a relationship, she'd been through it. And none of it hurt nearly as much as this.

She let him move them how he wanted cause she felt like if he didn't have his arms around her, she would have dropped to the floor. Her tears wouldn't stop, she wanted to stop them but it was unlike any type of crying she'd ever done before in front of him. They weren't just sad tears, he was watching her heart break and as if that pain was physical, she was crying. Broken? Yeah, there wasn't a better word to describe it.

She leaned forward, not wanting his cheek on her back, rolling her shoulders to try and get him off. She didn't want him near her and she was trapped in his arms. She couldn't even bury her face in her hands because of it, just keep her head bowed so her hair would partly cover her shame and grief.

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[info]better_than
2012-12-06 01:46 am UTC (link)
He literally couldn't break his grip. Not right now. He wanted her to understand. Right now. He expected her to, but that was his selfishness. It didn't make sense to him that she couldn't. She was bringing out so many horrible things inside with her sadness. The way she seemed so repulsed by him dug another hole inside.

She was pulling away from him. The same way Josie had. "If I let you go you'll run. You'll run and you'll never look back." This was the price he paid for not using her like he used others. Why did her emotions bleed into him like this. He didn't want to feel this, and once she left he had lost everything he treasured in one day. There was no one to turn to. He couldn't even go running to Lust.

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[info]history_repeats
2012-12-06 01:57 am UTC (link)
Her skin ached just from being in his arms and part of her wanted to turn and bury her face in his neck and just cry for days. If only he wasn't the source of her pain. She still didn't look at him, but she wasn't struggling because it was useless and she felt like she had no energy left at the moment, her voice reflect that, she sounded... crushed. "What difference does it make, you'll find someone else." isn't that what he did? Collect toys? He broke her, he should have a party and move on to the next one. She couldn't help but add, "Maybe they'll be worth a whole hour." because it wasn't just the incest, it was how little she'd meant to him. She didn't care how he tried to justify it, if he knew that she wouldn't be able to understand sleeping with his sister then he knew that Zoe would have considered Lust part of that promise.

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[info]better_than
2012-12-06 02:08 am UTC (link)
He wanted her to cling to him because he could make her. He would make her...but through her hurtful sobs he couldn't. He'd never made her do anything now, he had no chance to start now---because the moment he did she was really gone.

She was a million pieces on the floor, but super glue and duct tape wouldn't fix this one. On his own Greed fucked up.

"Stop it. Stop saying that," he said in his own chocked reply, sniffing away that huge lump in his throat. God it was hard to talk like this. He was draining her slowly like this, he could feel her go limp in his arms. "Stop it...stop it...stop it."

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[info]history_repeats
2012-12-06 02:23 am UTC (link)
Zoe felt fresh tears at just hearing his voice telling her to stop. "Why?" she asked incredulously. What was the point now? "Isn't the truth supposed to hurt? I begged you to please let me be because I knew this would happen and you told me it would!" she shook her head, "But none of this has ever been about me. Why should you give a damn about how much you hurt a stupid toaster. You have the perfect excuse to be selfish but you know what, Sin or not, you're as bad as the rest of them." the brief burst of energy she had died again as she said in a defeated hushed voice, "Congratulations, you're finally a real boy." because what he did had nothing to do with being a Sin in her eyes. He hurt her. He did what they all did. The only difference was that this time she gave her heart to him, she gave her heart to the one guy that already told her he broke everything. And she still handed it over. She wanted to blame it on him, say he stole it, but he didn't. She knew.. she knew.. and this was her fault.

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[info]better_than
2012-12-06 02:33 am UTC (link)
"This isn't my fault. Fuck you..." his voice was a whisper, his grip easing up. She might as well have jumped in that lake with Josie because this time she'd given him hope in thinking he could be himself. She'd opened that door and now what was she doing? She was shoving it in his face! That was not fair at all.

His arms dropped from her now, his eyes focused forward and he couldn't see anything through his own tears. Just...a heaviness he couldn't lift.

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[info]history_repeats
2012-12-06 02:43 am UTC (link)
"No, it's mine." she choked on the words, "I knew better. I just thought because.." she couldn't finish her words and now that his arms dropped from around her, she raked her hands through her hair as her face fell again and a sob broke from her. She felt stupid telling him any of the things she thought because it'd all been wrong. She got to her feet quickly, literally shaking and practically ran into the bathroom.

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[info]better_than
2012-12-06 02:53 am UTC (link)
He realized he'd released her and scrambled to get a hold of her again. He'd chased Josie off a cliff. She had let go of him that time. "Zoe!" he picked himself up throwing himself to the bathroom but the door was shut.

Greed threw his back against the door, hitting his head against it. "Because of what Zoe? Say it!" he wanted to hear her say it because no one had ever wanted to see him as a human boy. Now, she treated him as the Sin he really was.

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[info]history_repeats
2012-12-06 03:03 am UTC (link)
Her voice just shouted back, "WHY!? What difference could it possibly make??" but she couldn't hide the anguish in her voice at knowing it really didn't make a difference. At least she was on her own, she sat on the floor and realized she was still wearing that dress thing and took it off, grabbing her clothes. Wanting to get away from here.

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[info]better_than
2012-12-06 03:09 am UTC (link)
Greed barricaded himself against the door. If she was going to go in there, he wasn't letting her out. He banged his head against it again. He messed it all up. He fucked everything up. He just held on so tight...

"Because it does! Because to you I'm not just some Sin. Stop treating me like I am." If she'd known in the beginning before he'd even opened his mouth, she would have done the same. She would have kept walking. He would have never given her a second glance.

Instead she had picked up his wallet and opened the door to so many possibilities. Now that door was closed.

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[info]history_repeats
2012-12-06 03:18 am UTC (link)
Zoe's hands were shaking as she covered her face, finally back in her own clothes, her knees to her chest like a child. "I thought you were different." she said it in a normal voice, as if he was right next to her, not knowing or caring if he heard her. "I thought maybe.." she shook her head and shouted, "It doesn't matter! It's done!"

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