[He can't. He just... can't and where he'd usually cling to his convictions that there's always a way, he just doesn't seem to be able to fool himself today. Normally he's afraid to show that things aren't always peachy, but now... he can't bring himself to care.
Stumbling to a final halt Aidan slumps back against a wall, knees buckling under him. Plain refusal is difficult to find, especially with the way he can't keep himself from choking up. ]
Saya... [Cracking. He presses the heel of his palm to his eyes, not caring much that he's crying in front of her.] Please be okay... please...