Okay, Hannibal Jr. I know it's sexist and we live in a man's world and so forth and so on and Gloria Steinem, but it's just always going to tip you to an extra level of creepy that you keep saying "her" and "she" in there, that's just the world. Unless it's not your world and you live in a vagina-ruled man hating matriarchy of dark elves, then it doesn't make it MORE creepy, just the same level of creepy.
Wanting answers sounds familiar man. But the rest is movie villaining you here.