[Saya can't quite hide the way her body shifts with those words, unconsciously wanting her to turn toward where Hei is waiting.] No. I'm saying that -- I was never meant to exist.
[All her reasons that seemed so poignant a moment ago now sound strange in her head, since Zero put them in such neat order. Still, she recites them, more or less automatically.]
This place is strange. Chemicals in the air and other odd happenings. I never know when I'll lose control. Zero says he'd stop me, that there are others too who would help, but by the time they find me I could have already -- [Her voice fails her as she grapples with haunting flashes of screaming women, hot blood spattering her face.]
And... even if that doesn't happen, it won't be long before I fall into my long sleep. Thirty years I'll sleep, while everything around me changes. And when I wake up I won't remember anything or anyone.
[She pauses, anger flooding her in a short burst. Is that enough? Is she through justifying her decisions about her life, yet?]