moose and squirrel.
It's easier. It hurts and you know it's wrong, but coming back from it hurts, and it's easier when there's someone else in control. So you don't have to be.
But it's better. When it's not. When it's only you in your head. It just takes a while for your head and your heart to know that.
You find something to make a reason to not be dead. Sometimes it's just small. You want to know what something tastes like. You want to remember where something is.
You could want to try something new. The lip gloss that you had in a package and I took out because it smelled like cherries. Want to tell someone you're sorry. Want to try to do something that helps someone a little to make up for something they made you do. It won't stop hurting but it's enough to not die.
He's alive here. You're alive here. It doesn't go away but it gets easier to breathe.