Um, all right, so... I'm kinda-sorta doing NaNoWriMo. And I think I'm kinda-sorta nuts. Or possibly more than kinda-sorta, because really, WTF?! I haven't written ANYTHING fictional besides a handful of fanfic drabbles since 2006, which is when I finished my last novel. I've written two novels already through NaNoWriMo - and since this last one, I hadn't been able to write just about anything. Fanfic ideas came and went, and I had NO original fiction ideas that I was really enthusiastic about pursuing, and now...
I WROTE 4,220 WORDS TODAY. While I realise that this may be a paltry sum for many of you, this is more fiction than I've written in YEARS. I used to write all the time. I started trying to write books when I was in first or second grade. Nothing was finished until I started doing NaNo, and actually finishing a book completely changed my life. Finishing two was absolutely crazy.
And now... I've only committed myself definitively to 25,000 words, which is equivalent to half the NaNo goal. But - I have a feeling I'm going to get suckered into writing another novel, a full 50,000 words before the month is up. I mean, I use scene cards. As in, before I begin, break down the entire story into scenes and set an approximate word count to be met for each scene. I wrote three scenes today which were supposed to be 1,000 words, 500 words, and another 500 words. The 1,000 word scene went over by about 300 words no big deal), but both of the 500 word scenes decided to nearly triple themselves.
... I'm pretty terrified right now. It's such a high, writing again, and... I don't want to lose this, but I'm terrified of reaching out and really grabbing this again.
Somebody hold my hand, plz? 0.o kthxbi