But only that; that much is easy with people. [She pokes at her dish with a sudden sigh and deflated mood, slumping down in her chair slightly. It's not difficult to act nice to most others with her patience and good heart, but it's only ever superficial; she's never experienced actually connecting with another person. Even the most important people like Van and Legretta were always unknown on a deeper level to her]
I'm not entirely sure how to be more, even when I want to. It's awkward and confusing.